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Just Thinking...

Just Thinking...
Location
Oregon,
Birthday
October 04
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Most at home near water. and mountains. and family. I love drinking tea, preferably while reading an interesting book. I like learning new things, lovely art, history, children, gardening...good conversation among friends. a kind smile. a wicked grin, for that matter. feeling serene..........and road trips are fun, too. I guess that's a few interests, not really a bio...you'll have to read some posts for a glimpse there.

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MAY 19, 2012 10:53AM

A Tiny Peek at Horrors Unspoken of

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Each year when this day comes, I quietly mark it with a small smile. I don't tend to say a word, but I know. 

Today is my Freedom Day.

The day I left

fear.

So long ago, another world ago,

 18 years

today.

Escaping with my two small boys,

far, far away.

Living in the truck for months, rather than spend one more moment

afraid. 

 Our found sanctuary

remote on a mountain, 

less afraid, never as afraid again. 

Our little cabin with a view from dawn all the way until dusk, 

chopping wood, hauling water.

Singing songs with my little ones,

 the Wild singing her songs back to us. 

Today. May 19th

 marks the day

I began to love myself....

strong. 

 

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I think I will step outside for the day. I just had to write this year, but likely won't comment individually this time around. Thanks for coming by, friends, I so appreciate you all.
This is wonderful and I can relate.
"Living in the truck for months, rather than spend one more moment afraid."
I escaped too, May 1994, 5 months pregnant.
Good on you. I did something like that many years ago. Best thing I ever did.
The human spirit survives and then thrives. So beautifully and poignantly expressed.
Thank goodness for your courage that day, Just Thinking. I'm so happy you find a good path for you and your sons.
I love your bravery. Happy anniversary.
Everyone should have a Freedom day for whatever they need it for. It is so so cleansing. Mine is coming on- 7-2- and it will be 3 years since I said goodbye and no more hurting me. Press on and simply just live. Rated with a Jali smile of course. :-)
Oh joyous day and more for you. I am going to try to do the same now. Cheers and thanks!
Free at last! Enjoy your freedom day and the rest of your wonderful life free from fear. R
I'm glad you're in a safe place now. It sounds beautiful!
I bow to you on your very special day. R Duke
Happy Freedom Day... take every moment as your own.
A proud day. I'm so glad you made it out.
I too, am so proud of you. It takes enormous courage to do that.
Happy Freedom Day and may the rest of your life be peaceful.
Brava, JT. Happy anniversary.
grateful for the tags, and the fear being long gone
Just so you know.

--r--
Good on you for getting away and leaving the fear behind. I know from personal experience (and whether you're the one addicted or not) it's very difficult to escape from that world.
You're an inspiration to those who need to know it can be done. Thanks!
Just,I admire you.I will me my own Freedom Day..and if I get money..I will buy me a van too!!Rated with wishes each day to be your loving day!!Best regards!!Haρρy Freedom Day!!!
You know I understand. We escaped to freedom and that my friend is priceless.
HUGGGGGGGGGG
I hope you're writing your autobiography, or at least fictionalizing this. Powerful stuff. Triumphant. Congratulations.
Very good.. Happy Freedom Day!

Rated for escaping to just the right place..
Thanks all, I feel completely buoyed today by all of your kind words !
(runs outside again...)
Oh, bravo!!!!
What a courageous and life-defining act. In one fell swoop, you gave your kids hope and pride in their mom's spirit.
R
Congratulations, JT. You are a very strong woman. Not every woman (or man) would have had the courage to leave. You should be proud of yourself.
Welcome to the light of day.
I wish you peace.May 19th is a memorable day for me,too.

Rated
So many never summon the bravery. Happy anniversary. A profound anniversary to celebrate.
a good one to remember... and celebrate.
Good for you indeed
Congratulations and well done!
Meth is devastating!
So if your writing...devastating good!
What the hell is up with not loving ourselves ? What was that about ? ( rhetorical )
Good to see you.
Mornin'.
Well, congratulations. I am sure you boys thank you for showing courage and resilience, and teaching self reliance. Happy Anniversary to freedom!
I wish I could just tell ya how much I admire you dear.
For being the person you are...
Excellent. The meth, or really the whole drug world, is a bad place. I am so glad you, like I, was saved!
I kind of guessed you had that kind of strength, but I had no idea you had to use it so courageously, JT. You seem like a hero to me. Happy Freedom Day!

Lezlie
Mine is October 22. Yay for you!
Great courage, happy anniversary of loving you and your children enough to leave.
JT, no words need to each of us individually ... or at all ... we're just so darned glad that you were strong and that you and your children can now smile.

Much love.
Happy anniversary -- it should be a day you celebrate....
Thanks again, everyone...no words.
I would like to add that my first husband is free too, as far as being sober and not under the thrall of drugs. A long time for him too....he the first husband in "My Ex-Husband is Here -- a Saving Grace /& Redux" post awhile back.
Night all.
Sweet dreams.
I think you should mark this day loudly and with a huge grin. What a huge accomplishment and not just for you. You gave your boys a great and lasting gift - they got their mother back.
Peace - Today, Tomorrow & Tomorrow's Tomorrow! Ahhh. R
Happy Anniversary! My Freedom Day was Jan 8,1974. It wa sthe best move I ever made./r
Such inner strength...we can all draw from that, even in good times...Congratulations!
The anniversaries we celebrate for ourselves are so much nicer than the Hallmark holidays.
Good. Happy Freedom Day, now and always. ~r
Awesome! Happy anniversary!
Like Lezlie, I always knew you were strong...now we have the evidence. Keep going.
May 19th is a special day for me and your victory adds another layer to it. Congratulations; I commend you for having done what you did.
Stay strong and beautiful.
R♥
So glad that this year you decided to "write" it. It's an inspiration for so many - that it CAN be done. Congratulations
It takes courage to escape. We all have our prisons - some we get out of, others we can't no matter how we try. And then there are those we aren't even aware of.
So strong...inspiring!
~r
You're braver than I ever was.
This is so poignant. Reminds me of a good friend of mine who left an abusive marriage in Arkansas to come to Ohio and meet the love of her life. She had two small children at the time. One of the most beautiful and loving people I know.
Rated
Anna
Verse
Ary.

Love.
I am so glad you got away. Happy anniversary.
how beautiful. it made me tear up. your strength is a blessing to you and your boys. what an example you set for so many people who need to change their lives...if YOU DID IT, THEY CAN DO IT! It took guts to share this post. Good for you!!!!
That kind of bravery is rare. Almost a miracle. I'm glad it was yours!
My Freedom Day is March 10th. I never thought to mark it though. Thank you for sharing the love. Your bravery was your best gift to those children, and to you. Wow. Congratulations all over again!
Yes, yes, yes!! I am so glad you found your way out...
ok, much, much later, but thought I would swing round to see your site after your nice comment on mine. This piece here tells me you understand a lot about learning to dance again.:-)
Going to the mountain, who's with me?
My heart nearly broke reading this, what a horrible journey? How do we get in these situations in the first place? I was married only a year to a crook/con drug person, he was abusive, and it took alot of drama before it was over, but not time. I knew this was not for me, as you did. Thirty-seven yrs I have had a marvelous man, he never judges, he never raises his voice,he never laughs at me when I wear bizzare things, which I do once in a while, he thinks of me before himself. He taught me what love is supposed to be, and I am so grateful he came into my life. So happy you have that now too. You made me tear..you better make it up to me. :) Thinking of you.
I missed this. Our journey's are so similar. Mine was a woman's shelter with the clothes on my back, infant in a stroller.
A cabin and clean air sounds like it was the ticket.
Proud of you, so many stay stuck. Love.
Another year goes by....
19.
Grateful you were brave enough ...
to sing ... to love ... to find a way ...
thinking of you today ...
Hi anna1 ~
another year gone by ~ farther and farther away : )
*humming to myself, another cup of tea*
It's funny that in these 19 years, I moved across country...and back...to just the other side of this same mountain I found sanctuary on so long ago....
Feeling reflective today.
Those boys long grown.
Am I the same person...?