just phyllis

just phyllis
Small Town, Indiana, USA
November 13
Blogging with PTSD --------------- "Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around." - Leo Buscaglia _____________________________________ All works ┬ęPhyllis45, the author of this blog. _____________________________________ Also posting at Our Salon http://oursalon.ning.com/ http://oursalon.ning.com/profile/Phyllis


MARCH 9, 2015 11:53AM

Going Wiggy

My counselor is on maternity leave and I haven't had an appointment since January 23. To say that I'm wigging out about now is to put is mildly. I'm back to the quivering mess I was right after Puff died. I'm sleeping with the lights on and the TV loud, taking… Read full post »

MARCH 7, 2015 8:20AM

No More Compromise

Today is a new day, and spring is really and truly coming on. I heard the first bird echo through the exhaust fan hood in my bathroom this morning. It’s one of those things that I hear in my life, nature cascading through the fan flue, and I unconsciously miss itRead full post »

MARCH 4, 2015 7:39AM

Moon in Gemini

I copied this verbatim from Cafe Astrology, I laughed while reading it because it describes me so much better than my Sun Sign of Scorpio. I also have Leo Rising, my whole natal chart is not for the faint of heart...

 Moon in Gemini

Lunar Geminis are usually pleasant, witty, and charming… Read full post »

MARCH 2, 2015 10:56AM

Spring is in the Air!




A lot of people would disagree with me but, as I stepped outside this morning, I smelled it. Spring is here at last.

Winter is over and the birds are coming back and flowers will soon be blooming. The light is the light of spring, not winter.… Read full post »

FEBRUARY 23, 2015 8:25PM

Interpreting My Sign

“Get used to it if you keep trying to step outside of your status,” she said with a snarl.

stã’tus, n. 2. position; rank; standing.  3. state, or condition, as of affairs

Webster’s New Twentieth Century Dictionary Unabridged, Second Edition- Deluxe Color, pg 1778Read full post »

There are 996 calendar days until I can collect my tiny pension. I have been asking the universe what my best course of action is but thus far it has been silent. Today, it gave me warmish temps and sunshine so it's not all bad. I do know that I need… Read full post »

FEBRUARY 3, 2015 7:32PM

698 days!

Working days, that is. There are online countdown calculators that can do that for you, if you give them a start and an end they can pick out the weekends and holidays.

I called the retirement people today to find out the particulars, I was too excited… Read full post »

FEBRUARY 1, 2015 7:13PM

Kitten Pictures!

No, these aren't earth shattering but they are cute. The kittens are good about going outside except Adso is definitely going to need the mesh harness when he's done growing. He's over 8 pounds now, so we just keep working on keeping his old-fashioned harness on him. 

Adso sitting outside by… Read full post »

JANUARY 31, 2015 8:31PM

OS Hit Squad Has Their New Target

And there's some rumors going round...
It seems the OS hit squad is on the rampage again, no one gone yet but someone in the crosshairs. Can we stop, already? You don't like someone? Fine, stop reading their posts and delete their comments.
IT'S NOT THAT… Read full post »
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JANUARY 30, 2015 8:41PM

C (for want of a better title)

It's supposed to snow again this weekend, up to 8" and a chance for wind to blow it about. We're all hoping it's enough to close work Monday, and it seems that they have named the storm Linus. Really?


I found out that I am vested in the retirement planRead full post »

JANUARY 23, 2015 9:00PM

It Seems Serious

In 12 hours, starting from the time that I started writing this post, I will be hitting the road for Chicago; I am going to the Ideal Home Show to see Ahmed Hassan: Celebrity Landscaper! Yes, I will finally get to see him in person! This is so exciting, I can’tRead full post »

JANUARY 19, 2015 7:17PM

Simple Math- link added

I just did the math to find out how much I would have saved by the end of the year if I live exclusively within my paycheck minus ~$100 per, and it's a nice chunk of change. It also means I have to apply some discipline to myself.

Crap. At… Read full post »

JANUARY 18, 2015 3:07PM

A New Plan

I have decided on a new course of action. I am not going to go to Germany, I am going to move to Washington State, buy a couple acres of land, get a mini house that's off the grid, and grow things to sell.

That is all.  

These two are… Read full post »

JANUARY 6, 2015 11:15PM

Finding Moments in Time


Isn't it neat what you find when you aren't looking, an awesome sunset while shoveling snow is a good thing. (I tried the panoramic setting on my phone and it cut off the right side, hence the different colored sky there.)

 I have to choose… Read full post »

JANUARY 3, 2015 12:36PM

The Day After the Day

Saturday is here, finally, a gray mist has been the weather pattern all day but I am home and warm and safe. It’s barely 12:30 but it’s already been a long day and I feel the need for a nap. I also have a project to do for work that IRead full post »

January 2, 2015, was a day that had the potential to really suck. It started innocuously enough, the alarm went off at 5:00 a.m. after a night of minimal sleep, she managed to get out of bed and be showered and at the gym by 8:30 for her physical therapy appointmentRead full post »

JANUARY 1, 2015 9:25PM

a tak se za─Źne

Thus, 2015 begins. I have only one resolution this year, and I think it’s a doable one for a change. I resolve to live every day this year on purpose, and to keep the life I want in the forward viewfinder. I need to make a list of what I wantRead full post »

DECEMBER 26, 2014 11:22AM

The Day After Christmas

It is now 40°F at 11:20 a.m., the forecast is for almost 50°F before the day is done.

The sun is shining with a gentle breeze.

The birds are chirping.

It could be spring outside.

Wishing that it was.

Going to act like it is.

This is what it… Read full post »

DECEMBER 25, 2014 7:54PM

A Christmas at Home

Despite a perfectly lovely invitation to spend today with Margaret and James, I regretfully declined because I couldn't get any weather people to agree on what the forecast was going to be and elected to stay home. I called Dad at noon yesterday and invited him over for dinner. We setRead full post »

DECEMBER 17, 2014 2:42PM

I'm Learning

Another step on the growth chart occurred today. It was a close call but, instead of acting my reaction to a friend telling me to fuck off and leave the country because I think torture is wrong, I breathed.

I won’t get specific, but this friend knows the chief torturerRead full post »

DECEMBER 15, 2014 8:06PM

An Incident at the Fair

It includes the word gift at the end, so it's a loose fit but, nonetheless, it fits! I actually wrote this as an experiment to see if the scenarios that play out in my head would make interesting stories. Thanks for reading.




She stopped at the edge ofRead full post »

DECEMBER 15, 2014 12:37PM

Who's Next on the OS Hit List?

Congratulations are in order to the OS Hit Squad, another blogger who didn't toe their line has left the metaphorical building. Do you guys want OS to reopen? Or are you receiving a bonus for everyone that you drive away?

See, this is why I don't post controversial subjects here. I… Read full post »

As we all know, YouTube has done away with the old embed code, much to our dismay. If you have ever embedded a video then you have the code but I am putting it here so you don’t have to go dig it out. Here is your code for embedding aRead full post »

DECEMBER 7, 2014 5:40PM

New Role to Play

I seem to have fallen into a role here, too, and my more lighthearted, non-angsty posts don't get any attention, but you know what, too bad. That's what I'm going to write from now on. I may slip in angst here and there, I still have bunches, but if I am… Read full post »

DECEMBER 6, 2014 7:49PM

Alone Again, or Still...

I am getting down again, feeling alone and lonely and trapped. I so much want to quit my job and just exist as me with no deadlines and no place that I have to be. What would it be like to just be able to be without the artificial constraints imposedRead full post »