just phyllis

just phyllis
Small Town, Indiana, USA
November 13
Blogging with PTSD --------------- "Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around." - Leo Buscaglia _____________________________________ All works ┬ęPhyllis45, the author of this blog. _____________________________________ Also posting at Our Salon http://oursalon.ning.com/ http://oursalon.ning.com/profile/Phyllis


NOVEMBER 30, 2014 8:49PM

A Trip to Columbus

A trip I had planned for many a day

A trip I had planned to make

come what may



I left this big city when only a tot

I left this big city

with nary a thought


A child of four was

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NOVEMBER 26, 2014 5:25PM

A Sabbatical

I am going to disappear for a week. I've done it before without notice, but this time I am doing it because I spend too much time flipping back and forth between this place and Facebook. It's getting in the way of what little life I have.

I am also leaving… Read full post »

You haven't seen bullies until these two gang up on you.



NOVEMBER 19, 2014 1:00PM

What's New?

Here's the entire Melody Road album, if you're interested, by Neil Diamond. I'm currently enthralled with it.

So what's new? Nothing. It's cold, which you all know.

I have a small office at the other end of the hall from my main work space, my counselor asked for it to… Read full post »

NOVEMBER 18, 2014 12:07PM

For Margaret and James

Wishing you two all the best as you go on together.
NOVEMBER 16, 2014 1:27PM

Mini Saga #2

 Title: The strange occurrence, or what really happens when you drink with theanine as a chaser
Wilbur woke to pounding on his door, or was it his head? He wasn't sure but went to the door just in case. Looking out, he saw fur on the doorstep, looking closerRead full post »
NOVEMBER 15, 2014 2:15PM

Cutting off my nose...

Last night was the night for weird dreams. I tried to cut my nose off. Let me rephrase, I was wanting to cut off my nose at work because it’s a trend. I chose not to because I don’t follow trends and I was at work and everyone would have noticed.Read full post »

NOVEMBER 13, 2014 11:29PM

Wrapping It Up


And thus another year ends. As I start to type this I have 5 minutes shy of two hours to reach the exact moment that I was born all those years ago. It’s been a good day.

It’s been a few years since I bothered to celebrate my birthday, notRead full post »

NOVEMBER 3, 2014 7:14PM

Annual Resolutions

The anniversary of my birth is approaching as it does every year at this time, and I am once again looking over the preceding months with dismay. If it is true, as they say, that the road to hell is paved with good intentions then my path is platinum. I haveRead full post »

NOVEMBER 1, 2014 1:55PM

A Poem About Kittens

sleeping kittens 


A kitten is purring, asleep on my chest

I stroke her, she stretches, and settles to rest.

Her brother is sleeping against my left hip

They’re getting so big, it’s just where he fits.

When they awake they’ll be dashing about

For now they are peaceful and really pRead full post »

OCTOBER 28, 2014 12:49PM

Full of ruth and gruntled... -edited

It is nice, sometimes, to work in a place full of intelligent people. We started out talking about philosophy and psychology and wandered over to making up words, a la Shakespeare, hence the title. (Ruthful as opposed to ruthless and gruntled, drop the dis- to make it happy.)

All of theRead full post »

OCTOBER 25, 2014 11:42AM

A Day of Discovery

Yesterday was a day of discovery, which started with a trip to a neurologist where I gained two new diagnoses for my medical records. I officially have Familial Tremors, also known as Essential Tremors, and Migraine with Aura.The tremors are fairly new, the migraines have been around for longer, butRead full post »

OCTOBER 22, 2014 5:48PM

The Floor (a poem)

I am garbled aplenty and lost in my tears

I don't know where I'm goin' or if there is beer

 I just know that I love you and that you are mine

A life with you here is so surely sublime

But where are going as you walk out the door?… Read full post »

OCTOBER 21, 2014 1:03PM


A blank page, wanting to write and nothing to say.



Three days later and all I can think to write about is kittens and my angst. They are 10 ½ weeks old now and still not potty trained, I had to remove a portion of carpet from my bedroomRead full post »

OCTOBER 16, 2014 8:25PM

Don't Know Yet (and a kitten video)

 A recent spiritual post asked me to consider what I was fighting for if a certain event occurred, the event didn’t occur but I can’t quit wondering what I am fighting for.

Another question posed recently was asking how I define success. My rote answer is family andRead full post »

Last Sunday a week ago I went to the local historical reenactment festival where I sought out the tarot reader I wanted to see last year but couldn't because she was on a break. We had to be clandestine with our reading as she had been barred from doing them this… Read full post »

OCTOBER 10, 2014 7:18AM

A Random Morning on the Way to Work

Got up early to go to store to pick up paint samples on the way to work.

Yelled at kittens for playing on me, one too many pokes in the face and on the neck and the right leg shredded again by tiny kitten claws. Apologized but was firm about no… Read full post »

OCTOBER 3, 2014 8:36PM

Good Intentions and All That

I am not in St. Louis. I went to sleep at 1:30 this morning with my clothes laid out to pack, I did pack them and my sundries and put them in the car. I took the kittens to the vet and dropped them off last night. My house is spotless.… Read full post »

SEPTEMBER 29, 2014 8:00PM

Going to St. Louis and Kittens at the Vet

We went back to the vet tonight, Medjet isn't doing well. She is bright, alert and responsive, everything we look for in a kitten, and the only one who has managed to escape from the confined area they live in, but she isn't gaining weight and her mucus membranes and skin… Read full post »

SEPTEMBER 22, 2014 9:39PM

I've Had Them for 6 Whole Days!

Born on or before August 9, I chose August 7 as that is one month after Puff passed away, means that Adso & Medjet were 5 weeks and 5 days old when I brought them home. I thought they were awful tiny for 7 week old kittens. Today they are 6… Read full post »

SEPTEMBER 18, 2014 7:53PM

The Second Day with Kittens!

Today was a good day. We started with a play date at 3:30 this morning where the kittens romped on the bed and pounced on each other, and it was an impromptu litter session. It wasn't entirely successful but we did okay. 

As I put them back into the crate, I… Read full post »

SEPTEMBER 17, 2014 6:25PM

New Friends

On Tuesday, September 16, 2014 at 7:19 p.m., my life was changed by a fateful phone call. A guy named Randy called and asked me if I wanted to come over and pick out a kitten. I ended up with two.

Say hello to Adso B & Medjet K. (I addedRead full post »

SEPTEMBER 6, 2014 9:25PM


I have had a stomach ache since Tuesday. Part of it is probably from not eating much meat this week, for some reason that affects me, but I’m pretty sure a large portion of it is from last weekend.

My trip to Florida was pretty good, and good for me. ThursdayRead full post »

AUGUST 28, 2014 10:37PM

Today is Someday

As a result of my last post I am currently sitting on a very nice bed in Columbia, Tennessee. I want to thank all of you who helped me to arrive at this place.

I took your advice and went to my counselor Wednesday where I had a torrential meltdown. She… Read full post »

AUGUST 26, 2014 12:55PM

I Need Someone

This being alone is going to kill me or get me fired, I don't know which. The race is pretty tight right now. It's worse when I go to bed, alone, to face the nightmares and dreamscapes with only the TV for surcease of the loneliness and fear. This post is… Read full post »