just phyllis

just phyllis
Small Town, Indiana, USA
November 13
Blogging with PTSD --------------- "Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around." - Leo Buscaglia _____________________________________ All works ©Phyllis45, the author of this blog. _____________________________________ Also posting at Our Salon http://oursalon.ning.com/ http://oursalon.ning.com/profile/Phyllis


AUGUST 10, 2014 8:24PM

Let It Go! - added a photo

I am supposed to be cleaning my house, the realtor is coming tomorrow to take pictures for the listing. I took a four day weekend to make progress on it and I did pretty good, but I didn't do as good as I could. Now that my phone battery is… Read full post »

AUGUST 3, 2014 9:29AM

Going Home Again

When I moved back to Indiana in 2001, I thought that I could go home again, find myself, and start over. I thought that was reconnecting with old friends and finding a man to have a family with, being 38 at the time I figured I had a few good yearsRead full post »

AUGUST 1, 2014 3:33PM

Learning About Me

I am sitting in the waiting room at the VA, waiting on Dad to have an endoscopy. I must be missing that spark that others see as Dad’s charm, or maybe I’ve just known him for too long. We were talking yesterday as he was sitting in my house and heRead full post »

JULY 27, 2014 6:22PM

Lots of Stuff...

My kitchen and living room are almost ready for pictures, it’s been a long week of sorting and boxing. I have a trunk and backseat full of stuff to take in to the bin, to get it out of the way. These rooms are pretty big when they’re empty-ish. I caulkedRead full post »

JULY 26, 2014 3:50PM


Today, I am sitting on the sofa watching Maverick and trolling Facebook. What I need to do is finish sorting out my house and recaulk my bathtub. I made good progress this week, the living room is almost done. I have a giant bag of paper trash that I am goingRead full post »

JULY 19, 2014 10:27AM

Time to Move

I don’t want to be anywhere. I just realized that as I stood up and looked out of my bedroom window. I want to sell my house, throw away all of my stuff, quit my job, and go live in my car. My car can be parked at different locations everyRead full post »

JULY 12, 2014 9:39PM

A Feeling of Peace

I just got a peaceful feeling, sitting on my sofa and looking out of the kitchen window. It was a reminder of why I bought the house 11 years ago. I have had that feeling a lot while I've lived here, but I have also had a lot of frustration and… Read full post »

JULY 11, 2014 12:45PM

Time for change?

Time marches on, as it always does, and I am making myself remember every day that Puff won't be sitting on her heating pad waiting for me to come into the living room. I'm making progress. Tuesday morning, as I was showering, I realized that I had nothing left that I… Read full post »

JULY 10, 2014 12:44PM


I had a pergola built Monday, I finished it off with mulch, bricks, and a rock last night. I am just not feeling very excited about it right now, for obvious reasons, but it is a lovely structure. The current bench won't be staying in it, I was thinking a swing,… Read full post »

JULY 7, 2014 6:38PM

La Puff est Morte


August 29, 1994 - July 7, 2014

Rest in Peace, my little Poo Poo Kitty

our last photo  Read full post »

JUNE 22, 2014 9:44AM

Hoping it works this time...



 I woke up at 3:00 this morning with a panic attack. I don't have the disabling type where I would feel like I'm having a heart attack, I have the type where I'm scared and shaking. They’re still not something I'd recommend to anybody, and they seem… Read full post »

JUNE 19, 2014 7:49PM

To What Purpose?

The black pit of depression has been hanging out with me again, dragging me to early sleep every night that is tossed with dreams, encouraging me to ponder the meaning of life, finally coalescing into one question: To What Purpose?

I should lose weight. To What Purpose?

I should getRead full post »

JUNE 12, 2014 6:07AM

A Note

This started out as a comment on my previous blog. It turned into a note, such as we used to write to each other in the days before texting and email. Don't you miss notes? Buying pretty note cards and matching envelopes and addressing. The joy of finding a note inRead full post »
JUNE 10, 2014 12:45PM


There’s an old saying, “Be careful what you wish for because you just might get it.” I have spent a large amount of time wishing to be free of my job and to have the time to take care of myself. I may be one step closer to that goal.

MyRead full post »

It is Memorial Day weekend again and, if you are a gardener, you know that this is the last possible weekend to have your garden planted. I squeaked mine in this weekend. I am dead dog-tired right now, (spouting colloquialisms seems to be a side effect) but I know I accomplishedRead full post »

MAY 19, 2014 12:53PM

I Moved a Plant

I had to move my blue lilac plant. It was in the way of the new fence that is going in this Friday, so it needed to be moved or killed. I opted for moved.

First, I dug a hole. It's about 3' in diameter. Isn't this wonderfully round! I have… Read full post »

MAY 12, 2014 11:59AM

It's National Limerick Day!!!!

It seems that today is

National Limerick Day!! 

Limerick Day celebrates the birthday of Writer Edward Lear (1812-1888).  It also, of course, celebrates Limerick poems. Limericks were popularized by Lear in 1846 in his Book of Nonsense".

This day is a time to enjoy and get your fill… Read full post »

MAY 10, 2014 7:33AM

Questions- a poem

What do we do when no one is home

When life has left us to live it alone

Where do we turn when we have to be friends

How do we answer when we don’t know where we’ve been

Who do we cling to in depths ofRead full post »

MAY 3, 2014 8:44AM



[MASS NOUN]• rare


mid 18th century: from Latin floccinaucinihilipili (words meaning 'at little value') -fication. The Latin elements were listed in a well-known rule of the Eton/

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APRIL 20, 2014 10:05AM

Potato Patch No More...

It is, finally, warm enough to garden! And what do I get for my excitement but a smashed thumb?! I tell ya, it is a good reason to slow down and enjoy your labors, as well as a good reason to find different ways to do things. I am not going… Read full post »

APRIL 12, 2014 10:45AM

Live the Life You Want to Live


Live the life you want to live. Not the life that you think you deserve. Not the life that you think is all that is left to you. Live the life you want to live.

The obvious question is how. How do I live the life I want to live?Read full post »

APRIL 7, 2014 6:39PM

One Hopeful Neuron

On March 28, I wrote about rewiring the brain from negative to a more positive aspect, and I noted that the brain will rebel. Man, I had no clue how harsh that rebellion would be.

Today, ten days after writing that post, I lost my mind.

I suppose it startedRead full post »

APRIL 3, 2014 12:59PM


I have been going through another period of time when I am feeling choked up about writing. Don’t get too close, don’t share too much, no one cares anyway, I’m going to be all alone soon. I’m not looking forward to that, by the way. Puff’s attitude is still excellent butRead full post »

APRIL 1, 2014 12:33PM

My First Mini Saga

Title:  A crazy day in the life when things aren’t quite what you believe they are



Sam was having a bad day, an acorn fell on her head. She ran to hide, fell down, broke a nail, and cried. Hiding was useless, the sky wasn’t falling, the hen wasRead full post »

MARCH 28, 2014 12:25PM


Wow, where to start. I need to get this out of my head because I’m getting depressed, and I am so tired of being stuck in this fucking depressed state of mind.

Last week I was on vacation. I didn’t take a trip, I stayed home and had some tree workRead full post »