In death you face life with a child and a wife
Who sleep-walks through your dreams into walls
dylan , "no time to think"
I spent a long confusing night with Rena Oblong, alternately making sweet love and addressing emotional issues that post-coitally came to her. I think I may love her a little bit, but after what she spilled , naked in the fragrant sheets, after each physical interlude, I realized I am in for a hell of a ride.
Sometimes you don’t have a choice if to go along with the ride or not. It was getting to the point where my free will was at stake, with Rena. She’s “gotten her tentacles into you,’ as mom might say. But as a man, of course in the back of your head, you wonder: is it worth it? I was ambivalent after hearing of her past, I am ashamed to say. It made mine look like the Brady Bunch, which it most certainly was not.
I am sorry , but I feel too much loyalty to Rena (a bad sign!) to reveal how her mother made her childhood an indescribable hell. How her beloved father fell dead from a stroke,early, from her Mom’s onslaughts against his sanity . What her mother was like now. Still quite alive and well.
The whole saga is somewhat similar to my parents. Dad is suffering from dementia brought on by too much future-shock & way too much ball-busting from his wife of 50 years.Still, at 85 yrs old, he manages to maintain the office of principal of the local highschool, and keep schmoozing or threatening town leaders to keep a position he can no longer realistically hold,. not without help, which Rena and I provide, to keep his sanity intact. With administrative advice.
Rena asked me a favor then. Most unusual. She rarely asks anything of me, even in bed...i must..improvise...which, alas, grows tiring....
“After school today, jim, can you come with me to see Mom?” Rena asked,in rather a small voice for her... pulling on black stockings and a black skirt. The image of her half-clothed body made me compliant. Her black hair seemed to be hanging on her breasts , caressing them, as she efficiently clothed herself.
I was already dressed and smoking a cigarette in the armchair nearest the bed, scanning the local paper.
Shit! page 3: “High School Administration Named in Bullying Suit” . A kid had his head dunked in the toilet for wearing a tee shirt that announced ‘atheism rules!”. We’d met with the mother and the child, found them to be rather contentious---both the lawyer mother and the bratty kid----but were hopeful for a settlement of some kind.
It was an obnoxious incident. Some young scions of the richest families had done the deed. The boy dunked was a Japanese- American overachiever. No hint of a B on his scholastic record.
“I like watching you dress,” I said, full well knowing that millions of men had said this to women before me. Not many to her , though, I suspected. She smiled and stood up, in black bottom half and alabaster top half, posing with her finger to her lips, as she often did in her job, as school psychiatrist.
“ You know I dress for you, sir!” she said .
“Bullshit,” I pronounced.
“Yeah, you are right about that. If you had your way, I would dress like those little girls of ours, wouldn’t i?” She pulled on a black blouse. Not a hint of color, today.
“I encourage women to dress as they feel fit to do, and enjoy their choices,” I said
“Hm. Yeah , you probably get off on that. “ Hands on hips.
“No comment, dear girl,” I said getting up , grabbing my briefcase, handing hers to her.
She was about to say something when my phone rang.
“Mommy?” she smirked.
Shit, it was. I considered letting it go to voicemail, but mom ‘’didn’t believe in” voicemail, and criticized my manly greeting as “not like you at all!” So I answered it.
“James, where are you?” she said.
“Mom, I am at an undisclosed location,” I said, winking at Rena.
“Say hi to Mz. Oblong. I hope she enjoyed the ham last night. I tried to make it just right. But she didn’t eat much. But we had a good girl talk after. When you and your…father…were taking Joseph for a walk..She is a good catch. ‘
Mom had never said this about any girl I’d brought home, and especially any ‘woman’.
“Well, your sister is here. One of her ‘surprise visits’. With that old man, that hippy man. They arrived just a few minutes ago. They’re talking with your father now. Jim, I don’t know what on earth to feed them. They have such picky tastes!” She was in near panic mode, which meant she might soon dip into the sherry to calm down, which would be an utter disaster .
“Mom, Rena and I will pick up some stuff on our way to school, drop it off, pick up Dad, and then you and them can have a nice visit. OK?”
“thank you so much. Thank you. Don’t get those veggie burgers again, though. Remember last time? They insulted them, wouldn’t eat them! I had to give them to the dog!” In the background I could hear Dad’s booming bonhomie voice…
‘IS THAT JAMES? Please, give me the phone!”
“Here’s your father , “ she said.
China doll, alcohol, duality, mortality
Mercury rules you and destiny fools you
Like the plague, with a dangerous wink
And there's no time to think.
“Jimbo, we got a big day. The Chinese woman is coming into the office again. I want to get this thing settled. It is making me nervous. I didn’t sleep a wink last night! “
I had to hold the cell phone away from my ear. I heard mom in the background say, “oh George, don’t lie, your snoring kept me up all night!”
“What? No, don’t listen to her. It was a bad night. Then this dog of yours …he’s not right…he didn’t go on our walk this morning..i think he is sick. We may need to take him in. To the vet’s.”
Shit was hitting the fan…
Rena was laughing.
The bridge that you travel on goes to the Babylon girlWith the rose in her hairStarlight in the east and you're finally releasedYou're stranded but with nothing to share
Hugging herself on the edge of the bed, laughing almost maniacally, because I’d put the conversation on speakerphone for …support…
“I’ll see my mom alone, Jim. Don’t worry..” she managed between paroxysm of giggling
“No, dammit!” I told her.
“NO!?” Dad said. “No? No vet for the dog? Let him die? Ok. Alright. Here that Eleanor? No vet!”
It only got worse from there, the conversation….
The dog was fine. He barfed up a huge amount of ham he’d stolen from the kitchen counter, unbeknownst to the old folks. He did it under the bed.
You've murdered your vanity, buried your sanity
For pleasure you must now resist
Lovers obey you but they cannot sway you
They're not even sure you exist.