Canadian edition of OUR DAILY BREAD

Well, OUR DAILY BREAD is out in Canada now, and I’m delighted with the Canadian edition.  Beautiful new cover, deckle edges, French flaps.  I think Harper Collins has done a terrific job, and so far the response from readers has been good.

Which means, of course, I have to start thinking about what I’m going to write next.  Actually, I’ve just finished a new novel, a speculative look at what a day (okay, a REALLY BAD day) in the life of a woman very much like me might look like, had I not stopped drinking seventeen years ago.

Nothing has ever filled me with  gratitude more than imagining what might have happened had I not put down the booze.  Just for starters, I never would have published anything — I never wrote anything WORTH publishing when I was drinking and for the last few years of my drinking I couldn’t write anything at all.  Husband? Home? Dog? Friends? Work?  None of the good stuff would have happened.

I consider myself extremely lucky.  As many of you know, my brothers, Ronnie and Bernie, weren’t so lucky.  Both of them took their own lives as a result of addiction.  Bernie on Easter Sunday, Ronnie on Good Friday, twelve years apart.  (If you care to, you can read more about that by clicking here.)  I look back at the way they were feeling, the way they were perceiving the world and their place in it at the times of their deaths and what still rips me apart is how wrong they were, how their perceptions were faulty, and let them down.

Getting sober certainly saved my life, and writing saves my sanity.  No matter how difficult the writer’s life is (and even though I consider publishing to be a miracle and a joy, it can be pretty psychosis-inducing), I am infinitely saner when writing than not.  Just ask My Best Beloved.

The Magical Book-Fruit Tree

So, after a week or two off when I’ll read a whack of books and lie about daydreaming, making notes, playing the ‘what if’ game . . . I’ll start on something new.  I have a couple of ideas.

People often ask writers where our ideas come from.  Alas, I haven’t found a book-growing tree yet, and that little shop in Moosejaw, Saskatchewan that shipped idea to me parcel post has closed down.  Thus, I’m left with no recourse but to start paying attention to what’s bugging me.  What’s obsessing me?  What’s annoying me? What’s rolling around in my head and keeping me up nights?

Given the level of vitriolic spew on the political front these days, you’d think I’d want to write a political novel, but frankly, I haven’t the stomach for it.  Besides, I doubt anyone would believe it.  Snort.

Every book I’ve written has come from that deep place inside where an unresolved question lurks, where something nudges me, like a tiny sharp pebble in my shoe.

Lately, I’ve been surprised, and somewhat taken aback, by the number of people who are convinced OUR DAILY BREAD is about them.  Some in Toronto, some in Nova Scotia, some in New Jersey . . . and that’s just the ones I’ve heard from.  Perhaps there is something in the images of child abuse (although there is really only one such image in the book) that are so similar as to be universal.  I’m not sure. Still, it’s got me thinking about how easily we misunderstand each other, and how we are really at the mercies of our experience in the word, and the conclusions we draw as a result, which are frequently misleading.

Of course, I think that’s a theme in much of my work — how we can’t seem to get out of our own way, how we can’t step outside our own perceptions. As Anais Nin said: “We don’t see things as they are.  We see them as we are.”

So, I’m curious, have you ever had the experience of being utterly sure about something, and then discovering it wasn’t at all what you thought it was?  Had a conclusion you’d drawn about someone proved wrong?  Had a cherished belief torn to shreds? Or how about the reverse — have you ever believed something wasn’t true, only to experience something which changed your mind?  I’d love to hear from you.