As usual, he appears painfully thin to my maternal eyes. He is fashionably dressed in a black leather fitted jacket, casual pants and the Adidas sneakers he wears in compliance with his endorsement agreement. The expensive watch on his left wrist serves the same purpose. He’s agreed to wear it on the show.
The ubiquitous ball cap, some version of which he has worn since he was a Pee Wee Leaguer, was jammed down over his forehead to either protect his face from the sun or to prevent his being recognized by ardent, usually female fans. I never asked.
His kohl black beard shines and sparkles in the Atlanta sunlight, matching the ever-present twinkle in his almond-shaped eyes. Once again I marvel at the very notion that such a tall and handsome creature is the fruit of my long gone womb.
The relationship between a parent and an adult child is both easy and tricky. Ours has been a close bond from day one, fostered by my openness and determination to actually hear him. Nothing has changed about that, so when he chats over lunch about his work, his challenges and his sexual escapades, I force myself to listen as an adult friend. The “mommy” in me doesn’t like to think about those things very much.
He has just left the hotel gym and intends to return in the evening for another session. A bedroom scene with the star of the television pilot he is in town to film informs the two-a-days and is reflected in the content of his luncheon order. Broiled salmon, no butter. House salad, dressing and bleu cheese on the side. Steamed broccoli, no salt. He says his abdominal “six-pack” has slipped back to a 4 1/2; it will be back to six by morning.
The man who sits on the other side of the table is the self-assured, intelligent, polite and mannered gentleman I tried with all I had to raise. He sees the world in ways that are often diametrically opposed to the way I see it. He says things I don’t always like or agree with and he knows it, but it doesn’t stop him from saying exactly what he means. I like that about him, too.
The time is too short – the limo is picking him up to take him to the studio. The bedroom scene is to be shot the next day and he needs to be “camera-ready,” as he calls it. So focused. So professional.
I drop him off in front of the hotel and watch him disappear into his life again. Caught in the thick of the 5 p.m. rush hour in the impossibly congested Buckhead area of Atlanta, I think about the beautiful little toddler with the long eyelashes that caused people to mistake him for a girl if he wore a hat. He was such a little ham, even then.
I always knew he’d be a celebrity one day.


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jmac: We are so lucky to have had the chance to watch the process, aren't we?
Zanelle: I think your mother IS proud of you. She just doesn't know how to tell you.
Seriously, you're the mommy of a *movie star*! Too cool!
Belinda T.: We are a mutual admiration society, it's true. Thanks!
Sarah: Thank you.
At first I thought it was going to be about your mother.
Your son sounds, handsome, happy and grounded-bravo!
"I tell you, those ideals of 'six-pack' actually mean you're starved."
That's an example of how subtle I can be in my motherly sentences I've said to my painfully-thin-to-my-eyes Middle Son who loves his physique...of course, the cameras are on for your son. I suppose skipping the butter makes a little sense...
...a TV pilot!!?? I hope it goes! Keep us posted.
Now, when's the diamond company going to hire your son as handsome spokesman so mom gets some sparklies? : )
I'm sure it's tricky sometimes to negotiate the boundaries of being a mom to an adult son, when you were once the "mommy" to the little boy. It seems like you do it pretty well.
ladyfarmerjed: I’m sorry the title misled you. He’s a great guy.
JT: Hahahaha. I’d rather he got a commercial for a company that sells the fountain of youth! LOL It’s been a while. How are you?
Jeanette: I do my best, but sometimes I have to bite the inside of my cheeks to keep quiet. :D
jlsathre: That adult relationship thing doesn’t always work out, so I feel lucky.
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Rated for residual empty nest feelings.
kosh: It’s going to happen. Just haven’t decided when yet. I have another 13 months on my lease, so decisions will be required soon.
Seer: :D How’d you guess?
ON CHILDREN
BY Kahlil Gibran
Your children are not your children.
They are the sons and daughters of Life's longing for itself.
They come through you but not from you,
And though they are with you yet they belong not to you.
You may give them your love but not your thoughts,
For they have their own thoughts.
You may house their bodies but not their souls,
For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow,
which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.
You may strive to be like them,
but seek not to make them like you.
For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday.
You are the bows from which your children
as living arrows are sent forth.
The archer sees the mark upon the path of the infinite,
and He bends you with His might
that His arrows may go swift and far.
Let your bending in the archer's hand be for gladness;
For even as He loves the arrow that flies,
so He loves also the bow that is stable.
Brie aka Barbara K: Khalil Gibran is one of my all-time favorites. I had forgotten about that poem, which touched me so deeply all those years ago when my son was still a child. Thank you for renewing it for me.
nerd cred: I am so glad you have the same relationship with your son. It is the most satisfying and gratifying thing I can think of.
Lea: Every time I see a picture of your son like the recent one you posted of him in the same room as the President (GWB) I smile a knowing smile because I know exactly how you feel. And yes, that they are good people is the best part of all of it.
Rated.
What came through was a sense of drive & commitment in your son, & your pride ... but a lingering uneasiness perhaps every parent feels, about how far their child needs to go ... but we did too, remember ?
All that I felt, & love. I forgot to mention love.