just phyllis

just phyllis
Small Town, Indiana, USA
November 13
Blogging with PTSD --------------- "Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around." - Leo Buscaglia _____________________________________ All works ┬ęPhyllis45, the author of this blog. _____________________________________ Also posting at Our Salon http://oursalon.ning.com/ http://oursalon.ning.com/profile/Phyllis


JANUARY 29, 2014 7:59PM

New Moon Super Moon

January 2014 has been the month of letting go, according to astrology. It began with a new moon in Capricorn, a Super Moon, on January 1 at 6:15 a.m. “The New Moon in Capricorn’s themes are letting go and paving the way for rebirth and aligning with quality and integrity…&rdqRead full post »
JANUARY 25, 2014 8:52PM

Three Strikes

The longer I live, the more weird life gets. First there was childhood where we accept what is because we don’t have the experience to know better. Then there’s young adulthood where we have experiences outside of the nuclear family and we develop the mindset we will live with. Then weRead full post »

JANUARY 22, 2014 7:58PM

I Am Pissed

I am just fucking angry. People shooting, people dying, people who were hiding in their locked rooms telling me that trying to get students to safety was wrong, other people saying a room should have been locked when no one who had the key could be found to lock it, some… Read full post »

JANUARY 19, 2014 7:39AM

The Child in Me - A Poem

I keep on seeing

My mother in me

I don't want to see 

My mother in me

I just want to be

I want to be me

So how do I purge

My mother from me


Where’s Phyllis in thisRead full post »

JANUARY 16, 2014 5:43PM

I Need a Break (Down)

I realized yesterday that I do not have space in my life for mental health. Maybe on Saturday if I don't have to drive into town for a haircut or to buy cat food, but all of Saturday's work is undone on Sunday when I have to burn through laundry andRead full post »

JANUARY 11, 2014 8:49AM

Thinking about Death

I've been thinking about death a lot lately. I do, as a rule, anyway; I ponder how someone can be alive, and then they're not. How the brain is firing electrical signals to the body, and then it's not. And how so many people on my Dad's side of the treeRead full post »

 In my random wanderings around the internet, I decided to look up my Uncle Jack one day; he died in 1981 of a coronary infarction, more commonly known as a heart attack. I was surprised to find out that he was only 51, otherwise known as my age, when he died.… Read full post »

JANUARY 4, 2014 7:40PM

Hercules, Hale and Farewell

My first view of Hercules...1
A playful dog...
And my last...farewell Read full post »
Wealth tyranny, kale ageism is better than a sex search of a messy apartment.
 Old tears for constitutional right to be white trash.
A bigger boat for obummercare brings a sea change in attitude.
The family farm: how Depeche Mode retirement beckons actors and… Read full post »
DECEMBER 31, 2013 8:15AM

Happy 2014

Sydney, Australia just hit the mark, which is good enough for me. Hope you have an excellent year.


 This is New Zealand but I love that golden explosion.


more panels Read full post »

DECEMBER 22, 2013 10:02AM

Puff Goes Outside

Hi. I posted this at Our Salon because they have more flexibility. I had intended to copy it to here, but OMG! The work to get it right over there, I knew it would never transfer.

So, please head over to Our Salon and enjoy Puff's first trek outside.

 … Read full post »

DECEMBER 19, 2013 1:27PM


I am on a morbid kick lately, but the only way to the other side is through, so here I go.

Today's lesson from the book Beyond Surviving by Rachel Grant is on integrity and boundaries. I think she needs to give more space to write out answers, I really do, but… Read full post »

DECEMBER 17, 2013 12:54PM

After the Court Martials...

Let us go back in time to April- May 1988. The court martials are wrapping up, the second guy finally pled guilty after using up all of the legal manuevers the Uniform Code of Military Justice accorded to him, my boyfriend had gotten out of the service and run back to… Read full post »

DECEMBER 14, 2013 7:05PM

Finding My Light

I have a post to make, I have been writing it since Wednesday morning and it is meaningful to me. I am posting it here because Open Salon is a site that is meaningful to me, a site that has helped me to write the words that I am posting. IRead full post »

DECEMBER 8, 2013 6:05PM

Parti Hair- OS Weekend Fiction

Hi! I got to the OS Weekend Fiction post a couple of weeks late this time! Our fair moderator put up 3 weeks worth of prompts:

For 11/22-24: 

 The prompt is: Write a story that takes place in a shopping mall.

 For 11/29-12/1: 

 The prompt is: Write a story… Read full post »

NOVEMBER 27, 2013 8:47AM

An Alternate Reality

Well, it is certain that I am not going to complete this year’s NaNoWriMo goal of 50,000 words. I came into this with enthusiasm high, a clear idea for what to write, and I did put forth a decent effort. I just picked a topic that gave me a migraine.Read full post »

NOVEMBER 23, 2013 8:09AM

Puff Eating Breakfast

puff 11-23-13
I put a board under her bowl so that she doesn't have to bend as far.

It is a wonderful thing, to finally accomplish something that you have been trying to do for a very long time. I have something that I have been trying to figure out for decades and it has had me baffled. I have approached it from several angles,Read full post »

NOVEMBER 13, 2013 4:09PM

snow- a poem

The rest of the world

Is thawing out, and I?

I still have snow

A curse, it lies upon

My house, and how?

I do not know.

The rain will come the

Leaves will fall, but wait?

There is a glow.

Heavenly love is

Coming now, to me?

It seemsRead full post »

NOVEMBER 9, 2013 8:55AM

My Life is on Me


Boosted from FB 

Oh, Man, I am feeling seriously down this week. It may be hormones, or it my be that I can't see where my future is going and what I want to do with it, except sell my house, buy an SUV to live in, and chuck thisRead full post »

NOVEMBER 2, 2013 9:52AM

November is for Writing

I did it, I have taken the plunge, I signed up for something that I have been pondering for years but never felt capable of doing.

I signed up for NaNoWriMo.

I got off to a good start last night, 1,716 words in just a few hours, and woke up this… Read full post »

OCTOBER 28, 2013 6:27PM

Window Dressing

This thing won't format properly, so I look like one big paragraph. it's a sign. 
     One step forward and two steps back, I'm not really sure which this is, but I have finally figured out why I haven't been able to write a blog for a while.… Read full post »
OCTOBER 18, 2013 8:21PM

Butterfly Kisses- repost

I wrote this post in August of 2011, before most of you knew who I was. It was a magic day, the day a butterfly deemed me worthy of its time.




I had a visit from a butterfly.

I was… Read full post »

OCTOBER 12, 2013 8:13PM

Trying Again (or: Hope Springs Eternal)

On August 24 I dropped out of school again, promising to take the time freed up to do things that I want to do and to create things of beauty. Today, I started on that path.

This past week I finally wrote down my plan, a very sketchy outline of one,… Read full post »

My WTF centers have been being twigged lately, the ones that keep repeating the endless loop of what went wrong with my life to put me where I am today. The ones that say I should be independently wealthy by now and able to quit my dead end job for something… Read full post »