I am not sure that I am a very good (insert buddhist, quaker, doctor, sister, person).  I mostly feel like I am, but I am so daily reminded of the limits of my patience and the stretches of kindness.  I want to be a bodisattva, and that means desiring happiness and… Read full post »

Today in meditation (yawn, boring already) the world "DE-INVENTION" popped into my head. So often we hear about people RE-inventing themselves, and applaud someone for starting over and making something new of themselves.  The Comeback Kid.  Donald Trump.  Madonna.  Our tv world i… Read full post »

I wonder what my role is in life, for myself, for others.  There is educator, there is guide, there is doctor, there is voice of reason.  There is friend, there is sister, daughter, niece, aunt, there is lover.  All these different roles, different hats, and hopefully not too big a jum… Read full post »

Today was spent taking my sister to the hospital, where she is now.  She may have appendicitis.  She may just have acute inflammation of the bowel.  She is on pain meds and IV antibiotics.  This is not the first time she has gone through this, and she asked them to wait… Read full post »

Like many, I come from a strong background of pressure to be successful.  I grew up around a lot of rich people, and many were successful. Realistically, most of them were rich because their parents were rich and gave them many legs up in life.  Whether or not they became successful… Read full post »

It's really amazing, how a few little words, spoken outloud or said inside, can change everything.  

"And then I got over it".

Moving on, letting go, moving forward, forgiving, forgetting, healing... we talk the talk but don't walk the walk.  We tell our stories over and over, embroidering… Read full post »

Somewhere in my childhood life, I saw an episode of "Chariots of the Gods".  Hosted by Leonard Nimoy, aka Mr Spock, my little mind was burst open with the possibilities of other lives, other civilizations, other times.  I was aware of "the olden days" because of things like the Bicentennial… Read full post »

Angel rolled over and patted his girlfriend on the shoulder,

"I don't think we should go, I am feeling kind of bad."

"Nonsense, you just ate too much again.  It will be good for you, sweat off that second piece of pie."  Maria was scooting out of bed, crossing the room… Read full post »

Angel rolled over and patted his girlfriend on the shoulder,

"I don't think we should go, I am feeling kind of bad."

"Nonsense, you just ate too much again.  It will be good for you, sweat off that second piece of pie."  Maria was scooting out of bed, crossing the room… Read full post »

Recently, I learned that the real reason that I voted for Obama was because I had inadvertantly let my ovaries hold on to the pen when I was in the booth.  I remember that morning, bright and early, lining up with my fellow Americans before the sunrise, coffee in hand, waiting… Read full post »

Can you have totally sober sex that's also uninhibited and totally satisfying? My friend and I have been having a chat about what constitutes abnormal alcohol behavior.  She hardly ever drinks, and she has had a lot of sex.  Still, she apparently has never needed alcohol to lose inhibition,… Read full post »

There's a part of my mind that is like a missing tooth sometimes.  Aware of the gap of what should be there, the tongue runs through its grooves, again and again, looking for its negative spaces and carving out lines and folds.  I haven't missed a tooth in some time, although… Read full post »

Kids these days aren't what they used to be.  

Well, come to think of it, they probably never really were.  We have just come to a point in our social and biological evolution that we shift so much faster between generations, within generations, that kids these days probably aren't what… Read full post »

If my teenage years had a soundtrack, it would resemble Pretty in Pink meets the Smiths, with some Depeche Mode and B52s thrown in.  Because, you know, we all have a soundtrack to our formative years.  And they lasted from vinyl and radio to CD and MP3 and satellite.  If I… Read full post »

Every year, usually around the last week of August, I sense the shift.  Gold light turns to silver, and the sound of rustling leaves in the afternoon breezes has a slightly more tinkly feel to it.  They may have changed a hue or two, less green, more yellow or brown, dessication… Read full post »

I sent my teenage stepdaughter to the Forum last year.  It was a huge breakthrough for her, as it should be, and has had a little lingering effect.  Still, she cycles in and out of not taking responsibility for herself, blaming others, marinating in misery and self pity.  She has also… Read full post »

Tonight, I posted a comment to a post on RWNutjob's page.  He gave a long winded and pretty lame conspiracy theory backed by faulty reasoning, giving poor comparisons and illogical conclusions.  I don't have time to point out the reasoning flaws, because I hope to not have to read those wor… Read full post »

If you haven't already, read Christine Geery's piece on Caregiver Burnout.  

Yesterday, I had a spontaneous lunch with a good friend.  I have been working on summer schedule, which means a lot of half days.  When I return from my vacation I am taking soon, it will be mid September… Read full post »

I don't remember the date anymore, but it was in October.  I know this because it was just before Halloween.  He was wearing a mask, and it didn't trigger too many alarms.  

I used to live in Santa Fe and had a job as hostess at a very popular restaurant.… Read full post »

It's about time I revealed my deep seated, even more secretly embedded, crazy private neuroses crushes here on OS.  I won't even begin to mention the nagging haunting intriguing women by name, because that list is too long and someone will scratch my eyes out if I leave Xenon's Rita's&… Read full post »

I came of age in the era of political correctness.  My childhood in the 70s was full of plenty of opinion, judgment, racism, sexism, economic disparity.  Children see the world around them that their parents create- and very little beyond that.  They absorb the opinions, words and feel… Read full post »

With the emergence of the Twittersphere and the swift hand of social media justice, there is probably now an App for Right(eous) Indignation.  Type in your lists of hates, likes, preferences, disagrees, desires, and beliefs, and it should be able to tell you who to support, who to fight, where t… Read full post »

You are not an ape.  

We may descend from common ancestors with modern apes, but we are not apes.  Evolution is mutation and adaptation over slow periods of time, not a couple generations or even a few millenia.   Should we be vegetarians?  Surely, we are descended from apes, and… Read full post »