"The sickness rolled through me in great waves. After each wave it would fade away and leave me limp as a wet leaf and shivering all over and then I would feel it rising up in me again, and the glittering white torture chamber tiles under my feet and over my head and all four sides closed in and squeezed me to pieces." 

- Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar, Chapter 4

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Look, I love Science as does any sane savvy intellectual.

 But this is a bit beyond the pale:

Kitty litter may not be as harmless as it seems.

A parasite commonly found in cat litter boxes may heighten women’s susceptibility to suicide, according to a study published Monday in the Archives of General Psychiatry.

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Women are assaulted every day with insidious innuendos that they are not attractive enough, and that they simply must tend to their physical form: their skin, , their tummies which gotta be crunched down to an aesthetically pleasing size, their eyelashes, their hair,  their unwanted hair, their  offensive smell, fixable by  vaginal accoutrements to make their core clean & healthy .

I am glad I am not a gal, for I probably would have killed myself long ago, by 1) swimming out to sea and drowning, or 2) slitting my wrists in my warm bathwater, leaving  a  cool ‘bloodbath’   that certainly could be cleaned up nicely, leaving no mess.

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 §  The blood jet is poetry,

There is no stopping it.

§  "Kindness"

 PLATH

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There is a parasite in pussy cat’s litter ,they say. They know this from a   “study of more than 45,000 women in Denmark  (which) found that females who were infected by the parasite were one and a half times more likely to try to take their own lives than those who were not affected.”

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The parasite is T. gondii.

“We can't say with certainty that T. gondii caused the women to try to kill themselves, but we did find a predictive association between the infection and suicide attempts later in life that warrants additional studies,” Dr. Teodor Postilache, the author of the study, said in a press release.

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It is not only through cat feces that it is spread: also, unwashed vegetables  and undercooked meat.

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Hey, it is just a ‘’heads up” , ladies.

Postolache says that more research needs to be done to determine the link between suicide rates and the parasite-caused brain changes.

  The psychiatrist and suicide neuroimmunology expert at the University of Maryland School of Medicine says it is not time to start throwing out kitty litter boxes."This is a very prevalent parasite, a very successful parasite, that affects one-third of the world population," Postolache told CNN. "One-third of them are not attempting suicide."

Read more: http://www.nydailynews.com/life-style/health/kitty-litter-potentially-increase-suicide-risk-article-1.1106702#ixzz1zbcRltvn

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 Shit, I hope you don’t actually read it.

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This is my very problem with women: they are too damn clean, for the male sensibility. Always insisting upon washing hands, washing up before sex, washing your face clean of any resemblance to the fellow you fell in love with at first, who was not worried about such stuff.

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 I desire the things which will destroy me in the end...PLATH

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One of my male fantasies is to scrub & clean  and rub off my face. I hate the face I got when I go out in public. It feels like a plastic sticky mask I have to put on.

I want to scrub off this face of mine, and get down to my original face, the one the mystics say (and I believe them!) I had before I was born.

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In other relevant news:

Drinking more than two cups of coffee per day, or any other combination of caffeinated beverages, may lower your chances of developing skin cancer, a new reports says. The results included other caffeinated products such as soda, tea and chocolate.

The report in the journal Cancer Research found that caffeine potentially reduced the risk of developing basal cell carcinoma, a common form of skin cancer though generally considered less serious than melanoma.

"Our data indicate that the more caffeinated coffee you consume, the lower your risk of developing basal cell carcinoma," said Jiali Han, Ph.D

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That helps me to get up the courage to go with Big Sister to a Connecticut beach Thursday, weather permitting. I need to be among women who are not afraid to lay out all that lovely skin to Sol.

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 I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead;

I lift my lids and all is born again.