just phyllis

just phyllis
Location
Small Town, Indiana, USA
Birthday
November 13
Bio
Blogging with PTSD --------------- "Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around." - Leo Buscaglia _____________________________________ All works ┬ęPhyllis45, the author of this blog. _____________________________________ Also posting at Our Salon http://oursalon.ning.com/ http://oursalon.ning.com/profile/Phyllis

MY RECENT POSTS

MARCH 12, 2014 7:55AM

Taking the Long Way

My friends from high school

Married their high school boyfriends

Moved into houses

In the same zipcodes where their parents live

But I, I could never follow

No I, I could never follow

I hit the highway

In a pink RV with stars on the ceiling

Lived like a gypsyRead full post »

MARCH 9, 2014 4:07PM

Fairy Godpeople

“To Wong Foo, Thanks for Everything! Julie Newmar” is probably one of the most remembered movie lines in my history. I saw the movie today, which happens to have that line as the title, and this may be the first time that I actually watched it. No, forget “may be”, itRead full post »

MARCH 5, 2014 7:10PM

An Ode for Spring

 Spring! She cried out

A plea to the night

Spring! came the cry

So loud and so bright

A glimmer of sun

A white cloud in the sky

A bird passes over

As it soars up to fly

Where are you, Spring

We need you, you see

The winter has lingeredRead full post »

Yesterday, I got angry. I mean really, flaming, angry. One might even say that I was royally pissed. Yesterday was my reevaluation.

I started the day hopeful yet stressed. I blogged last summer what it was like to apply for this reevaluation and I had the stress and physical pain revisitRead full post »

MARCH 1, 2014 10:40AM

Transformations

The birds are chirping again, spring is here even if the weather refuses to cooperate, I am sitting on my bed with the window open listening to them. The thermometer said 32 degrees, but after the previous week of subzero wind chills, 32 degrees is quite balmy. It’s all perspective.Read full post »

FEBRUARY 22, 2014 4:46PM

An Integrous Blog

From the Urban Dictionary:

integrous

full of integrity; integrity

The next lesson in Beyond Surviving is about Integrity and Boundaries, and how people who have been abused can have trouble being honest. It's not to say that they are lying scoundrels, but that you get used to lying to

Read full post »
FEBRUARY 15, 2014 4:22AM

Skulduggery- written on a tombstone

The setting: A churchyard cemetery. The church is a massive red brick edifice, about a hundred and fifty years old with concrete steps reaching higher than my head. We didn’t pay attention to the church, though, that isn’t why we are there. I wanted to spend time with her, my mother,Read full post »

FEBRUARY 9, 2014 4:16PM

Feeling Better, and Thanks

In case anyone wonders, I'm feeling better today.

I have to replace my garage door opener, it won't go on the track and I can't find any physical obstructions, so I am going to invest in one that I can check online. I have a bit of OCD over wondering… Read full post »

FEBRUARY 8, 2014 7:37AM

I Quit, I Don't Care- a poem

Life is a puzzle

We must learn to succeed

By thought, hope and action

By word, yes, and deed.

 

Life is a game

That is rigged from the start

No oneRead full post »

FEBRUARY 7, 2014 12:51PM

Riding the Bottom of the Sine Wave

Another day, another space of time spent stressed and headachy and out of sorts. What the hell am I supposed to do?

Turn things around, turn things around, turn things around. I want to change things, I want to be happy, I want to explore something besides the inside of myRead full post »

FEBRUARY 5, 2014 8:57AM

Finding Bliss

I have a friend, not a best friend but I've known her for years, who has been a restless wanderer. She is excruciatingly smart, a dedicated worker when she has a goal to reach, a vegetarian, an avid hiker and rock climber, but restless.

Last spring she decided toRead full post »

FEBRUARY 5, 2014 7:41AM

Perspective- repost

I wrote a beautiful post the other day about changing my perspective. It was full of descriptive narrative and heartfelt emotions, but it was a bit fake as it was repetitious of previous posts. Fate intervened and the post disappeared into the ether, allowing me to start over… Read full post »

FEBRUARY 1, 2014 8:24PM

Perspective- updated

Hello! A few posts back I commented that I would be exploring new options for posting and I have decided to try Medium for my first venture. It helps to know that there are already several persons from Open Salon that post there, I don't know who all of them are but I know that… Read full post »

JANUARY 29, 2014 7:59PM

New Moon Super Moon

January 2014 has been the month of letting go, according to astrology. It began with a new moon in Capricorn, a Super Moon, on January 1 at 6:15 a.m. “The New Moon in Capricorn’s themes are letting go and paving the way for rebirth and aligning with quality and integrity…&rdqRead full post »
JANUARY 25, 2014 8:52PM

Three Strikes

The longer I live, the more weird life gets. First there was childhood where we accept what is because we don’t have the experience to know better. Then there’s young adulthood where we have experiences outside of the nuclear family and we develop the mindset we will live with. Then weRead full post »

JANUARY 22, 2014 7:58PM

I Am Pissed

I am just fucking angry. People shooting, people dying, people who were hiding in their locked rooms telling me that trying to get students to safety was wrong, other people saying a room should have been locked when no one who had the key could be found to lock it, some… Read full post »

JANUARY 19, 2014 7:39AM

The Child in Me - A Poem

I keep on seeing

My mother in me

I don't want to see 

My mother in me

I just want to be

I want to be me

So how do I purge

My mother from me

 

Where’s Phyllis in thisRead full post »

JANUARY 16, 2014 5:43PM

I Need a Break (Down)

I realized yesterday that I do not have space in my life for mental health. Maybe on Saturday if I don't have to drive into town for a haircut or to buy cat food, but all of Saturday's work is undone on Sunday when I have to burn through laundry andRead full post »

JANUARY 11, 2014 8:49AM

Thinking about Death

I've been thinking about death a lot lately. I do, as a rule, anyway; I ponder how someone can be alive, and then they're not. How the brain is firing electrical signals to the body, and then it's not. And how so many people on my Dad's side of the treeRead full post »

 In my random wanderings around the internet, I decided to look up my Uncle Jack one day; he died in 1981 of a coronary infarction, more commonly known as a heart attack. I was surprised to find out that he was only 51, otherwise known as my age, when he died.… Read full post »

JANUARY 4, 2014 7:40PM

Hercules, Hale and Farewell

My first view of Hercules...1
 
A playful dog...
dog
 
And my last...farewell Read full post »
puff
 
Wealth tyranny, kale ageism is better than a sex search of a messy apartment.
 
 Old tears for constitutional right to be white trash.
 
A bigger boat for obummercare brings a sea change in attitude.
 
The family farm: how Depeche Mode retirement beckons actors and… Read full post »
DECEMBER 31, 2013 8:15AM

Happy 2014

Sydney, Australia just hit the mark, which is good enough for me. Hope you have an excellent year.

 

2014
 This is New Zealand but I love that golden explosion.

 

more panels Read full post »

DECEMBER 22, 2013 10:02AM

Puff Goes Outside

Hi. I posted this at Our Salon because they have more flexibility. I had intended to copy it to here, but OMG! The work to get it right over there, I knew it would never transfer.

So, please head over to Our Salon and enjoy Puff's first trek outside.

 … Read full post »

DECEMBER 19, 2013 1:27PM

Secrets

I am on a morbid kick lately, but the only way to the other side is through, so here I go.

Today's lesson from the book Beyond Surviving by Rachel Grant is on integrity and boundaries. I think she needs to give more space to write out answers, I really do, but… Read full post »