just phyllis

just phyllis
Small Town, Indiana, USA
November 13
Blogging with PTSD --------------- "Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around." - Leo Buscaglia _____________________________________ All works ┬ęPhyllis45, the author of this blog. _____________________________________ Also posting at Our Salon http://oursalon.ning.com/ http://oursalon.ning.com/profile/Phyllis


NOVEMBER 3, 2014 7:14PM

Annual Resolutions

The anniversary of my birth is approaching as it does every year at this time, and I am once again looking over the preceding months with dismay. If it is true, as they say, that the road to hell is paved with good intentions then my path is platinum. I haveRead full post »

NOVEMBER 1, 2014 1:55PM

A Poem About Kittens

sleeping kittens 


A kitten is purring, asleep on my chest

I stroke her, she stretches, and settles to rest.

Her brother is sleeping against my left hip

They’re getting so big, it’s just where he fits.

When they awake they’ll be dashing about

For now they are peaceful and really pRead full post »

OCTOBER 28, 2014 12:49PM

Full of ruth and gruntled... -edited

It is nice, sometimes, to work in a place full of intelligent people. We started out talking about philosophy and psychology and wandered over to making up words, a la Shakespeare, hence the title. (Ruthful as opposed to ruthless and gruntled, drop the dis- to make it happy.)

All of theRead full post »

OCTOBER 25, 2014 11:42AM

A Day of Discovery

Yesterday was a day of discovery, which started with a trip to a neurologist where I gained two new diagnoses for my medical records. I officially have Familial Tremors, also known as Essential Tremors, and Migraine with Aura.The tremors are fairly new, the migraines have been around for longer, butRead full post »

OCTOBER 22, 2014 5:48PM

The Floor (a poem)

I am garbled aplenty and lost in my tears

I don't know where I'm goin' or if there is beer

 I just know that I love you and that you are mine

A life with you here is so surely sublime

But where are going as you walk out the door?… Read full post »

OCTOBER 21, 2014 1:03PM


A blank page, wanting to write and nothing to say.



Three days later and all I can think to write about is kittens and my angst. They are 10 ½ weeks old now and still not potty trained, I had to remove a portion of carpet from my bedroomRead full post »

OCTOBER 16, 2014 8:25PM

Don't Know Yet (and a kitten video)

 A recent spiritual post asked me to consider what I was fighting for if a certain event occurred, the event didn’t occur but I can’t quit wondering what I am fighting for.

Another question posed recently was asking how I define success. My rote answer is family andRead full post »

Last Sunday a week ago I went to the local historical reenactment festival where I sought out the tarot reader I wanted to see last year but couldn't because she was on a break. We had to be clandestine with our reading as she had been barred from doing them this… Read full post »

OCTOBER 10, 2014 7:18AM

A Random Morning on the Way to Work

Got up early to go to store to pick up paint samples on the way to work.

Yelled at kittens for playing on me, one too many pokes in the face and on the neck and the right leg shredded again by tiny kitten claws. Apologized but was firm about no… Read full post »

OCTOBER 3, 2014 8:36PM

Good Intentions and All That

I am not in St. Louis. I went to sleep at 1:30 this morning with my clothes laid out to pack, I did pack them and my sundries and put them in the car. I took the kittens to the vet and dropped them off last night. My house is spotless.… Read full post »

SEPTEMBER 29, 2014 8:00PM

Going to St. Louis and Kittens at the Vet

We went back to the vet tonight, Medjet isn't doing well. She is bright, alert and responsive, everything we look for in a kitten, and the only one who has managed to escape from the confined area they live in, but she isn't gaining weight and her mucus membranes and skin… Read full post »

SEPTEMBER 22, 2014 9:39PM

I've Had Them for 6 Whole Days!

Born on or before August 9, I chose August 7 as that is one month after Puff passed away, means that Adso & Medjet were 5 weeks and 5 days old when I brought them home. I thought they were awful tiny for 7 week old kittens. Today they are 6… Read full post »

SEPTEMBER 18, 2014 7:53PM

The Second Day with Kittens!

Today was a good day. We started with a play date at 3:30 this morning where the kittens romped on the bed and pounced on each other, and it was an impromptu litter session. It wasn't entirely successful but we did okay. 

As I put them back into the crate, I… Read full post »

SEPTEMBER 17, 2014 6:25PM

New Friends

On Tuesday, September 16, 2014 at 7:19 p.m., my life was changed by a fateful phone call. A guy named Randy called and asked me if I wanted to come over and pick out a kitten. I ended up with two.

Say hello to Adso B & Medjet K. (I addedRead full post »

SEPTEMBER 6, 2014 9:25PM


I have had a stomach ache since Tuesday. Part of it is probably from not eating much meat this week, for some reason that affects me, but I’m pretty sure a large portion of it is from last weekend.

My trip to Florida was pretty good, and good for me. ThursdayRead full post »

AUGUST 28, 2014 10:37PM

Today is Someday

As a result of my last post I am currently sitting on a very nice bed in Columbia, Tennessee. I want to thank all of you who helped me to arrive at this place.

I took your advice and went to my counselor Wednesday where I had a torrential meltdown. She… Read full post »

AUGUST 26, 2014 12:55PM

I Need Someone

This being alone is going to kill me or get me fired, I don't know which. The race is pretty tight right now. It's worse when I go to bed, alone, to face the nightmares and dreamscapes with only the TV for surcease of the loneliness and fear. This post is… Read full post »

Today is Mom's birthday, she was born in 1938 so that makes her 76 years of having been born. And almost 3 years of having died.

My Grandma died 13 years ago on August 20. Mom didn't appreciate having that so close to her birthday so she went and died 4… Read full post »

AUGUST 19, 2014 1:48PM



It’s fall again, and a new school year is slowly unfurling. This week is Freshman week, where they all come to campus to learn their way around and get settled into their new digs. It’s interesting, wondering what is going through their heads. I’m trying to remember whRead full post »

AUGUST 17, 2014 1:37PM

Dare to Climb

Once upon a time, in a land far, far, away, I planned how to kill myself. I worked for a veterinarian at the time and had access to all of the controlled substances in the clinic, he was the trusting sort even after we caught one of the kennel guys stealingRead full post »

AUGUST 10, 2014 8:24PM

Let It Go! - added a photo

I am supposed to be cleaning my house, the realtor is coming tomorrow to take pictures for the listing. I took a four day weekend to make progress on it and I did pretty good, but I didn't do as good as I could. Now that my phone battery is… Read full post »

AUGUST 3, 2014 9:29AM

Going Home Again

When I moved back to Indiana in 2001, I thought that I could go home again, find myself, and start over. I thought that was reconnecting with old friends and finding a man to have a family with, being 38 at the time I figured I had a few good yearsRead full post »

AUGUST 1, 2014 3:33PM

Learning About Me

I am sitting in the waiting room at the VA, waiting on Dad to have an endoscopy. I must be missing that spark that others see as Dad’s charm, or maybe I’ve just known him for too long. We were talking yesterday as he was sitting in my house and heRead full post »

JULY 27, 2014 6:22PM

Lots of Stuff...

My kitchen and living room are almost ready for pictures, it’s been a long week of sorting and boxing. I have a trunk and backseat full of stuff to take in to the bin, to get it out of the way. These rooms are pretty big when they’re empty-ish. I caulkedRead full post »

JULY 26, 2014 3:50PM


Today, I am sitting on the sofa watching Maverick and trolling Facebook. What I need to do is finish sorting out my house and recaulk my bathtub. I made good progress this week, the living room is almost done. I have a giant bag of paper trash that I am goingRead full post »