It's a Safe_Bet...
- In my own little hell, Alaska,
- June 06
- Missing her while trying to be as good a mom as she was.
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Not that most people around here gives a shit any longer, but you've been gone for a little over two months now. I still can't get you out of my head even a little bit. Somehow I think you planned that didn't you, you little schemer, you. Well/… Read full post »
God I miss her today.
I actually thought that I was doing better. Then this song came on the radio and I just started blubbering. Fuck I miss her.
Until we meet again
And time makes it harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep your memory
You visit me in my sleep
… Read full post »
Dear Me at 17,
Yeah, I know… but it will get better. You will meet that girl you always fantasized about. She’ll be exactly like you dreamed. She’ll be funny, smart, sexy and she will love you more than anybody ever did. She will be/… Read full post »
My sister-in-law left about an hour ago. She's as close to family as we have. The girls love it when their "Antee" visits and I think it does them good to be cuddled and fawned over by "family". I try to do the "cuddle/fawn thing", but it must be something… Read full post »
Today, I think I finally realized that Suzy is never going to be with me again.
This morning, I used some of the anger I've been feeling to make myself finally start to clean out her closet. I started with her shoes and didn't make it any farther. I picked… Read full post »
Dear OS Friends,
Because of a comment I read today, I went and read Robin Sneed’s first ever post. http://open.salon.com/blog/robin_sneed/2008/08/18/im_here_not_exactly_queer
I’d really love to see her or anyone else with insight write more… Read full post »
I killed six hay bales today.
This afternoon I realized that I had a tremendous anger in me. I have always been a very self contained person and I found myself getting impatient at the girls and at myself over stupid little shit. That was the anger in me leaking… Read full post »
After my self-absorbed sob-fest yesterday, I promised myself not to cry in front of the kids anymore. I’ll still cry myself to sleep most nights, but from now on, all the kids will see is the strong, confident woman that they both need. They need their Poppi back the way she… Read full post »
Happy Valentine's day, baby.
Every night in my dreams
I see you, I feel you
That is how I know you go on.
Far across the distance
and spaces between us
You have come to show you go on.
wherever you are,
I believe that the heart does go on.
Once more, you opened the/… Read full post »
She got me again, yesterday afternoon.
After Suzy started to have mobility and balance issues, we had made the room off of the kitchen into our bedroom. That way Suzy wouldn't have to deal with the stairs. Yesterday, I decided to move back upstairs to the master bedr… Read full post »
I went and talked to a psychologist this morning. He told me that I would eventually get over her death and then I'd be able to move on. He didn't get it so I won't be going back. I needed to know how to survive without getting over her death. I… Read full post »
My Suzy wrote all of these for me. She is and always will be my Valentine.
True LoveTrue love?
My boi in a dress
hating it, for me
My girls holding hands
untainted, big smiles
My lover’s touch
no reason, just cuz
My imps trying so har
… Read full post »
I have this gritty, old bull dyke as a sponsor. She is a nasty mean bitch but she tells me what I need to hear without pulling any punches (sometimes literally). At 2 am this morning I was on the verge of losing it, but I called her and woke her up… Read full post »
I don't get this stuff like Suzy did. I am not an internet mavin like she was. I could never figure out why the hell she spent so much time here, either.
I do now. The warmth and concern that you, a bunch of people who don't really know us,… Read full post »
It will be a week tonight that I rocked my love to sleep for the last time.
The girls think their Poppi is close to losing it and I know they're scared. So am I because they are right. We are just scared little girls that still can't really believe that… Read full post »
I am Amy and I don't know most of you, but I need to tell you that our Suzy is gone.
When we went to bed last Saturday night, she told me she wasn’t feeling too well. I held her in my arms and rocked my baby to sleep. Just before… Read full post »
I'm gonna delete this in the morning, but damn it, I feel like whining right now. The pain killers aren't doing a damn thing and my legs and left arm freak'in HURT! I'm also feeling sorry as hell for myself at the moment.
Sitting here in a dark kitchen in… Read full post »
Sorry kids, but this one is all for your Poppi.
Amy, I’m trusting you when you said you wouldn’t read anymore of these posts. Remember, if you cheat I’ll know cuz you never could keep a secret from me! :heart:
Do you remember th… Read full post »
Hi, sweeties. It’s mom again. Hope you two are having a good day and are ‘having”. BTW, it never failed to crack me up when I told you two to “behave” and you’d tell me, “But mommy, we are being haved!” My, but you two give… Read full post »
Okay WSFTC, you asked for it....
Made of top-grade nonporous stainless steel, polished to a gleaming finish, this gorgeous device is great for doing your kegel exercises, as well as for pure, sensuous fucking. It has a gradual curve with rounded ends.
I personally consider this metal beauty to be a… Read full post »
Welcome to my eulogy.
Everybody dies sooner or later. I’m guessing I will be one of the sooner ones.
I’ve always detested most eulogies. They never seemed to match what the person REALLY was like and how they TRULY thought. I’m going to kee… Read full post »
I know I prolly shouldn't write more than one post a day, but screw it... its New Years Day so I can indulge myself!
A FRIEND of mine and I exchanged PMs earlier and the subject of Favorite Lists came up. I started looking at mine and asked Amy if maybe… Read full post »
I've decided that for my first post of 2010 (damn it feels weird typing that!), I'd make a post of my absolutest favortiest songs / YouTube videos.
If you know me, you know why I love this song. If you don't, it will explain how I think better than… Read full post »
Safe_Bet's Amy's Favorites
- Robert Becker
- Muhammad Zafrullah
- Foolish Monkey