In response to a nice letter from Sally Swift, I decided to let you all know what is going on with me. Believe it or not, I post this at the risk of losing my job. Yes, there are extenuating circumstances for my absence which were brought on by a post that is now deleted from my blog. Here is my letter to Sally (with additions) about what has happened:
Thank you for the warm welcome. I would LOVE to be here with you all on OS, but I have written myself into a corner. A while back I blogged a story on OS telling the tale of a day in the salon when my former hair stylist announced her wish that President Obama would be assassinated. I think you commented in the thread so you may recall the storyline?
Anyway, I foolishly talked about my broker and former office mate in the comments section in a manner that has since set up a HUGE problem for me in my office (and portions of my county). In result, I have a broker and office mate who are not speaking to me as well as two others that are "watching" my blog to make sure that I do not write anything remotely controversial...
I would LOVE to come back, love to write about the stories of people suffering through this real estate situation, but there is no easy way for me to talk about the current economic situation without a political slant. More importantly, I cannot expose customers' personal stories to the world without their permission. It is hard to tell a meaningful tale without giving details that might point to a certain customer and their private situation. A generic is not specific enough to paint a picture about the sorrows of the people all around me.
As long as I stay in that real estate office and/or live in this county, I cannot write anything on Open that would reflect my political or socio-economic biases without consequences. It is expensive to be an agent in my office, paying for all my own signs and advertising materials. After the huge investment I have made to "brand" myself there, it is cost prohibitive to have to start over in a new office just now. So I hang in, hang on, and try to stay out of trouble.
I miss everyone terribly; it is really sad for me to be away from OS. There is a sense of freedom and community here that is so often lacking in the "real" world. One of the local people's comments to me about writing here had to do with the lack of "reality" to it. Why would I bother to share stories or write my personal thoughts for all the world to read -- why not just talk my "friends"?
For me, friendship is about relationship that allows a free exchange of ideas, a sharing of feelings about things easy and hard, with a person or group of "like-minded" people that are listening to and will respond to the important details of life. For me, a friend is not just someone with whom I may cohabitate on a daily basis.
Friendship is not formed sharing tiny stories about job tasks, the weather and cute pet tricks. I write and comment on Open Salon as I feel I have found (for the most part) a cross-section of humanity with whom I can share my thoughts and feelings, my beliefs, hopes and dreams.
In return, I can expect a meaningful response. Whether the response is supportive, or presenting another point of view, I can count on the fact that a position will be taken on just about any given topic. I am tired of small and socially acceptable chit chat. Like a diet of junk food, it does nothing to nourish my brain or soul.
I did share with them, while we were still speaking, that just because we write on the internet, does not mean that some of us do not meet from time to time behind the scenes. Many of you are more "real" to me than those with whom I interact on a daily basis. Of course, certainly much more interesting and sympatico...:)
So, thank you, Sally, for taking the time to contact me. I will come over to say "hi" on your blog. I miss you and so many others. Maybe I will sneak out a post to see if the Confederate spies are still watching me. I am soooo over being boxed into a corner by good Christian people, who have turned into nothing more than right wing conservative bullies...(Oops, there I go, again, tempting the fates).
All the Best,