just phyllis

just phyllis
Small Town, Indiana, USA
November 13
Blogging with PTSD --------------- "Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around." - Leo Buscaglia _____________________________________ All works ┬ęPhyllis45, the author of this blog. _____________________________________ Also posting at Our Salon http://oursalon.ning.com/ http://oursalon.ning.com/profile/Phyllis


JULY 11, 2014 12:45PM

Time for change?

Time marches on, as it always does, and I am making myself remember every day that Puff won't be sitting on her heating pad waiting for me to come into the living room. I'm making progress. Tuesday morning, as I was showering, I realized that I had nothing left that I… Read full post »

JULY 10, 2014 12:44PM


I had a pergola built Monday, I finished it off with mulch, bricks, and a rock last night. I am just not feeling very excited about it right now, for obvious reasons, but it is a lovely structure. The current bench won't be staying in it, I was thinking a swing,… Read full post »

JULY 7, 2014 6:38PM

La Puff est Morte


August 29, 1994 - July 7, 2014

Rest in Peace, my little Poo Poo Kitty

our last photo  Read full post »

JUNE 22, 2014 9:44AM

Hoping it works this time...



 I woke up at 3:00 this morning with a panic attack. I don't have the disabling type where I would feel like I'm having a heart attack, I have the type where I'm scared and shaking. They’re still not something I'd recommend to anybody, and they seem… Read full post »

JUNE 19, 2014 7:49PM

To What Purpose?

The black pit of depression has been hanging out with me again, dragging me to early sleep every night that is tossed with dreams, encouraging me to ponder the meaning of life, finally coalescing into one question: To What Purpose?

I should lose weight. To What Purpose?

I should getRead full post »

JUNE 12, 2014 6:07AM

A Note

This started out as a comment on my previous blog. It turned into a note, such as we used to write to each other in the days before texting and email. Don't you miss notes? Buying pretty note cards and matching envelopes and addressing. The joy of finding a note inRead full post »
JUNE 10, 2014 12:45PM


There’s an old saying, “Be careful what you wish for because you just might get it.” I have spent a large amount of time wishing to be free of my job and to have the time to take care of myself. I may be one step closer to that goal.

MyRead full post »

It is Memorial Day weekend again and, if you are a gardener, you know that this is the last possible weekend to have your garden planted. I squeaked mine in this weekend. I am dead dog-tired right now, (spouting colloquialisms seems to be a side effect) but I know I accomplishedRead full post »

MAY 19, 2014 12:53PM

I Moved a Plant

I had to move my blue lilac plant. It was in the way of the new fence that is going in this Friday, so it needed to be moved or killed. I opted for moved.

First, I dug a hole. It's about 3' in diameter. Isn't this wonderfully round! I have… Read full post »

MAY 12, 2014 11:59AM

It's National Limerick Day!!!!

It seems that today is

National Limerick Day!! 

Limerick Day celebrates the birthday of Writer Edward Lear (1812-1888).  It also, of course, celebrates Limerick poems. Limericks were popularized by Lear in 1846 in his Book of Nonsense".

This day is a time to enjoy and get your fill… Read full post »

MAY 10, 2014 7:33AM

Questions- a poem

What do we do when no one is home

When life has left us to live it alone

Where do we turn when we have to be friends

How do we answer when we don’t know where we’ve been

Who do we cling to in depths ofRead full post »

MAY 3, 2014 8:44AM



[MASS NOUN]• rare


mid 18th century: from Latin floccinaucinihilipili (words meaning 'at little value') -fication. The Latin elements were listed in a well-known rule of the Eton/

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APRIL 20, 2014 10:05AM

Potato Patch No More...

It is, finally, warm enough to garden! And what do I get for my excitement but a smashed thumb?! I tell ya, it is a good reason to slow down and enjoy your labors, as well as a good reason to find different ways to do things. I am not going… Read full post »

APRIL 12, 2014 10:45AM

Live the Life You Want to Live


Live the life you want to live. Not the life that you think you deserve. Not the life that you think is all that is left to you. Live the life you want to live.

The obvious question is how. How do I live the life I want to live?Read full post »

APRIL 7, 2014 6:39PM

One Hopeful Neuron

On March 28, I wrote about rewiring the brain from negative to a more positive aspect, and I noted that the brain will rebel. Man, I had no clue how harsh that rebellion would be.

Today, ten days after writing that post, I lost my mind.

I suppose it startedRead full post »

APRIL 3, 2014 12:59PM


I have been going through another period of time when I am feeling choked up about writing. Don’t get too close, don’t share too much, no one cares anyway, I’m going to be all alone soon. I’m not looking forward to that, by the way. Puff’s attitude is still excellent butRead full post »

APRIL 1, 2014 12:33PM

My First Mini Saga

Title:  A crazy day in the life when things aren’t quite what you believe they are



Sam was having a bad day, an acorn fell on her head. She ran to hide, fell down, broke a nail, and cried. Hiding was useless, the sky wasn’t falling, the hen wasRead full post »

MARCH 28, 2014 12:25PM


Wow, where to start. I need to get this out of my head because I’m getting depressed, and I am so tired of being stuck in this fucking depressed state of mind.

Last week I was on vacation. I didn’t take a trip, I stayed home and had some tree workRead full post »

MARCH 22, 2014 8:05AM

A Tree is Dead, Long Live a Tree!

 March 17, St. Patrick's Day, was the day of the tree guys. It's taken me a while to write this because while I love what they did to the trees, they ended the day by destroying my driveway. I'm working on a plan to get it fixed without spending tons of… Read full post »

MARCH 19, 2014 5:18AM

Think Feel Imagine


think feel imagine


I found an image on Facebook this morning, insomnia again, that had this saying on it. I Googled, and it is a common saying, author unknown, so I made my own image of it to post here.

I have spent pretty much all of myRead full post »

MARCH 15, 2014 1:20PM

A Quote from e.e. cummings

“To be nobody but
yourself in a world
which is doing its best day and night to make you like
everybody else means to fight the hardest battle
which any human being can fight and never stop fighting.”

~ e. e. cummings

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MARCH 12, 2014 7:55AM

Taking the Long Way

My friends from high school

Married their high school boyfriends

Moved into houses

In the same zipcodes where their parents live

But I, I could never follow

No I, I could never follow

I hit the highway

In a pink RV with stars on the ceiling

Lived like a gypsyRead full post »

MARCH 9, 2014 4:07PM

Fairy Godpeople

“To Wong Foo, Thanks for Everything! Julie Newmar” is probably one of the most remembered movie lines in my history. I saw the movie today, which happens to have that line as the title, and this may be the first time that I actually watched it. No, forget “may be”, itRead full post »

MARCH 5, 2014 7:10PM

An Ode for Spring

 Spring! She cried out

A plea to the night

Spring! came the cry

So loud and so bright

A glimmer of sun

A white cloud in the sky

A bird passes over

As it soars up to fly

Where are you, Spring

We need you, you see

The winter has lingeredRead full post »

Yesterday, I got angry. I mean really, flaming, angry. One might even say that I was royally pissed. Yesterday was my reevaluation.

I started the day hopeful yet stressed. I blogged last summer what it was like to apply for this reevaluation and I had the stress and physical pain revisitRead full post »