My sweaty little secret.
- Lakeland, Florida, USA
- May 26
- Running has given me a free spirit, an oppertunity to conquer new goals, and the ability to believe anything is possible one stride at a time. - Suz
- In my own life, I have had on going struggles of depression off and on throughout my life. Recently diagnosed with Dysthymic disorder (Major depression disorder ), personality disorder, and post tramatic stress disorder. I was told not to long ago to keep a journal of how I was feeling. To keep myself from a depressed state of mind. I have now started to try to reflect on my some what happy childhood.
How a volunteering at a local hospital has helped socialise with the staff, and how a special guy, with pulled back curly hair brightens my day. Without his knowing. I thank God for the oppertunity of just seeing him around.
My social skills because of the trama effected from these disorders has given me a chance to better write my feelings down then to verbaly express them.
What caused all this emotional chaos? Two words can describe it and that is "Childhood bullying!"
MY RECENT POSTS
- Back to basics
March 18, 2012 03:34PM
- Remembering Davy
March 04, 2012 06:27PM
- A Princess’s crowning
March 03, 2012 05:18PM
- Antsy pantsy Princess to be
February 23, 2012 07:32AM
- The Magic kingdom awaits!
February 12, 2012 02:18PM
MY RECENT COMMENTS
- “Bullies ruined my life,
my self esteem. So much verbal
emotional abuse from
May 20, 2012 07:37PM
- “Happy happy
March 11, 2012 03:20PM
- “Frak! What an
March 06, 2012 06:33PM
- “Thank you Jessie Lynn! I
will do it again next year
promise not to wipe
March 04, 2012 06:54PM
March 04, 2012 06:03PM
- MY LINKS
Next week Sunday marks one month ago I ran the Disney Princess half marathon. Since that day I have ran maybe twice, I believe. There are more then enough fingers in my one hand that can count the times I have not since I crossed the finish line.
Reason?… Read full post »
It has been hard me to swallow the news of the death of Davy Jones of the Monkees. Which is why I have been delayed on expressing my sad… Read full post »
"It is time for us to stand and cheer for the doer, the achiever, the one who recognizes the challenge and does something about it" ~Vince Lombardi
I arriv… Read full post »
It is finally here! Well, almost anyway. Today is packing day for my journey to the Magic kingdom. Friday I leave for Disney world early. Even though I live an hour away. My intention is to drop my bags off the hotel to get an early start at the expo. The… Read full post »
I have exactly 2 weeks until race day. Yes, that is right two weeks. This has been a upward and downward spiral of training. Some weeks and then months of dedication followed by weeks and more weeks of barely running due to extreme weather conditons or lack of energy. I have… Read full post »
I have less than 4 months to go before the Disney Princess half marathon. The last few months have been awkward with training. Not sure how to train properly with so many different programs out there. Also the fact that I walk atleast 15-20 miles a day to and… Read full post »
My middle age has krept up to me. I have the mind set of a 48 year old women. The physical well being of a 30 something. I have been told by members of both genders that I do not look my age.
I have been told I could pass… Read full post »
Psalm 139For the director of music. Of David. A psalm.
1 You have searched me, LORD,
and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are… Read full post »
Since I have been scarce and no one, okay one or two people had noticed, if at all. I have decided to move on from OS and depart. I have asked for some advice on some topics and ofcourse no one read my posts.
I have other things to worry… Read full post »
The video says it all.. Thanks Smitty!
BTW, My half marathon training is going well. I have found a much more user friendly 13.1 training program that will last 12 weeks that will greatfully comdition me when the big day arrives. In the mean time jus… Read full post »
"A woman's heart should be so hidden in God that a man has to
seek Him just to find her."
— Max Lucado
"Faith is not the belief that God will do what you want. It is
the belief that God will do what is right."
— Max Lucado… Read full post »
Since my break up with Rick, no guilty feelings here folks. I have had a newer sense of reality with my faith in God.
HE (God) has always been a apart of my life and yes there has been times where I have strayed on occasion.
When I was dating Rick,… Read full post »
My many thanks to Neil Sedaka for this ode to breaking up.
Yes ladies and gentlemen out there I broke up with the guy I was currently seeing.
In many ways, I felt I had too. Let me plead my case before you all disagree.
Yes he was a gentlemen,… Read full post »
This morning I planned on running regardless of the weather. Although we were not feeling the effects of Huricane Irene it has been a rainy weekend.
While a part of me wanted to run seven miles this morning. I am aiming to atleast do a comfortable 10.5 non stop. I… Read full post »
I ran early this morning in the heat. I left it was about 80 degrees. I was ambitious because I received an hydration pack from Rick when we met on Saturday. It is pink and black. I thanked him generously and remarked that the colors were " very girly". Rick smiled and… Read full post »
I have been running again. Not that I have completely stopped. I have a half marathon coming up in February 2012 and want to be able to conplete it.
However if you have been living outside of the US - Canandiam border and are experiencing pleasent cooler weather. Then please,… Read full post »
As a long time fan of Donny Osmond. From as far back as I can remember. I found this video on Youtube and agreed.
Little 6 year old Riley who saw his show
After all these years Donny still captures my heart. His smile, and never ending good looks. I… Read full post »
My idea of a cure for the common debt crisis?
Have all political and goverment staff members, no matter how high or low they are in the political arena. Pony up all their wages, kick backs, and other political party fund raising and give it back to the goverment. Not in the… Read full post »
I woke up this morning with the intention of running seven to ten miles. After I had a waffle at Denny's and a few energey gels I began my some what eager run.
Getting into the spirit of Cinderella, my pace seem to pick up and feel comfortable. While I… Read full post »
Hello my loyal subjects ;
Today I have officially reguistered for the 2012 Disney Princess Half Maraton!
There are no regrets and no holding back now I begin my trainining for this once in a life event for me.
Here are some highlight videos of wh… Read full post »
It's no longer sport,
No longer just a game.
...It has become a way of life.
Every breath is a stride,
Every heartbeat a string of silence.
It is a compulsion from deep within.
It is a passion for glory.
To go through the torment.
To last through the waiting.
To gain that one… Read full post »
IN LOVING MEMORY OF CAYLEE ANTHONY, for whom there came NO JUSTICE in this life. God will decide, and God will love her
Casey Anthony found not guilty on first degree murder charges
Casey Anthony has been found not guilty on first-degree murde… Read full post »
Since I am not much of a writer here and don't have much of a following to become one either, I have decided to move about the land of OS.
I have tried to be a creative writer, or just a writer in general. I have failed. With an overload… Read full post »
This is a photo album from my married life .
My ultimate American family. Ah, memories.....Sweet!
Yes, this was the life my ex and I lead. He saved everything, and I mean everything!
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