I never know what to do, do I? That's normal though. I think. So far, I've been single for about two days. Uhm....I think it's okay to say I've changed my mind? Well, not necessarily. I mainly have a decision. But that's probably change. I like being single. I never realized how much I missed it. Not feeling like someone's depending on you, or waiting on you, or any of that. I felt today like a weight was lifted off my shoulders...and I liked it. But then comes the sweet words that run through my head. The incredibly too sweet for a teenage boy words I couldn't stop thinking off. And then came the regret. But then I would think of something, and change my mind. I just honestly don't know what to do! Church, was the same as normal.  Pretty much. I didn't talk to him til after Church, which removed any awkward moments I was avoiding. But we talked, like I've always wanted since we were friends last year. His dad took me home, and I could joke with him, and talk to him, and I felt completely myself. In a way I wanted to hold his hand and get a goodbye kiss, but I didn't want to let go of the feeling of being single. I think of the future, and I want to be single. I think of the present, and I want to be with him. I miss being with him and my family, and when we can talk, but I like having my freedom. Uhm, hello? What do I do?! Quite the pickle if you ask me. Seems we always end up back together. But I did what was right for me! But, was it what I wanted? I just don't know honestly. And I need advice. Oh, to add...I told him I want the real deal. I'm in love with fairytales, and I believe actions speak louder then words. He's not going to ask me out over text, he's going to do it in person. He's not just going to text me I'm beautiful and other sweet things, he'll tell me to my face. He's not just going to say he cares, he's going to prove it. I want it all. I want him to prove to me I'm the one for me, his only one, and that we can make it work. Until then, I'm defianltly staying single. And if he cathces on and does that, then you're gonna get a heck of another screwed up blog post. Adios amigos. 

-mistylee<3 

 Dear Misty, 

Youve proven to me that you can deal with my stupidness. Youve shown me whats its really like to live a life with someone there to be with you, ive never really gotten close to someone. But you showed me that i can, you are the greatest thing any guy could ever ask for. youve always been here for me and ill always be here for you.misty i want to show the world that you are the greatest person alive, that youre the best. im not chasing after you only because i love you, but because youre best for me. your who i want<3

Number one, you are my life. No joke. I couldn't begin to tell you how much you mean to me. You are the sweetest, beautifulest, amazingest person on earth,the word i love you mean a lot to me<3 when i say them to you, i don't do it out of habit or cause i think i need to, i do it so you won't forget.you are my one and only true love<3 i respect you, your decisions, and everything you do. i would literally do anything for you. your the one reason i can sleep ever. you give me the warmest feeling in my heart. your like the hot to my chocolate. the fire to my fly. those are cheesy:P but hot chocolate isn't hot chocolate if it's not hot, and a fire fly isn't a fire fly with the beautiful glow. just like you<3 i wouldnt be who i am withoutyou, you are that beautiful glow<3

I know i'm being hard to get, but hey, he was for seven months. I think it's a fair trade.