just phyllis

just phyllis
Small Town, Indiana, USA
November 13
Blogging with PTSD --------------- "Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around." - Leo Buscaglia _____________________________________ All works ┬ęPhyllis45, the author of this blog. _____________________________________ Also posting at Our Salon http://oursalon.ning.com/ http://oursalon.ning.com/profile/Phyllis


NOVEMBER 23, 2013 8:09AM

Puff Eating Breakfast

puff 11-23-13
I put a board under her bowl so that she doesn't have to bend as far.

It is a wonderful thing, to finally accomplish something that you have been trying to do for a very long time. I have something that I have been trying to figure out for decades and it has had me baffled. I have approached it from several angles,Read full post »

NOVEMBER 13, 2013 4:09PM

snow- a poem

The rest of the world

Is thawing out, and I?

I still have snow

A curse, it lies upon

My house, and how?

I do not know.

The rain will come the

Leaves will fall, but wait?

There is a glow.

Heavenly love is

Coming now, to me?

It seemsRead full post »

NOVEMBER 9, 2013 8:55AM

My Life is on Me


Boosted from FB 

Oh, Man, I am feeling seriously down this week. It may be hormones, or it my be that I can't see where my future is going and what I want to do with it, except sell my house, buy an SUV to live in, and chuck thisRead full post »

NOVEMBER 2, 2013 9:52AM

November is for Writing

I did it, I have taken the plunge, I signed up for something that I have been pondering for years but never felt capable of doing.

I signed up for NaNoWriMo.

I got off to a good start last night, 1,716 words in just a few hours, and woke up this… Read full post »

OCTOBER 28, 2013 6:27PM

Window Dressing

This thing won't format properly, so I look like one big paragraph. it's a sign. 
     One step forward and two steps back, I'm not really sure which this is, but I have finally figured out why I haven't been able to write a blog for a while.… Read full post »
OCTOBER 18, 2013 8:21PM

Butterfly Kisses- repost

I wrote this post in August of 2011, before most of you knew who I was. It was a magic day, the day a butterfly deemed me worthy of its time.




I had a visit from a butterfly.

I was… Read full post »

OCTOBER 12, 2013 8:13PM

Trying Again (or: Hope Springs Eternal)

On August 24 I dropped out of school again, promising to take the time freed up to do things that I want to do and to create things of beauty. Today, I started on that path.

This past week I finally wrote down my plan, a very sketchy outline of one,… Read full post »

My WTF centers have been being twigged lately, the ones that keep repeating the endless loop of what went wrong with my life to put me where I am today. The ones that say I should be independently wealthy by now and able to quit my dead end job for something… Read full post »

SEPTEMBER 28, 2013 9:27AM

Growing Wisdom

I wrote this for the writing prompt on Zoomers but it delved into things better left away from my real name, so I am posting it here. I like making realizations and moving forward.

"we want to know what growing-up (or growing older) has taught you"

 Man, you don't askRead full post »

SEPTEMBER 27, 2013 9:26PM

Going Crazy

Ah, the glories of waiting

Waiting for the letter in the mail


Hurry up and wait

A watched pot never boils

(It does, but watching those tiny bubbles forms makes me think it is when it isn't.) 

I have counted down the days, and now I am counting them up… Read full post »

Today, it happened. I had totally thrown in the towel and was going to get a fence post planted today whether I did it or someone else did it. Thankfully, someone else did it.


When I pulled the tarp off of the lumber this morning before 8:00, I found… Read full post »

SEPTEMBER 15, 2013 12:42PM

The Biggest Loser

I seem to be on a roll this weekend, I don't know if it's a good thing, but I had an epiphany in the shower again and needed to write it out. I am doing the Listerine foot soak as I type, so I'm going to have to pause in a… Read full post »

SEPTEMBER 14, 2013 9:59PM

Musings on my Day

So last night I was restless and feeling a bit off. I did get a lovely poem out of it, so all was not in vain. Today, however, was lovely.

It started off with a Torchwood Maration on BBCA. The marathon actually started at 11:00 last night, I woke up to it at 6:30… Read full post »

SEPTEMBER 13, 2013 9:47PM

Nighttime- a poem


It's Friday and Fall there's a chill in the air

The windows are open a breeze pets my hair

The cat on a cushion her paws twitch and patter

The crickets are chirping and raising a clatter

I sit and I wonder I long for the night

I love to… Read full post »

SEPTEMBER 11, 2013 7:07PM

Self-fulfilling Prophecy

Note to self: Do not pick up "Beyond Surviving" and start reading the lessons while boiling water.

I really hope that pan isn't ruined.

Lesson one is about healing, and the second question asks what gets in the way of believing you can heal. This, friends, is one question I have never answe… Read full post »

SEPTEMBER 7, 2013 7:08PM

Life is what it is

I put a new banner here on the old OS page, it's a picture I took yesterday morning of the sunrise. When I saw it, I wanted to follow in the footsteps of my Viking forebears and wander off to greet it, but instead I went to work.Read full post »

AUGUST 31, 2013 6:41PM

Burning Hot

 Tonight, I have made the first foray into burning out the tulip tree stump. Just me and the gnats, a good book, and the internet. Oh, and a cold can of English Perry Imported Pear Cider®. I'll probably end up drinking a bug.


 I first learned how to build fires… Read full post »

AUGUST 29, 2013 5:30AM

Puff is 19 Today!

Happy Birthday, Puff!!!
AUGUST 24, 2013 10:25AM

Making Food

Today, I am supposed to be turning this

tomatoesthe harvest

into preserved jars of food. I am in some significant pain from harvesting all of it in just three hours last night, so I am having some issues getting started. Dad doesn't want any of the corn and he has expressed a… Read full post »

AUGUST 22, 2013 5:26AM

Following a Diverging Path



As I was reading Facebook during my insomniac hours, I realized that today would be my Mom's 75th birthday. I wonder how she envisioned this day. 

One of our OSers, Emily, introduced an article she had found that suggested you write a letter to your younger self, sayi/… Read full post »

AUGUST 18, 2013 5:51PM



  [am-nuh-stee]  Show IPA noun, pluralam·nes·ties, verb, am·nes·tied, am·nes·ty·ing.
general pardon for offenses, especially political /
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AUGUST 10, 2013 8:46AM

My Brave New Life- Iron Poet #17

Venus is rising

Blocking the Sun

A new day is dawning

My story begun


My fortune has shifted

My freedom is found

I’m off on adventure

And thus glory bound


My friends, they are calling

I shall seekRead full post »

Hello. This week's prompt is to write a story about a stranger that you saw today.

My imagination led me here.  

I hope you enjoy it.  Read full post »

I have to say that I am not surprised that I haven't lost any weight. I have a load of excuses: I got really sick in February from the gym, I then delved into my PTSD and became an emotional wreck for 3 months, I freaked outRead full post »