Welcome to the end of an awful day. So much for my plans to go shoot my new gun and to have some fun. Yes, I know it is a tiny gun, made in the USA, but that's okay. My only purpose is to hurt anyone that gets too close with ill intent. That should be okay.
Nope, I had to get my buttons pushed first thing this morning by reading a FB post that my cousin put up. He says it wasn't about me but it was a direct, insulting paraphrase of something that I had posted so how could it not be aimed at me, on purpose or not? I really want a map to the male brain. I think.
I had an encounter with a male brain a few years ago that also pushed buttons. That one was a psychiatrist at the VA. He wanted me to re-live my trauma, to submerge myself in the bad emotions and relive the event in full color detail, at which point he would then pray over me and ask God to release me from the pain. After that event, I bought a hatchet and rode around with it in the car for two weeks, and currently am using it as a doorstop for my bedroom door so that it is close at hand in case of need. Isn't it pretty? It was made in the USA, too. Drop forged steel.
I have a pocket knife, purchased at a flea market in FL. It was made in China, but that's not a slam. Just, I told you where the gun and the hatchet were made, so it seemed I should mention it for the knife, too. It has good balance, a solid feel to the handle, and a friend just sharpened it for me. I bought the knife during my horrible year in Gainesville. I was feeling very threatened and alone.
I consider Puff to be a weapon. More so when she was younger than now that she's old and creaky, but still. She's never been declawed, and I can't think of anyone that wants a scared, pissed off cat thrown into their face. Assuming I could catch her to throw her.
Of course, the best at home weapon is the dog. I, however, have been dogless for 392 days, but who's counting. I actually just added it up, so I'm really not counting. I have no plans to get another dog, either, so am having to come up with other means of defense.
Self defense classes? Well, I called all of the three martial arts schools in Conservativeville and couldn't get a call back. I have considered contacting the martial arts club at my university to see if anyone tutors but I am afraid to find out how much they would charge and then have to tell them I can't afford it. And I don't want to take the self defense courses offered by the police. I want to really hurt someone if I have to get into a fight.
This is where my mind goes when I get stressed. Actually, this is where it ends up. First it goes down trails where I have vicious arguments with whomever has pissed me off and I tell them exactly why they have pissed me off and of course I don't bother to say it to their face because a. I might have over-reacted and will end up feeling stupid and/ or b. they just wouldn't care. In this case, I did email the person involved and he said he sees our conversations where he does everything in his power to cut my arguments to shreds and tells me everything I believe in is wrong as "banter." Huh.
On a lighter note...
Bain Capital is the owner of Clear Channel Productions, employer of Rush Limbaugh. Can we say, "Hm-m-m-m."
It's gotta be the weather.