About an hour ago, Zack was hit by a car. He's dead. This is killing me, but I have to write this out. Terri is a mess, and I have to go bury my buddy. In what fucking wold is this right? In what fucking world, when you call a Vet, they won't even look at him without their blood money. Won't even let you in the door without money I don't have.
I picked him up, and cleaned him up the best I could, and he didn't seem to have anything broken. He kept trying to crawl to me, and all I could do was rub him. I thought maybe he was just knocked down hard. But, after an hour, he died. Now, I have to bury another dog. I'll never bury another one. This is so fucking hard, but you are the only one's I can talk to.
I have to take a break, Too much shit is going wrong. I'm going to be off for at least a few days. I just don't know anymore. I don't know what the hell I'm trying to prove here anyway. I just wanted you to know how much I think off you, and I won't be around for awhile. I am really getting close to the fucking edge with life. Nothing changes, it just gets fucking worse every day.
I gotta go bury my buddy. Thank you for being there for me. I just didn't have anyone else to tell. I'll try and be back in a few day, but I'll let you know whats up. You have been to good to me for me not to let you know what's going on. I love you all. Say a prayer for a little dog, that that only liked to play and loved Terri and I. Thanks~
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Oh, I am so sorry for you and Terri. I am sending a prayer out right *NOW* and hoping for his little soul to mend as well as healing love for you and Terri.
I am so, so, so sorry.
None of this can make you feel any better but just please know that while I may be the first to respond to your sad post, there are many among us who totally understand your sorrow. My best thoughts are with you today, my new friend.
Take care of yourself and Terri
Just...take care
this is terrible.
don't lose heart, though I know you've lost a big piece today, my own is aching for you.
take a long break to get your heart and head back together.
((((Terri ))))
RIP sweet Zack :( :(
he knew he was loved
he was a good boy
I'm so sorry for your loss.
xoxo
I'm so sorry.
So very sorry.
There aren't any words that will really help, I know. It's sad that the veterinary medical profession isn't like the human in that they have to treat, ethically, regardless of financial means. Part of the 'stew' we're caught in between the radical animal right and true animal welfare :(.
All I can offer is that our animals live on a different level than we humans do, they live in the moment, and they take each moment as it comes. They don't have regrets for things that might have been, that's our own special 'torture chamber'.
Zack loved life, he loved you and Terri, all was good. And you were with him when he went home, you were his 'pack', that's how he'd have wanted it, and what you were able to give him.
That's what matters.
Rated for a pain other animal lovers well understand.
love to you and Terri.....
Rated with mega hugs and I am here for ya if you need to vent.
We'll be here and we'll listen.
Take care of yourself and Terri.
What little comfort I can give here is nothing compared to the love he gave you.
Know that his selfless love will be with you forever, and that no matter what anyone tells you, there is a Truth that is bigger than this world.
Listen in the stillness to the quiet love in your heart. You will see him again.
The pain you live with now may never fade until that day, but have faith that one day, it will come.
My love is with you Scanner, and I hope beyond hope that you do not make the mistake I did, so many years ago when I lost my Buddy.
I had a basset hound for 12 ½ years. When he died, I was devastated. He was my best bud and a real character.
I came to the realization, that a dog that is with someone for a short while and who loves them very much is better than a dog that has a long life and is abused. Your little buddy knew you loved him and I am sure that was worth a lifetime for him.
When my dog died, I was not going to get another one because of the attachment. I then realized that getting another dog would enable me to give a great life to it, instead of it possibly being stuck in a bad situation. Strays and dogs in the pound are only looking for a chance at a nice life, even if it winds up being short. They are only looking for an inkling of love and care. You never know what is going to happen, but if they are loved, they have lived a great lifetime.
Don’t let life beat you down. The beauty of America is that we can all have differing opinions, no matter how much we disagree. Pets seem to be a common denominator that can bring people together because pets do not care about political views or agendas.
They just accept us for what we are, no strings attached.
So sorry to hear about your loss of your beloved dog. Maybe time away is the best thing. Thanks for letting us know. I'd be worried if you just up and were gone without word. I'm taking a break from blogging myself and jumping in when I can ... but right now I'm sending love to you and Terri. xo
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Losing a pet is so hard. I am sorry for your loss.
Very sorry that you are experiencing this heartache yet again.
Just know that if you've loved a dog (or dogs), you can love another, as hard as that seems to contemplate right now. And that dog's life will be all the better for it, as will yours. Fortunately, there's not a limited supply of love: it expands to encompass those who need it most (including you, my dear man). Pass it on to your next pooch, knowing that you'll get it back from him/her in spades.
Choosing A Dog
"It's love," they say.
You touch the right one
and a whole half of the universe
wakes up, a new half.
Some people never find that half,
or they neglect it or trade it
for money or success and it dies.
The faces of big dogs tell,
over the years,
that size is a burden:
you enjoy it for awhile
but then maintenance gets to you.
When I get old I think I'll keep,
not a little dog, but a serious dog,
for the casual, drop-in criminal —
My kind of dog, unimpressed by
dress or manner, just knowing
what's really there by the smell.
Your good dogs, some things that they hear
they don't really want you to know —
it's too grim or ethereal.
And sometimes when they look in the fire
they see time going on and someone alone,
but they don't say anything.
~ by William Stafford, from The Way It Is. © Graywolf Press, 1998
I am so sorry for your loss. I am so impressed by the outpouring of empathy from the open salon community. You are make up such a wonderful and caring community.
Zack has enriched your lives in ways that will only continue to grow. Never forget him.
Life has not been fair to you and Terri when it comes to dogs. I don't even know what to say.
Hang in there. We love you.
It just isn't right than one human being has to suffer so much over and over again. I love you Scanner. Please take the time you need and come back to us.
Lezlie
You guys hold each other and build back up your strength. Everyone here is holding you too. "Lean on me, when you're not strong, and I'll be your friend; I'll help you carry on." Don't know who wrote it but I do know Bill Withers sang it. xxxooo
I felt the same way when Sadie died too. She was a rare one.
tears. no words.
truly know your sadness. but don't give up on life.
May you find comfort and hope. Thanks for sharing your love of Zack with us.
Take care, my friend.
lots of people care...just know there are a lot of people here who care about you and feel for your loss. so sad...such a little guy.
listen, puppies are scary. I have one. they're everywhere. I can't do a damned thing except babysit my crazyass puppy. he wants to dig his way to the far east, he wants to go for walks alone, he likes everyone, especially everyone...he doesn't care...if he senses you're alive, he's checking you out...so if he sees you, he's going over to you, even if there's a stupid car in his way. he's nuts.
consider getting an older dog. I know it's soon, but think about it. they need people, a home...somewhere down the line their people had to make a choice to let them go, sometimes for not good reasons...like because they're old..
but listen.. they know the ropes. they know how to look out for themselves. and they're grateful as all getout if you give them a place to lay their heads and love them. my next is going to be an old boxer. as soon as this numbskull settles in and I can trust that he isn't going to eat the fucking rug because it's there and so is he.
love Cynthia
I hope you can think about all the good days and love you gave and got from Zack. You'll see him on the Rainbow Bridge someday, but hopefully not too soon.
Hugs.
you came to the right place
Your Zack will go to Rainbow Ridge and please do in time get another one. They need us. Adopt from a rescue. We adopt all our Golden Retrievers from the Retriever Rescue. We don't have to worry about our cats as they just wander up to our barn and declare it home.
Time heals, Sincerely.
Susan May