"This is the first day of the rest of my life" attitude this dawn. Going to take a look at my writing w/fresh eyes. My motto will be, finish what you started. Due to being a creative person and/or bipolar, I keep going off on tangents, new projects in my head, false starts, etc. I will refocus and finish a couple of things. Life can take you off in ten different directions, too. That's why, for instance, it's good to avoid cable news w/their endless series of political crises to focus on. Why it's good to avoid frenetic activity of all kinds.
How about making a to-do list w/ten things instead of 25? Or 7 things? And finishing them all.
Did not hear back from the school system this week about work. Important to not obsess and just let it go. There is a reason for everything that happens in life.
Even being ridiculed, like on OS recently, has its purpose, beyond making me feel like crap for a while. In the absense of all conflict, how can there be growth? I have no desire to stay in a meditative trance 24-7. Creativity does not come about in a vacuum.
I can worry about what others think of me till the cows come home, but where does that get me, except in a nonproductive stew? Self-esteem, ultimately, is an inside job; it's not something others impart to you. It's something you come to apprehend, in creative solitude.
However, iIbought a book on encouragement yesterday. And yes, it does play a huge role in helping a person to get back up after being knocked down, and step forward again. And I do thank others in this writing community for their encouragement.