I'm very discouraged. I seem to be stuck at 157, down from 170. If I had stuck to a 1000 calorie per day diet these past months, I would be down by 50 pounds. I would weigh 120. Sigh. I was trying to eat about 1200 calories per day but was probably consuming more like 1500.
After much tinkering, I think that eating just three times a day works best for me. If only I hadn't accidently discovered the authentic Philly cheesesteak sandwiches at the Bada Bing pizza shop in Cedar Grove. The world is full of temptations.
Part of my problem, I have determined, is due to the fact that I'm a news junky and am especially drawn to news about the way to eat. Recently I read that one should consume red wine, Greek yogurt, and blueberries. I'm not a fan of yogurt in any form, but I forced myself. If I drink red wine, I want to eat strong cheese and crackers with it. The only way I like blueberries is in dessert form or blueberry muffins. But I want to be healthy.
This is the trap I keep falling into. In my efforts to eat healthy food, I have been consuming too many calories. In reality, the best thing I can do for my health is to just lose the weight. Who knows what it might do for my love life as well.
I'm hopeful that I will be able to report next week that I have dropped to 155. Wish me luck.


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Let me help you out a little here:
BADA BING IS NOT AUTHENTIC PHILLY CHEESESTEAK
Pat's Steaks and Pat's Steaks alone are authentic Philly cheesesteak.
Ask Mr. Wolfman, I'm sure he can corroborate. Accept no substitutes and you will stay slim.
Greek yogurt and blueberries and red wine? Goodness, not at the same time I hope! Have you tried a teensy bit of honey in the yogurt/blueberry combo? It becomes kind of like ice cream...
Just a thought: How's your muscle/bodyfat ratio? It could be that you're down on body fat and up on muscle which weighs more.
And another thought: you could indulge in a mini portion of the bad food you're craving. This way the craving is knocked on the head and there's not too much damage to the daily calorie count.
: )
I've recently started Weight Watchers (again). For me, I decided to focus completely on my actions, not the scale. This comes from a stint writing materials for industrial safety training. If you want to reduce accidents (the results), you don't count accidents. You focus on the behaviors you want people to do (not NOT do), and reward them (wearing hard hats, doing ladder checks, wearing steel-toed boots, etc.).
So I've been obsessively tracking everything. Every Single Thing that goes in my mouth. And the weight has been slowly coming off. Seven pounds as of this week. Many to go.
The tracking thing, once you get the hang of it, isn't so bad. It's the practice of it that is magical, not the math and the numbers. It's me having to acknowledge and witness and record every cookie, every second helping, every second glass of wine. I weigh stuff on a kitchen scale a lot. Three ounces of frosted birthday cake is really really small, and it took a lot of calories, and it wasn't really all that good. But before weighing and measuring and tracking, I would have had a second piece. And another one the next day.
The practice of weighing, measuring, and tracking is making me be mindful, and acknowledge what's going in. I am becoming better at thinking about what I'm doing before I do it (instead of after).
It's hard. I really appreciate your journal.
jmac, Just when I thought I could pick up the excercise, winter came back to Cedar Grove.
V. The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak. Great advice, though.
baltimore, Exactly right--eat less--and I shall.
froggy, Right. I need to pay more attention.
Lezlie
Are you working out? Are you following a specific diet? Have you heard of MyFitnessPal.com?
Thanks.
the brain has a section that decides when your tummy is full.
i dunno where it is, i forget, but that aint the point...
if you chew your, uh, healthy stuff more than you think you should,
you will find
you not only get fuller faster but
actually enjoy the food more.
your achievement has been momentous, to get down to 157.
your legs must be feeling lighter, and stronger, and
wanting to walk and run and frolic. Listen to them, your legs!
How delightful it feels to wake up in the morning
feeling strength in the body, in the arms and legs...
the great thing is, the more you indulge
this feeling and move around, the better you feel..
the weight will disappear
as the lithe woman inside
wakes from her food -induced slumber
and gets physically connected back to the world.
at the point you feel attractive again, all hell will break loose.
showers of lovely chemicals in the brain.
telling you to chew chew chew,
and move.
and realizing you are a work of art in the making...
James, Actually I think that is part of the problem I have with Yogurt. You can't chew it. Thanks for the encouragement.
Amy, Sugar calls to me, too. I just saw on the yahoo page that Gladys Knight lost 60 pounds in two months by eating healthy. Wow.
It's possible to find a balance of eating healthily, losing weight and include the things we love but as with most things it takes time and perseverance. You'll get there I'm sure.