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Safe_Bet's Amy

Safe_Bet's Amy
Location
In my own little hell, Alaska,
Birthday
June 06
Bio
Missing her while trying to be as good a mom as she was.

MY RECENT POSTS

FEBRUARY 26, 2010 10:32PM

A Letter to Me at 17

 

 

Dear Me at 17,

 

Yeah, I know…  but it will get better.  You will meet that girl you always fantasized about.  She’ll be exactly like you dreamed.  She’ll be funny, smart, sexy and she will love you more than anybody ever did.  She will be/… Read full post »

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FEBRUARY 21, 2010 10:25PM

GNS: Family / Her Diamonds

 

My sister-in-law left about an hour ago.  She's as close to family as we have.  The girls love it when their "Antee" visits and I think it does them good to be cuddled and fawned over by "family".  I try to do the "cuddle/fawn thing", but it must be somethingRead full post »

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FEBRUARY 19, 2010 12:09AM

Tears

Today, I think I finally realized that Suzy is never going to be with me again. 

This morning, I used some of the anger I've been feeling to make myself finally start to clean out her closet.  I started with her shoes and didn't make it any farther.  I pickedRead full post »

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FEBRUARY 16, 2010 6:57PM

Who Am I? An Open question.

 

 

 

Dear OS Friends,

 

Because of a comment I read today, I went and read Robin Sneed’s first ever post.  http://open.salon.com/blog/robin_sneed/2008/08/18/im_here_not_exactly_queer

 

 

I’d really love to see her or anyone else with insight write more… Read full post »

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FEBRUARY 14, 2010 11:46PM

Scaring the Animals

I killed six hay bales today. 

This afternoon I realized that I had a tremendous anger in me.  I have always been a very self contained person and I found myself getting impatient at the girls and at myself over stupid little shit.  That was the anger in me leaking… Read full post »

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After my self-absorbed sob-fest yesterday, I promised myself not to  cry in front of the kids anymore.  I’ll still cry myself to sleep most nights, but from now on, all the kids will see is the strong, confident woman that they both need.  They need their Poppi back the way sheRead full post »

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FEBRUARY 14, 2010 1:13AM

Happy Valentines, My Dearest Suzy

 

Happy Valentine's day, baby.

 

Every night in my dreams
I see you, I feel you
That is how I know you go on.

Far across the distance
and spaces between us
You have come to show you go on.

Near, Far,
wherever you are,
I believe that the heart does go on.

Once more, you opened the/
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FEBRUARY 13, 2010 9:45AM

Safe_Bet's Love Notes

She got me again, yesterday afternoon.

After Suzy started to have mobility and balance issues, we had made the room off of the kitchen into our bedroom.  That way  Suzy wouldn't have to deal with the stairs.   Yesterday, I decided to move back upstairs to the master bedr… Read full post »

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FEBRUARY 12, 2010 2:10AM

You're Home Now, Sweetie.

I went and talked to a psychologist this morning.  He told me that I would eventually get over her death and then I'd be able to move on.  He didn't get it so I won't be going back.  I needed to know how to survive without getting over her death. I… Read full post »

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FEBRUARY 10, 2010 12:57AM

Poetry for Valentines

  My Suzy wrote all of these for me.  She is and always will be my Valentine.

  

True Love

True love?
My boi in a dress
hating it, for me

True love?
My girls holding hands
untainted, big smiles

True love?
My lover’s touch
no reason, just cuz

True love?
My imps trying so har

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FEBRUARY 8, 2010 8:22AM

WET SMILES

I have this gritty, old bull dyke as a sponsor.  She is a nasty mean bitch but she tells me what I need to hear without pulling any punches (sometimes literally).  At 2 am this morning I was on the verge of losing it, but I called her and woke her upRead full post »

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FEBRUARY 7, 2010 10:27PM

THANK YOU OS

I don't get this stuff like Suzy did. I am not an internet mavin like she was. I could never figure out why the hell she spent so much time here, either.

I do now.  The warmth and concern that you, a bunch of people who don't really know us,… Read full post »

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FEBRUARY 6, 2010 11:17PM

I'M MISSING YOU TONIGHT.

It will be a week tonight that I rocked my love to sleep for the last time.

The girls think their Poppi is close to losing it and I know they're scared. So am I because they are right. We are just scared little girls that still can't really believe that… Read full post »

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FEBRUARY 5, 2010 12:16PM

BYE MY SAFE BET, I LOVE YOU

I am Amy and I don't know most of you, but I need to tell you that our Suzy is gone. 

When we went to bed last Saturday night, she told me she wasn’t feeling too well.  I held her in my arms and rocked my baby to sleep.  Just beforeRead full post »

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JANUARY 20, 2010 5:20AM

Want Some Whine With That Cheese?

I'm gonna delete this in the morning, but damn it, I feel like whining right now.  The pain killers aren't doing a damn thing and my legs and left arm freak'in HURT!  I'm also feeling sorry as hell for myself at the moment. 

Sitting here in a dark kitchen in… Read full post »

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JANUARY 12, 2010 2:01PM

Welcome to My Eulogy, Part IV

 Sorry kids, but this one is all for your Poppi.  

Amy, I’m trusting you when you said you wouldn’t read anymore of these posts.  Remember, if you cheat I’ll know cuz you never could keep a secret from me!  :heart:   

 

Do you remember thRead full post »

JANUARY 10, 2010 10:46AM

Welcome to my Eulogy, Part III

 Hi, sweeties.  It’s mom again.  Hope you two are having a good day and are ‘having”.  BTW, it never failed to crack me up when I told you two to “behave” and you’d tell me, “But mommy, we are being haved!”  My, but you two giveRead full post »

JANUARY 8, 2010 7:21PM

Welcome to my Eulogy, Part II

I know you three…  even with your bestest intentions you are going to get bored and your eyes will glaze over.  That’s okay for most of what I’m posting to you, but I HOPE there are a couple of nuggets that will be worth the effort.  So I’ve decided to breakRead full post »

Okay WSFTC, you asked for it....

Made of top-grade nonporous stainless steel, polished to a gleaming finish, this gorgeous device is great for doing your kegel exercises, as well as for pure, sensuous fucking. It has a gradual curve with rounded ends.

I personally consider this metal beauty to be a… Read full post »

JANUARY 3, 2010 10:57AM

Welcome to my Eulogy

Welcome to my eulogy. 

Everybody dies sooner or later.  I’m guessing I will be one of the sooner ones.   

I’ve always detested most eulogies.  They never seemed to match what the person REALLY was like and how they TRULY thought.  I’m going to keeRead full post »

JANUARY 1, 2010 5:38PM

Party At Safe_Bet's House! W00t!!!!

I know I prolly shouldn't write more than one post a day, but screw it...  its New Years Day so I can indulge myself! 

A FRIEND of mine and I exchanged PMs earlier and the subject of Favorite Lists came up.  I started looking at mine and asked Amy if maybeRead full post »

JANUARY 1, 2010 12:33PM

Just Cuz I Love Them!

I've decided that for my first post of 2010 (damn it feels weird typing that!), I'd make a post of my absolutest favortiest songs / YouTube videos. 

 

If you know me, you know why I love this song.  If you don't, it will explain how I think better than… Read full post »

DECEMBER 31, 2009 12:14AM

You're #1 In My Book!

First a brief poetic intermission:

If your first name rhymes with pig this is for you.

If you last name rhymes with "Failing" this is for you.

If you doesn't have a Grandma, but instead just has a Nana,

You got it...  this is for you!

 

Okay, now that that… Read full post »

DECEMBER 29, 2009 6:20PM

The Global Lesbian Conspiracy Update

 

  
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Warning If you aren’t queer you can’t read this!  Just walk away.  There is absolutely nothing to see here…

     

 

 

 

 

Okay, so now it’s just us queer chicks… 

 

H… Read full post »

NOVEMBER 17, 2009 3:40PM

A Poem for the Pope!

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This Poet's Creed

by Safe_Bet©

Me and God had a little chat. It was cool,
but we’re both pissed at all the religions of this world

Religions where -
Dancing is a sin, but calling children abominations isn’t.
Protests against queers at a straight soldier’
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