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APRIL 3, 2012 12:38PM

Just when I thought I'd figured it out.

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You know, I thought I had finally come to a place of understanding in regards to the opposite sex.  Alas, I am at a loss.

Guy With Two First Names and I had made tentative plans for Saturday afternoon.  He emailed me at 11 PM Friday night to confirm... "Sorry for my slacker response..." ... huh?  And, then, one hour before we were supposed to meet up on Saturday, he canceled, saying he woke up not feeling well, that he was sorry as he was looking forward to it, would I want to get together one evening this week?  I said "Sure, feel better soon.  I can get together any evening except for Wednesday this week."  I emailed him yesterday saying that I hope he felt better and there's no response as of today.  

Ok, sure, maybe he's really sick.  And, the ex-boyfriend who wants to see me called me yesterday and we had an uneventful ten minute conversation.  I don't get it.  I don't understand you men!  Look, I know there are bigger things that need my attention in the world right now and in my life in general.  

For instance, I wasn't admitted to my first choice school for a doctorate, but was offered a generous package by my second choice school...which is in Oregon...across the US.  I'm suddenly terrified of this adventure (what was I thinking?!) and I have come to realize this about myself:  I don't deal with change as easily as I would like to or thought I did.  

The psychic tarot card lady said this in my reading in January: (& for the record, I did the reading on a whim, with skepticism, and, yet for fun.    Plus it was half off the regular price, so what a deal. I told her nothing about myself other than I'd never had a reading done.)  She said:

  1. Ten years from now, I don't want to have regrets.  There is a move in my future, but nothing to worry about as it's for the best and I would only be a plane ride away from where I am now.  The job I have now is not right for me, it was intended to be temporary, and it's time for me to move on.  I've made my plans, and now must follow through with them or I will regret it.
  2. I already know who my soulmate is and that I would recognize him within two weeks of the reading.  She described his physical characteristics, his type of employment, and his age range in relation to mine.  She said I would call her in April about this, and that my soulmate would go with me when I move.
  3. She saw no heartbreak in my future, no money troubles, no health issues for me or my family.  She did see that I had a health issue last year, which I did, and that I am ok now, which I am.

Number one is self-explanatory.  Number two is the ex-boyfriend that now wants to see me.  Two weeks after the reading, he crossed my mind when I was flying back from Oregon and, for some reason, I really wanted to talk with him.  I suddenly wanted him back in my life, but the horrible ordeal at the end of the relationship was all I needed to reconsider and keep me on my course without him.  The physical characteristics, employment, and age range are all accurate.  Although, at the time of the reading, I couldn't figure out who it was, which she said I wouldn't be able to do.  I should just go about my business and I would realize who he is.

I told the Ex about Oregon on the phone yesterday and he was completely supportive, but I just don't know about him being in my life again.  I need to figure out some coping mechanisms for change, I suppose.  How the hell am I going to do this?  Move across the country?  It's suddenly so daunting.  At least I have the summer to say "Goodbye, DC!" 

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The issue with Tarot is that it is supposed to be a reflection of your current state of mind... with more experience and information your state of mind changes and the cards change accordingly... very few readers of the cards have the ability to accurately interpret how the cards reflect the roles and actions of specific individuals... as with life and fiction all the characters are generic and we fill in the details with our imagination and personal choices. Good luck this summer.
True. I wonder what she would say today if I were to pay her a visit? I'm not a follower of the Tarot, but my interest is piqued and I know that no card has the final say over my life. I'm more curious than anything... like reading my horoscope. I take it with a grain of salt.
I'm not a big fan of Tarot but I do believe their are clairvoyant people who have real vision. I think you truly will be able to cope with this wonderful change. Perhaps instead of saying goodbye to DC you should say hello Oregon. I think you'll love it there. Congratulations./r
Just when we think we have it figured out we change and have to start all over. I think the universe was watching out for you when this guy got sick, we have to take soul mate discover seriously and not get distracted by two first name dudes who make excuses.
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Thank you, Christine & RP. I'm so fortunate to have all of you wonderful OS-ers to share such kind, encouraging thoughts.
Everyone I know who has been to Oregon to live or to visit absolutely loves it. What school are you looking at? Maybe I can find a grad student with friends there.
Oregon is an awesome place. I was born there. Oregon has the best weather and the most beautiful landscapes anywhere in then country, and I have lived in all over the place.

There is beautiful hiking in the mountains, a great hot springs called Cougar Hotsprings outside of Eugene, which itself is a most awesome town, with a great Oregon Country Fair every summer. And there is an annual Shakespeare festival in Ashland. Portland is a great town. Not too big and not too small, with an great downtown gathering area called Pioneer Square.

Which university will you be attending?
My other response, after telling you how awesome Oregon is, hoping I manage to stir some excited enthusiasm about the chance to live there, would be to say forget the men.

Focus on your move to a great state, and earning your doctorate. Maybe an even greater guy is already in the area where you are going to, and statistically speaking, I would guess there are at least 10 who are perfect for an intelligent, creative woman like you.
Interesting post- she sounded pretty accurate from what I know about you- I don't like how this other guy is blowing you off...
Oregon is a great place to live. Born there, moved to California when I was 8. I moved back 22 years later to get a degree at Oregon State and found it a very acceptable place to live (again). Would have stayed when I graduated but employment took me back to California. If you can be open to change, life out here on the Left Coast is awesome!
Good gosh, Razzle, sounds like Oregon is heaven on earth.
Their official motto is: "Alis Volat Propriis, "Latin for "She Flies With Her Own Wings", how do you like THAT?
Coastlines! Mountains! Lots of waterfalls. Deserts!
Impressive forests.
(30 percent of Oregonians are religiously unaffiliated...)

I think I may move to Oregon...

Guy w/2 names maybe a nervous nelly-type?
Tarot, hm?
I would get a fresh reading, for, as the wise jmac advises,
it changes. Maybe see a psychic, a trusted one, too.

As for coping mechanisms for change, uh, alcohol?
Ha. No.
Alas, I am not one to advise.

Send 2 names a "get well soon " card if you decide to blow him off.
Was the "psychic tarot card lady" smoking and pregnant?

If you got half off the regular price...maybe the reading was only half accurate.

Good thing you didn't sleep with the guy with two names.
I am not going tell you what to do. Tarot, Moms, friends and guys all seem to be telling you what you should do. I will tell you that you have struck me as strong and someone who knows what she wants out of life. You own your life. Should you go to Oregon? Should you stay in DC? You know better than the Tarot cards, me or anyone else. You know. What would you do if fear did not stop you? Now, act. Whatever you choose, you choose it.
You're moving to my neck of the woods. Cool! It's incredible here. As far as being brave...you already know you are. I don't have to break out the deck to read that. You know, you know, you know. The men thing...don't worry about it. It's hard not to, but that too will work out when you least expect it.
"Goodbye, DC!"
yay! you're going back to where the artists are, and people don't walk around with their own Popsicle stick
Something about a move gives you the chance to start all over again. Oregon is a great place for beginnings.
Every time you think you have it figured out it's gonna change, sorry, just the nature of life as I have seen over a few more years than you. I can't tell you how many times things were going well and then BOOM or things were in the toilet and I was giving up on this or that, and surely enough, it came round again. Take care Raz.
I moved across the country once, and it worked out just fine. Sometimes good things can happen when you get out of your comfort zone, like meeting new people and making new friends...
You are always griping about your sex life. Well now lets see we have the guy with 2 first names, the ex boyfriend, and the soul mate waiting in the wings. Sounds like you have a dance card to me. Life is not a TV program or a romance novel, in fact in this gender confused world love just may be an anachronism.

Beware of fortune tellers

“I ran into the fortune-teller who said beware of lightning that might strike” – Bob Dylan

“But the stars tell lies, it blinds the only warning
And when darkness dies, there's nothing left but morning . . .” - Jim Carroll
I like what Romantic Poetess said, as I often do. A lot of it comes down to what you think will make you happiest at this moment (jmac1949 is correct on the current state of mind comment). Going to graduate school? Or having a soulmate? Making a change in your life? Or staying put? I will tell you, having lived in both Eugene, Oregon and Washington, D.C. that Eugene will be like a completely different planet for you compared to Washington. Maybe that is not bad. You may just need to take time by yourself, to focus on yourself, so you can find these answers. It's hard. But I think you'll find your way, no matter where it leads.
Oregon sounds great. The ex - not so much. Tarot never tells you anything you don't already know - as Mac said. (Mac is always amazing me, hello smoked salmon and frozen vodka, with the breadth of his experience.) As for grain of salt, I usually recommend a salt-shaker...for some people, an entire salt mine.
Wow, it really must seem a planet away. But I too have lived in the Pacific NW, and it was life-changing, awe-inspiring, and the energy there had me finally taking art classes that I had longed for most of my life. Enjoy you, because you are so enjoyable. Sorry for the dilemma, but - I agree with all; you'll surely get it right. R; you always put it out there, gal.
Not to be an "I told you so", but I told you so in Part I. Never trust a man with two first names. And hey, it's April so you can totally call the reader and she'll be right again! :)

Oregon sounds great. Good luck. Go Ducks!
The Guy With Two First Names reminds me of Groucho Marx's famous observation: "Did you ever notice that Peter O'Toole has a double-phallic name?"

Oregon's bound to be cheaper than D.C. with fewer assholes per square mile. That said, I understand the reluctance to change your life so completely. On the other hand, no one (likely) will force you to stay in Oregon after you have your doctorate.
Certainly one of the great mysteries in life - understanding the opposite sex. I believe that I've reach the age, or enlightment...maybe maturity, that there is no understand. There is only acceptance.

Oregon is a beautiful state with much to offer.
Well if that falls through I'll offer you a generous package, hon.
Sorry that was wildly inappropriate. You were being serious. Please, don't listen to the advice of a psychic as gospel. They don't even know how to dress.
Life is indeed such a riddle. Just when we think we have a grasp on it...everything changes changes all over again.
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I was out planting asparagus in the backyard and decided to come in to check here.

Wow! What great marks for Oregon! I don't need to tell you how I feel about this place. We've talked about it and now, you've seen just a bit of it when you came out for your audition, Raz. I tell you, as a "to-the-bone" San Franciscan, that when I moved here in '98 I never looked back. I didn't know about the incentives from UO. They obviously think you would be a credit to their program, if that's the case.

But more than anything, Oregon is an "outdoor" state. It's small demographically and the truth is that Portland, 100 miles to the north of Eugene, is the only place that even comes close to either DC or (in the case of Stony Point) NYC in its urbanity. And even there you will see that P'land is like no other city.

You must love the outdoors to thrive here. Hiking, fishing, skiing, mountain climbing, hot springs, beaches, and a general sense of being able to slow down are what count here. There are few housing developments on the scale of DC or SF, or even P'land, and you're in farm country just 10-15 minutes from the UO campus. The state is huge, with very diverse geography. Eugene, Springfield, Ashland (which is a "suburb" of California now) and P'land are pretty much liberal islands in a sea of the goofiest conservatism you can imagine.

So, in short, if you don't like to eat fresh wild salmon, or catching them, or you don't like clean air, quiet evenings, long summer days and short winter ones, affordable housing, a community orchestra and ballet, the total absence of traffic congestion, a well regarded university system, well...you're going to have trouble here.

By the way, you know you have at least two very good friends to help you out when you get here.

Maybe it'stime you break up with Ron Howard, sweetie.