Renatta Laundry

deconstructed: emotions & expletives

Renatta Laundry

Renatta Laundry
Location
within my person,
Birthday
December 31
Title
Expatriate
Bio
i’m myself. a superhero with human flaws. white noises scratched at precise 3:21 intervals.sometimes an anesthetized bundle little more or less than alright version of me. a part time erotophobic. fulltime whole number not equal to the sum of its parts. a therapist in session with her id. a sliver of mini heart beats. an i love you nestled between a scream.

MY RECENT POSTS

“I was pregnant once, married twice, never viscerally in love, and I’m not sure what this is, but I like having you around.”  

It was one of those brisk and perfect fall days with its burnt orange, rust brown, magnificent red splattered everywhere that caused things to unrRead full post »

The day after is always the hardest and usually spent in delay; breakfast, writing, walking the Pomeranian whining behind the laundry room door, everything, postponed until sunset. She eyes the old playbill, an invitation to Cynthia’s baby shower, and the neatly stacked leaves of her manuscriptRead full post »

OCTOBER 13, 2010 10:13PM

at mid morning

it's about that thing

that woke me mid morning
before sunrise
like little drops of april and july
like crimson calms & jabs
saying handsome things about
the palm from which it read
sing-song style across beauty marks,
removed warts, fraying cuticles
and old manicures.

& with emphasis raw,
because it… Read full post »

OCTOBER 2, 2010 2:33AM

amidst scrap metal and crisis

If you can meet with triumph and disaster
And treat those two imposters just the same;

Or watch the things you gave your life to broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn out tools;

Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,

 

---Rudyard Kipling

ExcerptedRead full post »

AUGUST 26, 2010 6:09PM

Tending the moment

It amazes her how the same distance is felt differently. Forty five minutes of skyscrapers giving way to railroads, factories, tunnels, tolls, and finally suburban lawns and homes, now seem like a several hours trip to the Greenwich Meridian. She reads traffic signs, billboards, train wall advertisemRead full post »

JULY 3, 2010 2:39PM

the good that is present

It shows no discretion; this heat that forces the body to knife through palpable annoyance in order to maneuver the spaces between bathroom, kitchen, bedroom and hallway. The familiar inquisition ‘aren’t you from the tropics’ carousel riding my cranium makes me dizzy even though I kRead full post »

JUNE 19, 2010 12:18AM

a much needed catharsis

“I wouldn’t write about people who are living and who are close to me, because I think it’s a very violent thing to do to another person… And anytime I have done it, even in the disguise of fiction, the results have been horrific.” -Zadie Smith (NPR– Brave, BrainyRead full post »

There were two of them. But within those 83,000 square miles of rivers, counties and rainforest, nobody wanted to admit they existed. No family would tell another that their brother, cousin, uncle, aunt, or any relative for that matter shared an orientation other than heterosexual. Still, there wereRead full post »

MAY 27, 2010 8:36PM

the things she could not carry

He hates mornings when the evidence of past lives and old moisture pushes upward from the carpet and hangs heavily in the air. After they moved in, he had purposed to remove the once maroon number but several other projects took preeminence. “Delay continues to bitRead full post »

MAY 20, 2010 6:24PM

somewhere above the meniscus

She seemed to have been born with a certain brand of precocity and oomph. When she was old enough to go alone, she refused to be chauffeured but chose to take the minibus. As it climbed the hill, she would yell “the first house over the line.” Over the line, aRead full post »

MAY 10, 2010 12:04PM

the men in my life

He and I took turns at gently perforating her skin with tiny safety pins. A seemingly cruel act for someone who truly epitomized loving your spouse the way you love yourself, but it was a sure-fire act geared to cease the draw of her snoring. Whether they drowned the roll ofRead full post »

MAY 3, 2010 7:41PM

buried umbilical cord

for a moment as a hurricane in your bosom, where forlorn no longer stretches me between sleep and nostalgia, i’d rescind the very beat of my circadian. exhale. let my belly go. run wild and unruly between the rows of sugar cane in your demerara.

would disrupt a colony ofRead full post »

APRIL 30, 2010 6:52PM

against the prevailing ethos

she admires them. invertebrates. and contrary to popular belief, not for their exoskeleton; a clichéd parallel people enjoy drawing between that characteristic and the seemingly impermeable demeanor she totes. they’ve often complained about the harsh line that tightens at her jaw every tRead full post »

APRIL 23, 2010 1:01AM

Dessicated Things

“Shhh. Don’t move.”

The lace of fingers unraveled from her neck but his warning- which began as a whisper in the ear- remained a sonorous resound in her head. Sonia stole a shallow breath, wrapped her legs in her arms and cradled them to her chest.

“Uh huh. Not likeRead full post »

APRIL 11, 2010 11:09PM

the inertia of being broken

no one seems to notice

her predicates skillfully sliced thin

for ear. esteem. ego. gashing.

or him, trying to crawl across

the broken edges

of things in the aftermath

searching for souvenirs,

particles for a make shift model

of his heart. soul. spirit.

 

hoping amidst the rubbleRead full post »

In eight days, a birthday will bum rush me and twenty five will become a fossil but before it departs to form another mote of my bygone, this is a slice of 357 and a quarter days ago.

Normally, my birthdays are celebrated from the first to the last day ofRead full post »

In the Trenton New Jersey Rowan Towers high rise, where it is said to be so dangerous that police officers function as security guards, a 15 year old girl, upon invitation by a few men, pimped her 7 year old sister. 

 According to media reports on Wednesday March 31st, t… Read full post »

MARCH 29, 2010 7:33PM

candid in delay

watched myself
pass by
in the mystery of shop windows;
going unnoticed
between books & people
pushing pass surface emotions.

i tell myself i can do this;
can introduce my self to people.
could probably say:
i’m a girl turned woman in commute...

leaving that statement half finished to ask;

do you liste… Read full post »

MARCH 27, 2010 2:49PM

living with wraiths

'I’m not a good person. Would be even worse as a mother. And the most humane thing I could do is leave you with your father.

Rayon-Charmeuse , unable to go further, would only read to this point. Too afraid the sobs racking her chest would crash against her ribcage andRead full post »

MARCH 25, 2010 2:50PM

what signs?

As usual, I will sleep in the dark with the radio on. <-- the lone paradox in this green world of mine. allowing Saturday’s night to fall even and seamlessly into Sunday morning with the same radio pumping music into the bundle of my collective.

I know I will awake with giddyRead full post »

MARCH 17, 2010 7:15AM

we are still here

We are still here. Really. We are.

While perusing the OS blogosphere, I stumbled upon a mother ‘sharing evil with her daughter’ in hopes that she is ‘looking it in the face…calling it by its name…[and thus] hemorrhaging its power…sharing hope’ Indeed a comRead full post »

MARCH 9, 2010 10:42AM

wicca

 warlock and witch perched sacrificial

upon Sappho’s altar--

a divine monosyllable

in tandem with the delicious

gargle of lust, love and skin

clasped hook and eye seamless

like hieroglyphs and hymns.

 

definitely a love made without homage

to the gods of phallus and erectiRead full post »

12:56 am.

awoke drowning. breathless. panting for air. trying to swim to the surface. but helplessly submerged in a sea of something’s direly wrong emotions.

looked around, everything seemed okay. covers covered my very naked body. no intruders. deep intake of breath. jamaican fruit incense of y
Read full post »
MARCH 4, 2010 11:14AM

vertigo

was roaming the alcoves of my 'puter(<--as a close friend's son calls it) & found a few books that i've placed on editorial review. the following is from the one titled Sovereignty of Space.

 

Vertigo

 

i imagined calving icebergs

as tributaries formed between my thigRead full post »

MARCH 2, 2010 5:01PM

exit this way please-->

he had ugly feet

and big palms of gentility

that cupped ample breasts

and sturdy buns.

same hands that reached in

and shook the cradle of my creativity

& though i never birthed his babies

i’ve labored for many a poems

in his name ~this included~

 

loving himRead full post »