I will not allow your distorted perception of me

to affect my perception of myself - anonymous
MAY 4, 2012 12:19AM

Love like this

 

Not long ago, I was having an email conversation with a friend who was going through some heart ache. My friend told me her story then asked for my thoughts, but not before she apologized for whining.

 

“You’re not whining,” I said. “You’re hurting out loud… Read full post »

APRIL 4, 2012 10:57PM

I'm the woman I used to be

 

I’ve been too sad lately, it’s been 8 years and I should be over my former husband by now. Everyone wants me to be over it, so that’s how I pretend to be. I miss more than the man, I miss who I was with him. How easy it was… Read full post »

"Whatever colors you have in your mind

I'll show them to you and you'll see them shine."

 

Wow. The first time I heard those incredible two lines decades ago, I fell in love with Lay Lady Lay. The way Bob Dylan sings, the music, everything about it touches me. Couldn't… Read full post »

Tuesday night I got home from celebrating a friends birthday and found an email from my last boyfriend ("The Pilot" if you're keeping up on my disastrous history).  It was a simple hi how are you. I'm as suspicious of simple as I am of complex. I hadn’t heard from him… Read full post »

MARCH 28, 2012 6:10PM

About that PM

 

For a couple of years I’ve been getting wonderful PM’s. With the death of my father last month I’ve received a lot more and am starting to feel bad. These are kind words sent by caring men and women who simply want to be good to another person. I… Read full post »

This post is about removing calluses and unsightly dead skin from my feet because Linda Seccaspina and fernsy want to read about it. I’m not sure I understand but, okay. I was told by someone very nice the beginning of a piece should tell you where it’s going and other stuff… Read full post »

MARCH 13, 2012 11:56AM

Adventure on the train to Milan

 

 

My grandfather, Mansour Abdel-Sayed Mansour, had an antiques shop in Shepherd's Hotel in Cairo, as well as in the Semiramis Hotel, and in the Khan Khalil Bazaar. During that time Cairo was a travel must for people from all over Europe and the US. His clientele included King Farou… Read full post »

MARCH 13, 2012 1:49AM

The bubble girl and her father

Mountain View, California, 1958 

 

There is a bubble I live in, sometimes happily, sometimes not.

 

As terrible as my relationship with my father was, I was proud of his integrity in business and the things he accomplished. Today I learned something new about his life before h… Read full post »

MARCH 9, 2012 3:11PM

That I Would Be Good

What I always wanted to know when growing up and growing older. 
 
 
That I would be good even if I did nothing
 
That I would be good even if I got theRead full post »
MARCH 1, 2012 10:52PM

Tonight

 

Tonight I feel weak, and mushy, not substantial at all. The day started out okay and I went soft as the hours dragged on. Today I had nothing to do. The TV is on and all the shows have people that seem to be all jagged edges. Hard sharp people… Read full post »

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FEBRUARY 26, 2012 7:12PM

Now what do I say?

 

My dad died last Saturday the 18th. He died peacefully and I'm glad for that, prayed with all my heart for it to be painless and am glad it went that way. I keep thinking I should say something to those here who don't know yet,  but what should I… Read full post »

FEBRUARY 16, 2012 12:03AM

Pain meds, giggling, and serenading babies

This is not a happy post. If you didn't read my post two weeks ago, my father has congestive heart failure and has home hospice care. What that means is that he's dying, it's horrible for him to feel, and for us to see, and we're all crazy (more than before).… Read full post »

FEBRUARY 4, 2012 11:08PM

The 80's Femmemullet (for Rita)

Sitting on the back of the toilet in front of my Missing Persons poster which was hanging in the Tower Records on Hollywood Blvd, a gift from a guy who was working there the day I went to see Toni Basil in the parking lot. Vintage suit and check out the… Read full post »

FEBRUARY 1, 2012 10:37PM

Family stuff is keeping me away from OS

 

I haven't been around much, my dad's congestive heart failure has gotten pretty bad. Monday the hospice doctor and social worker came so he can stay in his home. I've been busy with my mom trying to keep her from being completely exhausted, and of course we have all the… Read full post »

JANUARY 28, 2012 1:00AM

Eat Tacos?

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I need a little help from the late night thinkers on OS. I'm wondering if this Mayor has an answer no one else has thought of yet.
The first vid doesn't really explain what the problem was but it's worth watching to the end because the mayor explains his plan in de… Read full post »
JANUARY 25, 2012 7:08PM

Holding onto hope

When I went to get the mail today a high school couple across the street was holding each other close in a kiss. I kept my eyes down as I collected the trash can and when I glanced again the kiss was over but the embrace lasted. It lasted through me… Read full post »

JANUARY 21, 2012 10:33PM

A Simple Woman

 

Softly she went from place to place,

person to person, faceless to face.

Moving her lips but no one hears,

while flitting through their might.  

 

 

Endless days bleed into nights, 

fast and slow or left and right.

She's only theRead full post »

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JANUARY 18, 2012 2:51PM

Pretty snow

It's snowing here. I woke and the world looked sweetly pretty, like a fairy tale. This will be the first time in a decade I get to see what this much snow looks like in my yard. Out I go with camera and umbrella.

 

The weather vane is my favorite… Read full post »

JANUARY 16, 2012 7:22PM

AMERICAN VALUE$

 

Some days I comfort the disturbed, some days I disturb the comfortable. I guess it all depends on whether I'm comfortable or disturbed by my personal observations. 

 

What would you do if you saw a large dog gorging at the food dish while small starving dogs sat staring… Read full post »

JANUARY 14, 2012 11:59AM

A remarkable woman

It's been almost a week that I've been back and I've gone to see my mom three times. I see her very differently after missing her during my brief absense. It seems last year my feelings changed a lot. I have been reflecting on it all week and having many insights… Read full post »

 

It's disturbing to think about the live streaming spammers. I think these might be the stupidest humans on earth. What are they getting out of all these accounts? It's like mishima666 said, they kill the host. Is there some way they're able to make money when the site is

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DECEMBER 8, 2011 10:49PM

The Christmas Guest

This was given to me on  a cassette long ago and though I'm not a fan of country music I could listen to Reba McEntire read The Christmas Guest  over and over again. In fact I do. The last 60 seconds makes tears of joy run down my face. The poem… Read full post »

NOVEMBER 24, 2011 10:50PM

Breathing through holidays

 

Well the holidays are officially here and with them my bone deep desire to become cold, to withdraw to the safe place where there is no pain or disappointment. In prying information from my mom, she told me that since I was little I always got depressed and anxious… Read full post »

NOVEMBER 16, 2011 6:01PM

I'm just talking on a page

 

I read Susie Lindau's wonderful post today titled Anger, Fear or Joy? Light bulbs went off in my head. I suggest you read it because it really got me thinking and not just about writing. As I read and absorbed her thoughts and questions about motivation, answers were popping into my… Read full post »

 

“Why does God do bad things?” My mom used to ask me that question every time something bad happened to me or someone else in her orbit. “Why Doe? Why does God do these bad things?” And I would sigh.  As if God was some moody Mafia boss in… Read full post »