My mind was racing. My sagittarian fire was raging. My angst was escalating and I was crying in futile rage against the dying of the light.
So I had a drink and took a nap. There are times when you need a cranberry vodka. There are times when you can enjoy a puff on a bowl of marijuana and there are other times when you need to be stone cold sober so you can grok all the intricacies of life.
Self medication is not a bad thing. Better living through modern chemisty. A bowl of ice cream is my medication of choice tonight. Blue Bunny Bordeaux Cherry Chocolate. I feel so calm and comforted. Life can be brutal.
Where does it say we have to be so darn good all the time? I agree that eating too much or drinking too much is bad and makes you feel terrible. I often wonder why I think eating a bunch of chocolate brownies fresh and warm out of the oven makes me feel so good in the moment but then I feel bad later on trying to digest the mess. I think it is a matter of quantity.
Why isn't life simple? Substances exist in this world to offer comfort but then they turn on you with hang overs and nausea. Moderation in all things, even moderation.