My husband says, "Your writing is too verbose, but your thoughts are more sophisticated than they used to be."  At least there's that.

It made me feel dumb.

I'm an artist and musician which shouldn't hinder me from writing well, but that's who I am. I don't focus on the improvement of the written word, only canvas and sound. 

Can I be taken seriously if I can't write well? I guess I can try editing my essays more than two or three times even though there's not enough time in the day to do so. I simply lose interest after a while. The same shit over and over. Editing is like the movie Groundhog's Day. 

The Internet hasn't been helpful either. Years learning the lingo and my skills went down the toilet, if I had any at all. I've regressed. What can I do? I get home from work after a long day and devote my time to art, not writing. Yet, if you were to read my graduate papers it has obviously been edited by my husband. I give the content and then he changes the way I express things and shortens the essays into more concise words. The man can seriously chop a ten page paper into four pages. (hangs head)

If I were to actually turn in a legitimate paper, completely written and edited by myself, I fear it would be hideous. Clearly, not the work expected of a graduate student, for sure. 

I am ashamed that I'm not a better writer, which is why I'm writing about this. But, I am an exceptional educator in my own field (not writing haha), and I suppose that makes up for part of it. At least that's what my husband says. I'm pretty sure he's trying to be diplomatic. 

 (deep breath).