just phyllis

just phyllis
Small Town, Indiana, USA
November 13
Blogging with PTSD --------------- "Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around." - Leo Buscaglia _____________________________________ All works ┬ęPhyllis45, the author of this blog. _____________________________________ Also posting at Our Salon http://oursalon.ning.com/ http://oursalon.ning.com/profile/Phyllis


JUNE 3, 2013 8:42PM

The Past Eleven Days

The past eleven days have been enlightening. You may remember that it was a Thursday night eleven days ago that my older sister called to tell me that she had to move into my house and the narrow escape I had; she didn't move in. I finally got a text from… Read full post »

JUNE 1, 2013 11:18AM

On the Rebound

Being self aware is something that is not for the faint of heart, especially when you have emotional issues to deal with. I make no claims to being self aware, but I am becoming more so, I hope.

Some of you may have read my posts about having to delve into… Read full post »

The next word is tragedy. So what, once you experience tragedy you're no longer young?

Maybe it's the acceptance of the tragedy that ages you. I know I feel older every time I have a PTSD episode, be it a flashback or the hell I just went through for the past… Read full post »

MAY 29, 2013 12:34PM

Sharing My Lunch!

Today, I am in a good mood. It hit yesterday as I was leaving work and is still upon me. The headache still lingers, I am sitting in the sun as I type because I chose the wrong seat (I'm going to move now) (safely moved), and I am fully edematized… Read full post »

MAY 27, 2013 12:07PM

For Memorial Day

This was just shared on my Facebook page, and it feels right for today. Kaziah Hancock, who paints portraits of fallen military personnel.

The video is a few years old, but it feels timeless. I wish we could quit sending her people to paint.
MAY 24, 2013 7:16AM

The Phone Call From Hell

Joyous news!!!! She's not moving in!!!! Dad got through to her and she did something smart for a change. Thanks to all the good spirits who intervened and saved my poor head from exploding. 

I got a phone call from my sister last night- she has blown an opportunity to get… Read full post »

MAY 19, 2013 2:59PM

The Epitome of Fearless

I went out into my yard today to plant and pick up mowed grass and pull weeds, enjoying the sun and the music from my Walkman and being peaceful. I dug up the spot for my cabbages and brussels sprouts, tilled it, raked it, and began planting. I stood up after… Read full post »

MAY 18, 2013 6:08AM

Weird Dreams and Dizzy Spells

Another experiment in pharmacology seems to have failed for me. What is it about my physiology that doesn't allow me to live inside of an FDA approved bottle of chemicals?

This post won’t be a lesson in physiology as I really don’t know enough on the topic to expound and… Read full post »

MAY 14, 2013 3:05AM

2 in the morning

What are we doing
     at 2 in the morning
That compells us to lie here
     awake and alone

This magical hour
     of 2 in the morning
It catches us wanting
     to not be alone

Asleep then awake here
     a/… Read full post »

A copy of

The Constitution of the United States of America,

graciously provided by the American Civil Liberties Union.


Wally is standing guard...


Throwing the Constitution out of the window...


Wally is watching...


It would probably work… Read full post »

Saturday, I mowed and worked in the garden and admired my plants. Here are a few pics for you. I put the descriptions at the top this time.

The salad in pots. I have it screen covered so the squirrels don't dig it up. They do hide nuts in the pots… Read full post »

MAY 3, 2013 1:04PM

Hiding in Plain Sight

Once upon a time, there was a girl named Phyllis. She was a nice girl, a fun girl who only wanted to live her life by having a successful career and getting married and having a wonderful family. Along the way she partied quite a bit and had fun, until one… Read full post »


 What happens when you click this link then click to read the post there?


For me, it sends me to my blog page. What does it mean when it does that? I would like to read the post.

Be sure to try to open the post. I can get… Read full post »

APRIL 26, 2013 5:19AM

Rape in the Military

This is going to be a short one. This public service announcement is needed because too many people are buying into the fallacy that you have to report rape in your chain of command. Why do I know it's a fallacy? Because I skipped the chain of command, and the two… Read full post »

APRIL 21, 2013 7:41PM

How Do I Explain It?

I have been looking at the title of David McClain's latest post, A Day Spent in the Past, and it took me a while to finally get over there and read it. I have been trying to write something for a few weeks, and I just can't bring myself to do it. Since… Read full post »

APRIL 20, 2013 6:19AM

It's Time

I am going to clean out my house. It's time to get rid of crap and find some space for myself.

I am going to write what it's like to be me. I need to do it for my disability re-evaluation and I hate the having to do it. I… Read full post »

APRIL 6, 2013 7:04PM

Back in the Garden

Hi! It's spring again, and time to garden. Here is my first foray into planting to feed myself. Get ready for lots more...




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MARCH 29, 2013 11:54PM

An Ode to Sleep

S is for the snores you send to save me
L means only that it's getting late
E is for the enervating drive home
E is for the end that looks so great
P is for the Puff who purrs so sweetly
Y is for the yawn that makes me quake

Put them all together they… Read full post »

I have to say this was more inspired by the challenge than actually following the rules of the challenge. 

What is a life

When you are so full of strife

That you can't breathe without pain

It's just all been in vain 

The darkness creeps in

You don't know where you've… Read full post »

MARCH 21, 2013 6:09PM

Feeling Better Now

I want to thank all of you who visited my rant from yesterday. Thank you for hearing me and leaving such great comments for me to read. I also want to thank the persons who rated and didn't comment. Silent support like that feels like a hug.

I called the VA… Read full post »

I am getting ever so much closer to the tests on Friday for my evaluation, and I am getting more and more pissed about it. (Sorry, Jake, for the profanity there but no other word will work.)

The doctor that I have been referred to sent me a 9 PAGE FORM to… Read full post »

MARCH 15, 2013 9:19PM

Emotion Doesn't Listen to Logic


I made another little gain in getting to know myself better last Friday. I’m still incorporating it into my thinking, but I’m finding that it is also making my life a little easier, knowing this tidbit.

I went to a “lady doctor" on Thursday to see what my options areRead full post »

MARCH 13, 2013 8:12PM

Ode to Tequila

 Whomever decided
To give this a try
Their advice should always be heeded

This juice from a cactus
This vaunted elixir
Who knew that this drink could be seeded?
As in “the source, origin, or beginning of anything”

I was down in the dumps
Spent the whole day alone
And felt that some choc&rsqu
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I just wanted to share that I got a new sewer pipe today. Since I moved into this house in May 2003, I have replaced the furnace, had the house insulated, had the duct work cleaned and patched and wrapped, replaced the plumbing, replaced the sink and the toilet and the… Read full post »

MARCH 8, 2013 6:20PM

Family Dynamics- a limerick poem

There was a young girly named Suzy
Whom people said really was floozy
She was pert and petite and really quite sweet
And was sad that she never watoosied.

Suzy was vexed as a tarty
She really did want to go party
Her parents said no, it was such a blow
Since both of them really lived/
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