just phyllis

just phyllis
Small Town, Indiana, USA
November 13
Blogging with PTSD --------------- "Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around." - Leo Buscaglia _____________________________________ All works ┬ęPhyllis45, the author of this blog. _____________________________________ Also posting at Our Salon http://oursalon.ning.com/ http://oursalon.ning.com/profile/Phyllis


SEPTEMBER 28, 2013 9:27AM

Growing Wisdom

I wrote this for the writing prompt on Zoomers but it delved into things better left away from my real name, so I am posting it here. I like making realizations and moving forward.

"we want to know what growing-up (or growing older) has taught you"

 Man, you don't askRead full post »

SEPTEMBER 27, 2013 9:26PM

Going Crazy

Ah, the glories of waiting

Waiting for the letter in the mail


Hurry up and wait

A watched pot never boils

(It does, but watching those tiny bubbles forms makes me think it is when it isn't.) 

I have counted down the days, and now I am counting them up… Read full post »

Today, it happened. I had totally thrown in the towel and was going to get a fence post planted today whether I did it or someone else did it. Thankfully, someone else did it.


When I pulled the tarp off of the lumber this morning before 8:00, I found… Read full post »

SEPTEMBER 15, 2013 12:42PM

The Biggest Loser

I seem to be on a roll this weekend, I don't know if it's a good thing, but I had an epiphany in the shower again and needed to write it out. I am doing the Listerine foot soak as I type, so I'm going to have to pause in a… Read full post »

SEPTEMBER 14, 2013 9:59PM

Musings on my Day

So last night I was restless and feeling a bit off. I did get a lovely poem out of it, so all was not in vain. Today, however, was lovely.

It started off with a Torchwood Maration on BBCA. The marathon actually started at 11:00 last night, I woke up to it at 6:30… Read full post »

SEPTEMBER 13, 2013 9:47PM

Nighttime- a poem


It's Friday and Fall there's a chill in the air

The windows are open a breeze pets my hair

The cat on a cushion her paws twitch and patter

The crickets are chirping and raising a clatter

I sit and I wonder I long for the night

I love to… Read full post »

SEPTEMBER 11, 2013 7:07PM

Self-fulfilling Prophecy

Note to self: Do not pick up "Beyond Surviving" and start reading the lessons while boiling water.

I really hope that pan isn't ruined.

Lesson one is about healing, and the second question asks what gets in the way of believing you can heal. This, friends, is one question I have never answe… Read full post »

SEPTEMBER 7, 2013 7:08PM

Life is what it is

I put a new banner here on the old OS page, it's a picture I took yesterday morning of the sunrise. When I saw it, I wanted to follow in the footsteps of my Viking forebears and wander off to greet it, but instead I went to work.Read full post »

AUGUST 31, 2013 6:41PM

Burning Hot

 Tonight, I have made the first foray into burning out the tulip tree stump. Just me and the gnats, a good book, and the internet. Oh, and a cold can of English Perry Imported Pear Cider®. I'll probably end up drinking a bug.


 I first learned how to build fires… Read full post »

AUGUST 29, 2013 5:30AM

Puff is 19 Today!

Happy Birthday, Puff!!!
AUGUST 24, 2013 10:25AM

Making Food

Today, I am supposed to be turning this

tomatoesthe harvest

into preserved jars of food. I am in some significant pain from harvesting all of it in just three hours last night, so I am having some issues getting started. Dad doesn't want any of the corn and he has expressed a… Read full post »

AUGUST 22, 2013 5:26AM

Following a Diverging Path



As I was reading Facebook during my insomniac hours, I realized that today would be my Mom's 75th birthday. I wonder how she envisioned this day. 

One of our OSers, Emily, introduced an article she had found that suggested you write a letter to your younger self, sayi/… Read full post »

AUGUST 18, 2013 5:51PM



  [am-nuh-stee]  Show IPA noun, pluralam·nes·ties, verb, am·nes·tied, am·nes·ty·ing.
general pardon for offenses, especially political /
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AUGUST 10, 2013 8:46AM

My Brave New Life- Iron Poet #17

Venus is rising

Blocking the Sun

A new day is dawning

My story begun


My fortune has shifted

My freedom is found

I’m off on adventure

And thus glory bound


My friends, they are calling

I shall seekRead full post »

Hello. This week's prompt is to write a story about a stranger that you saw today.

My imagination led me here.  

I hope you enjoy it.  Read full post »

I have to say that I am not surprised that I haven't lost any weight. I have a load of excuses: I got really sick in February from the gym, I then delved into my PTSD and became an emotional wreck for 3 months, I freaked outRead full post »

JULY 24, 2013 7:05PM

For the Friends of Sirenita

A face without a name 
A heart so full of love
what is there to spare
when the call comes from above

How do we go on
when the love we knew is gone
where do we go forth
when a life is said and done?

We come together here
We sing a song of joy
We celebrate… Read full post »

JULY 20, 2013 6:57PM

Moving on the Fence

Hooray for me, today I bought the beginning of my new fence! I am going to do the west end first, where the neighbors are, and where the sun goes down, so I can sit on my back steps and watch it in peace. 

(I did get a swift kick this… Read full post »

Melissa Noble, I need you to step up because she is bringing you into it, too. If you agree with this statement from the Facebook page, then please state here, in my comments, that you do. Otherwise, you are complicit in the harassment.

From V's Facebook page this morning:

 "Phyllis usedRead full post »

JULY 15, 2013 1:02PM

The Next Step in Fence Building

fence map
Building a fence. Building my fence. Bringing my metaphorical boundaries into physical shape. We talked about my fence at my counseling session on Friday. Last night I measured it out. Today after work I will get prices for the material.
I have been procrastinating. Of course, w… Read full post »
JULY 12, 2013 1:00PM

Is This Real Life?

Life has a flow, it is hard sometimes to slow down and see the patterns. I have been noticing patterns around me lately that make me wonder about things.

I have a routine now, and I seem to have found a routine that is pleasant.

I stop at the same… Read full post »

JULY 6, 2013 3:41PM

A Rainy Day Garden Update

As I was watching my beets cook, it occurred to me that I haven't made a garden post in a while, so here, today, is an update. It is raining, intermittent showers which are making my ponytail frizz mightily and making it icky to pull weeds, of which I have many.… Read full post »

JULY 4, 2013 8:58AM

Happy 4th of July!

Now turn off your computer and go make some good memories.



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JULY 1, 2013 1:02PM

Sweet Bouquets

Hello. I found another saying by Dr. Amen recently that said that smells affect the deep limbic system in your brain, and that surrounding yourself with sweet smells works in a positive way. So while this can't be a scratch and sniff post, I hope these photos bring you memories of… Read full post »

JUNE 29, 2013 9:13AM

Hope is a Passive Agressive Sneak

Always alone

Always will be alone

I just looked at the calendar in my phone; there's a good chance that this incredible funk I am living in is hormonally based. While that would be nice, hopeless is not a fun place to be, I have spent the couple of days wondering… Read full post »