just phyllis

just phyllis
Small Town, Indiana, USA
November 13
Blogging with PTSD --------------- "Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around." - Leo Buscaglia _____________________________________ All works ┬ęPhyllis45, the author of this blog. _____________________________________ Also posting at Our Salon http://oursalon.ning.com/ http://oursalon.ning.com/profile/Phyllis


SEPTEMBER 22, 2014 9:39PM

I've Had Them for 6 Whole Days!

Born on or before August 9, I chose August 7 as that is one month after Puff passed away, means that Adso & Medjet were 5 weeks and 5 days old when I brought them home. I thought they were awful tiny for 7 week old kittens. Today they are 6… Read full post »

SEPTEMBER 18, 2014 7:53PM

The Second Day with Kittens!

Today was a good day. We started with a play date at 3:30 this morning where the kittens romped on the bed and pounced on each other, and it was an impromptu litter session. It wasn't entirely successful but we did okay. 

As I put them back into the crate, I… Read full post »

SEPTEMBER 17, 2014 6:25PM

New Friends

On Tuesday, September 16, 2014 at 7:19 p.m., my life was changed by a fateful phone call. A guy named Randy called and asked me if I wanted to come over and pick out a kitten. I ended up with two.

Say hello to Adso B & Medjet K. (I addedRead full post »

SEPTEMBER 6, 2014 9:25PM


I have had a stomach ache since Tuesday. Part of it is probably from not eating much meat this week, for some reason that affects me, but I’m pretty sure a large portion of it is from last weekend.

My trip to Florida was pretty good, and good for me. ThursdayRead full post »

AUGUST 28, 2014 10:37PM

Today is Someday

As a result of my last post I am currently sitting on a very nice bed in Columbia, Tennessee. I want to thank all of you who helped me to arrive at this place.

I took your advice and went to my counselor Wednesday where I had a torrential meltdown. She… Read full post »

AUGUST 26, 2014 12:55PM

I Need Someone

This being alone is going to kill me or get me fired, I don't know which. The race is pretty tight right now. It's worse when I go to bed, alone, to face the nightmares and dreamscapes with only the TV for surcease of the loneliness and fear. This post is… Read full post »

Today is Mom's birthday, she was born in 1938 so that makes her 76 years of having been born. And almost 3 years of having died.

My Grandma died 13 years ago on August 20. Mom didn't appreciate having that so close to her birthday so she went and died 4… Read full post »

AUGUST 19, 2014 1:48PM



It’s fall again, and a new school year is slowly unfurling. This week is Freshman week, where they all come to campus to learn their way around and get settled into their new digs. It’s interesting, wondering what is going through their heads. I’m trying to remember whRead full post »

AUGUST 17, 2014 1:37PM

Dare to Climb

Once upon a time, in a land far, far, away, I planned how to kill myself. I worked for a veterinarian at the time and had access to all of the controlled substances in the clinic, he was the trusting sort even after we caught one of the kennel guys stealingRead full post »

AUGUST 10, 2014 8:24PM

Let It Go! - added a photo

I am supposed to be cleaning my house, the realtor is coming tomorrow to take pictures for the listing. I took a four day weekend to make progress on it and I did pretty good, but I didn't do as good as I could. Now that my phone battery is… Read full post »

AUGUST 3, 2014 9:29AM

Going Home Again

When I moved back to Indiana in 2001, I thought that I could go home again, find myself, and start over. I thought that was reconnecting with old friends and finding a man to have a family with, being 38 at the time I figured I had a few good yearsRead full post »

AUGUST 1, 2014 3:33PM

Learning About Me

I am sitting in the waiting room at the VA, waiting on Dad to have an endoscopy. I must be missing that spark that others see as Dad’s charm, or maybe I’ve just known him for too long. We were talking yesterday as he was sitting in my house and heRead full post »

JULY 27, 2014 6:22PM

Lots of Stuff...

My kitchen and living room are almost ready for pictures, it’s been a long week of sorting and boxing. I have a trunk and backseat full of stuff to take in to the bin, to get it out of the way. These rooms are pretty big when they’re empty-ish. I caulkedRead full post »

JULY 26, 2014 3:50PM


Today, I am sitting on the sofa watching Maverick and trolling Facebook. What I need to do is finish sorting out my house and recaulk my bathtub. I made good progress this week, the living room is almost done. I have a giant bag of paper trash that I am goingRead full post »

JULY 19, 2014 10:27AM

Time to Move

I don’t want to be anywhere. I just realized that as I stood up and looked out of my bedroom window. I want to sell my house, throw away all of my stuff, quit my job, and go live in my car. My car can be parked at different locations everyRead full post »

JULY 12, 2014 9:39PM

A Feeling of Peace

I just got a peaceful feeling, sitting on my sofa and looking out of the kitchen window. It was a reminder of why I bought the house 11 years ago. I have had that feeling a lot while I've lived here, but I have also had a lot of frustration and… Read full post »

JULY 11, 2014 12:45PM

Time for change?

Time marches on, as it always does, and I am making myself remember every day that Puff won't be sitting on her heating pad waiting for me to come into the living room. I'm making progress. Tuesday morning, as I was showering, I realized that I had nothing left that I… Read full post »

JULY 10, 2014 12:44PM


I had a pergola built Monday, I finished it off with mulch, bricks, and a rock last night. I am just not feeling very excited about it right now, for obvious reasons, but it is a lovely structure. The current bench won't be staying in it, I was thinking a swing,… Read full post »

JULY 7, 2014 6:38PM

La Puff est Morte


August 29, 1994 - July 7, 2014

Rest in Peace, my little Poo Poo Kitty

our last photo  Read full post »

JUNE 22, 2014 9:44AM

Hoping it works this time...



 I woke up at 3:00 this morning with a panic attack. I don't have the disabling type where I would feel like I'm having a heart attack, I have the type where I'm scared and shaking. They’re still not something I'd recommend to anybody, and they seem… Read full post »

JUNE 19, 2014 7:49PM

To What Purpose?

The black pit of depression has been hanging out with me again, dragging me to early sleep every night that is tossed with dreams, encouraging me to ponder the meaning of life, finally coalescing into one question: To What Purpose?

I should lose weight. To What Purpose?

I should getRead full post »

JUNE 12, 2014 6:07AM

A Note

This started out as a comment on my previous blog. It turned into a note, such as we used to write to each other in the days before texting and email. Don't you miss notes? Buying pretty note cards and matching envelopes and addressing. The joy of finding a note inRead full post »
JUNE 10, 2014 12:45PM


There’s an old saying, “Be careful what you wish for because you just might get it.” I have spent a large amount of time wishing to be free of my job and to have the time to take care of myself. I may be one step closer to that goal.

MyRead full post »

It is Memorial Day weekend again and, if you are a gardener, you know that this is the last possible weekend to have your garden planted. I squeaked mine in this weekend. I am dead dog-tired right now, (spouting colloquialisms seems to be a side effect) but I know I accomplishedRead full post »

MAY 19, 2014 12:53PM

I Moved a Plant

I had to move my blue lilac plant. It was in the way of the new fence that is going in this Friday, so it needed to be moved or killed. I opted for moved.

First, I dug a hole. It's about 3' in diameter. Isn't this wonderfully round! I have… Read full post »