Why the hell does he put me through this?

A perfect day, spent with him, ruined. In one instant.

He still effing likes her. While he likes me. Just like before. I'm always, the effing option. He talks to her more then he's been talking to me. And he always denies it. Oh, nothing's going on? Maybe you shouldn't give your girlfriend your facebook password. I'm sorry, when there's a message from the girl I'm most worried about, I'm gonna read. And when you tell her those things, it pisses me off. Even more the fact she likes him too. What the heck did I ever do to deserve this? I thought today was excellent. That everything was back on track. All day together, at Silver Dollar City, and I get home to this? Seriously. I just want to, I don't even know. I'm shaking. I'm crying. And even more I'm mad as hell. I don't even know what I'm doing anymore. He's ruining my life.