Yesterday's post...meditation on disaster. The writing is about natural disaster, but in my life, self-made disaster is much more common, more likely, more relevant.

I got a big chunk of loan money yesterday, for this semester of school, tuition paid and the balance sent to my bank account. Working p… Read full post »

Optimism is hard sometimes.

I've made a lot of mistakes in my life. I've hurt people I care about. I've hurt myself too many times. Even now there's a sweet woman who doesn't need my complication in her life. And yet I can seem to quit her.

Tomorrow is… Read full post »

"Whether it is the time or the method, true labor is half initiative and half knowing how to let things proceed on their own."

Right now, while I'm in grad school, I work a contingent job taking care of residents at several homes for developmentally disabled adults with mental illness.

A… Read full post »

Apparently I missed a day, and posted one late. Three fourths of the way through grad school, very broke and stressed, leaves me pretty frazzled these days. I wasn't sure if I had managed to post each day, or not.

It appears as though I'm not perfect after all though, and… Read full post »

Power in silence.

I need to get back to meditation or some sort of yoga. I need that structured stillness, because everything else in my life feels like raging rushing madness. Loud and hard and fast.

Even the music is too much sometimes. I need quiet.

Soon.

 Spendings: $4,… Read full post »

Today's meditation talks on the concept of being still.

I have the word tattooed on my wrist. Literally. Still.

Not because I am there, or know how to be there or get there, but because I know that is where I want to go, where I want to be. At a… Read full post »

This days meditation starts with this:

Make the crooked straight,

Make the straight to flow.

Gather water, fire, and light.

Bring the world to a single point.

It goes on to speak of devotion, focus and faith and commitment to our path. Removing obstacles and deterrants.

I thought of… Read full post »

It's January 4, but I'm going to backtrack and write entries for Jan. 1-3 as well. I'm starting a project to document my life one day at a time, with the goal to make it through a year. A big year.

One of my goals this year is to be… Read full post »