Monique Colver

Monique Colver
Vancouver, Washington, USA
December 20
Colver Press
Author of "An Uncommon Friendship: a memoir of love, mental illness, and friendship," now available on Amazon and at Now working on an essay collection, "Early Lies," due out in spring 2014.


OCTOBER 14, 2014 12:49PM

Still Recovering

Man, depression sucks. Majorly sucks. I’ve had my setbacks, and I’ve had my moments of pure joy, and I’ve cried at the aloneness of it all, and I’ve cried with happiness because of everything I do have.

And while I’ve made great progress this these past few months I… Read full post »

I say most likely because I’ve learned it’s best not to state what I will emphatically do or not do, on the off chance that I wake up one day and change my mind.

It’s a changeable thing, my mind.

I don’t have the heart for it, for… Read full post »

SEPTEMBER 22, 2013 3:03PM

A Stepfather's Death

Recently I attended a funeral for a lovely man who married my mother years ago. Then they buried him next to my mother.

We didn’t get along well for many years – by the time I met him I was already married, and living overseas, so it’s not as… Read full post »

JULY 24, 2013 9:54PM

Failure IS An Option!

I’m sorry to be the one to say this, but failure isn’t the worst thing that can happen to us. Not only that, I’ve found that it IS an option! I have a long history of failure, dating back to when I was learning to walk, and fell down. Oh sure,… Read full post »

MAY 31, 2013 3:26PM

Mental Illness, Death, Life

Five years ago today I stood at the bedside of Stew Young and held his head while he died.

That sounds overly dramatic and sad, when I say it like that. How about this:

Five years ago today I had a very bad day. For Stew, it was the… Read full post »

MAY 8, 2013 7:17PM

A Panic Attack

There’s still a hollow feeling in my chest, a sort of numbness and a tingling, but the tingling is so muted that I’m not really sure it’s there.

I swear I was fine this morning. Or as fine as can be expected.

I’m feeling a bit overwhelmed,… Read full post »

NOVEMBER 9, 2012 3:21PM

New Blog Post

SEPTEMBER 30, 2012 8:57PM

The Color of Light


I tried capturing it in jars, first a Hellman’s mayonnaise, not only rinsed out, but scoured, cleaned within an inch of its life. Outside was the crisp light of early fall, the trees not yet turning but on the verge. The sky bright with free floating dreams, the kindRead full post »

SEPTEMBER 25, 2012 11:11PM


               I KNOW! I’m pretty excited myself, so I can imagine how you’re feeling about it.

               Granted, you don’t care much,… Read full post »

SEPTEMBER 6, 2012 6:20PM

How To Be A Writer.2

Part 1 is here: -- I can only get here randomly, so sometimes I do, sometimes I don't.


Today someone sent me an email asking if his wife would like my book. 

How do you respond to that? (By you, I mean me, obviously.) How do I know? Maybe sheRead full post »

It’s a tricky proposition at the best of times, especially if one is also prone to depression. That would be me, the depressive, though I’m usually quite happy, thank you very much.


Every time I acknowledge that I live with depression I feel I must mention that I’m happy.… Read full post »

JULY 10, 2012 2:08AM

Perception: A Review


What fun! A brilliant college professor who just happens to have schizophrenia. Or is it someone with schizophrenia who just happens to be brilliant? We’ve seen it before – sometimes it’s as if everyone on TV is a genius. They’re everywhere, solving crimes and Making T… Read full post »

When Stew was suffering with massive anxiety issues and the thought of going anywhere, or doing anything, was so overwhelming he would shake at the thought of it (and not a good sort of shake), I would ask him to make an effort.

That doesn’t sound particularly helpful, does… Read full post »

MAY 19, 2012 1:17PM

Kennedy Curse? Try Human Curse.


It's not that I want to take anything away from the Kennedys -- I'm sure their suffering is great and suicide is such a difficult thing to wrap your head around, unless you're the one who's suicidal, of course, and then it makes all the sense in the world.… Read full post »

MAY 16, 2012 6:40PM

There's No One Size Fits All


Here’s the thing about mental illness. (Yes, you heard that correctly. There is only one thing, and one thing only, and if you believe that, I have a bridge for sale.)

The thing about mental illness is that everyone is different. We can’t diagnose people and put them inRead full post »

APRIL 15, 2012 2:13PM

Let's Diagnose a Mental Illness!

Haven’t you heard? It’s the new party game, fun for all ages and the fab part is, everyone wins! I do like a game where I get to win.

                Look, I do a lot of reading around the web, and if there&rsquo… Read full post »

MARCH 11, 2012 5:16PM

Crazy on Planes


Yesterday’s cursory review of the news was full of mental illness stories. If by full, I mean there were several. There were also the old standbys: War, famine, the economy, politics, but there were also stories of people lost in their own minds.

There was a video of a… Read full post »

FEBRUARY 12, 2012 8:33PM

Just a word about colonoscopies

Two days ago I checked in for a routine colonoscopy and discovered, much to my surprise, that I am 54 years old. This was quite a shock, as I was fairly certain I was still 53. At this rate, I’ll be well on my way to 60 in no time at… Read full post »

DECEMBER 31, 2011 11:34PM

The Death of my Father

Wednesday night while I sat at the airport, waiting for my sister to pick me up and take me to the hospital where my father lay dying, my father’s heart stopped for the very last time.

                My timing is ofte… Read full post »

NOVEMBER 22, 2011 2:02PM

Better Pain


There’s worse pain, and there’s better pain, and I’m currently experiencing better pain, though it sounds worse than it is. Or does it sound better? Less pain, that’s what I mean. I’m not trying to say that I’m a masochist and the quality of the pain is sui… Read full post »

NOVEMBER 16, 2011 6:50PM

Mental Illness Sucks

Help guy

 There I was, looking for graphics for my business website, and this popped up. And I had to have it. There’s Stew, on the right, needing help, despondent with his auditory hallucinations, his depression, his anxiety, and on the left are all the people who can’t see him, much… Read full post »

NOVEMBER 11, 2011 1:07PM

Happy Veterans Day


We love us our veterans, don’t we? As a peacetime veteran, I’m all about Veterans Day. I didn’t spend several years of my life hanging out in a uniform so I could get a day off once a year, which was just as well since it was many years… Read full post »

OCTOBER 20, 2011 2:36PM

Living On The Edge


Despite my current occupation, I’m a daredevil at heart. Accountants get a lot of bad press, and I’m not sure why. After all, engaging in mortal combat with the IRS isn’t for the faint of heart, is it?

But it’s more than that. It’s a reckless disregard for my… Read full post »

OCTOBER 4, 2011 2:10PM

“It’s Like Going to War”


I heard this on a commercial the other day, maybe for The Next Iron Chef. You know, where chefs compete to become television stars, if they aren’t already, by participating in cooking contests. I love a good cooking contest as well as the next person, so don’t get me wrong.… Read full post »

Let’s talk about cupcakes. I only say this because I am suffering from Cupcake Deficit Disorder. I’m not allowed many cupcakes because they have sugar in them, and I’m supposed to be avoiding the stuff. And no, I don’t want to know about any sugar free cupcakes. If I’m

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