I have been struggling with intimacy and here's why: we seem to be fighting a lot.  Or from my perspective, my partner's tone of voice indicates that she is irritated with me quite a bit or she doens't acknowledge my sneezes, my good mornings, my invitations for lunch on the upcoming… Read full post »

A few  weeks ago, as I walked to Whole Foods, I passed a couple parking their car on 10th just west of Lennox.  She was holding a young baby girl, maybe 2-3 years old and he was talking on the phone and reaching into the car to grab the baby/diaper bag.… Read full post »

Driving home the other  night, I passed a billboard that made my jaw drop.

President Obama supports Gay Marriage and Abortion.

Do you?

- the Republican party

When George W. Bush was elected, I promised myself I would "do" something, get involved, or say something.  Protest.  Blo… Read full post »

I was in the bay when I first heard the story.  I'd spilled topsoil in the backseat of my car and had stopped to use the station shop vac.  I'd just put it back into the storage room and had happened upon three or four firefighters kibitzing.  A high-school girl's ability… Read full post »

Around 8:30 am Friday morning, the new Deputy Chief poked his head into my office, "Budget meeting at 10, Flashbacks in 15." 

Since I'd been at work for over an hour, I checked my calendar again.  There was nothing on my calendar for that morning.  I looked at the Chief's… Read full post »

It was our last night of a week long, wonderful vacation.  We'd eaten well, slept well, and taken in the great upstate NY outdoors.  We were camped out once again in my nephew's room, awash in the teenage decor, ready to sleep for a few hours before catching a plane home.… Read full post »

I was reading my Facebook homepage yesterday, a friend I'd known from middle school, in fact, his 8th grade science project was featured in our local paper and I was parked in front of it, pointing to one of the planets.  I'd reconnected with him via the social networking page and… Read full post »

I fell in love awhile ago and we did that "stay at your place, stay at my place" for awhile.    She warned me when we first came for a visit that her man was "animal aggressive".  At 13, insulin dependent and weighing as much as my Westie, it didn't take long… Read full post »

when i returned to the workforce, 14 months ago, it was as a receptionist at more than a 50% paycut.  it was a first for me working for a government entity and for a fire department but the first several months I was so grateful and motivated that I showed up… Read full post »

my day, today, began around 2:30 am with  a painful breath.  i hadn't felt this sensation since i was 14, and at that time, I distinctly remember thinking, "this isn't the fun I thought it would be".

 not uncommon for my boobs to be sensitive just before my period, in fact,… Read full post »

It feels really good to unstick.
 
Awake and thinking about a conversation with Wonder the other night on the beach.  Ok, before the toe curling, and the shooting stars.  Breaking all the rules (again) we were talking about having ex's in our current lives.  I haven't. Hey… Read full post »

Wonder has repeated a comment to me several times, "You are a beautiful woman, I'm sure you've had lots of offers."

Truth be told, I have.   In fact, at times, it annoys me so when I wear out, I go out but not "all out".  Like the night I met Wonder,… Read full post »

Its been a busy few months here since I was fired on October 24th.  As I'd never been fired before, it was a terrible feeling that lingered in my chest for about three weeks like a kick from a horse.   Somewhere in the middle of this, I got the idea to… Read full post »

I didn't see this coming.

Of all the feelings I was prepared to feel this past two weeks as I finally got my projected experience of walking accross that stage, shaking the president's hand and yelling with the mascot, the last feeling, the last feeling I anticipated, hell, this has caught… Read full post »

Cootchie and I were having our walk this morning in the park when a woman approached with two pugs and a french bulldog.  Cootchie is well socialized so we paused while the dogs greated one another in the traditional butt sniffing manner.  The woman was very lean and although adolescently d… Read full post »

Its been awhile since anyone caught my attention.  It happened so unexpectedly, on a Saturday night, at a club re-0pening.  I was wearing blue jeans and the Sesame Street t-shirt that I've learned not to wear to children's parties (they like to point to their favorite characters a… Read full post »

My first day with my brother's family was somewhat tramatic for me.  Its been 24 years since I got airsick and yet that's exactly what happened coming into Charlotte at 11:25 yesterday morning.  Ew Gross.  That I had a connecting flight seemed like just pure torture and I anticipated g… Read full post »

"Laughter is the highest vibration" an instructor once said to me and then he asked me to leave his class. 

The "vibe" has been running high between me and my gay boyfriend Andres.  I blame it on graduate school and our immense cranial capacity.  Stressed out, we've both got that… Read full post »

A few weeks ago, I stepped out of Jo's Volvo and as I turned around, knew the blind date would only be another painful hour.  She looked nothing  like her picture: it was a really good picture.  But in person, her skin was much darker and her eyes sagged at the… Read full post »

Beth was dropping me off at the Metro, the wonder-transport for those of us too clueless to take our cars into the shop when the engine light first comes on and asked about Gonzalo our neighbor.  Married to Maria,  Gonzalo is a adolescent boy trapped in a fifty year old body.  At… Read full post »

I don't subscribe to cable and because her husband Jorge works at night, my neighbor Beth and I watched the Logo channel for several hours last night (she likes the L Word).  At each commercial break, she'd turn her head and ask me probing questions about my culture… Read full post »

i was speaking to my step-mother tonight and she was telling me about a wonderful wedding she & my father attended this weekend.  the young man has been friends with my brother luke since 5th grade and i was excited to hear as many details as possible.   i remember chris hock… Read full post »