I'M BACK!  ...........

Been gone for a few months.  I have tried doing that thing called life for the last three months.  I have also been very busy failing in school.  It seems that no matter how hard I studied the anatomy and physiology, I couldn't get the answers right.  I… Read full post »

Dinner is almost ready.  I have been trying and succeeding at exercise this week.  My metabolism is intact.  I give it a little push.  The damned pounds begin to fall right off.  My girlfriend hates me.  She was compensated with brilliance.  I was compensated with b… Read full post »

Dinner is almost ready.  I have been trying and succeeding at exercise this week.  My metabolism is intact.  I give it a little push.  The damned pounds begin to fall right off.  My girlfriend hates me.  She was compensated with brilliance.  I was compensated with b… Read full post »

I began exercising four days ago.  I haven't exercised for a long time.  I didn't know that I got old.  My body is not moving to the beat of the time set by the lithe young thing on the the dvd.  My legs, back, and arms are killing me.  I am… Read full post »

I turned 39 last Wednesday.  I am newly single and beginning to feel like poison.  Before now, I tended to attract older men.  That was fine.  But now I am hounded by very young men and older married men.  I am not a cougar.  Well, I did have a short fling… Read full post »

I sat in my car this afternoon, staring at the lake. I thought of you.  I miss the feel of your arms around me.  I have been alone so long.  My independence doesn’t mean a thing without you.  If I didn’t remember the smell of you, I would never know what… Read full post »

I ask myself what is wrong with the people in power.  Are they so far gone that they believe themselves invincible?  I believe so.

A little girl was born.  A DNA test was ordered.  Senator John Edwards directed his aide Andrew Young to get the doctor to fake the DNA… Read full post »

It's my 39th birthday.  I am twenty pounds overweight.  I decided to take action.

I just streamed Crunch:Cardio Salso off Netflix.  I love salsa.  Maybe that would get my but moving.  But after ten minutes.  I can hardly move.  I haven't done aerobics for a long ti… Read full post »

It was frigid that day on

The beach when I was

Ready, finally, after many

These years of searching

Myself for what I truly desired.

Being honest about

Intentions is not in vogue,

Nor is it the way we are

Taught to… Read full post »

I have the biggest crush on Vincent D'onofrio's character Robert Goren as featured on Law & Order: Criminal Intent.  I spied an episode on late-night television a few weeks ago, I was hooked.  I spent the next four days streaming every episode on Netflix. 

I watched his character… Read full post »

I was awakened by a phone call from the past today.  An old lover thought that I would want to hear from him after two years of silence. 

We had the kind of chemistry I have never experienced with another person.  We could be in the same room together and… Read full post »

You have to make a decision, the doctor said.

Her lungs are flooding like a river.

She will be in pain or we can make her comfortable

Once you make a decision, we will give her

Morphine (what they didn't say was "copious

Amounts… Read full post »

I am trying to make it through this weekend with my sanity intact.

Being alone is beginning to really suck.   Read full post »

It appears I have been taken to task by a few of my readers.  I have been told by more than one person in my life that I should not been so concerned witht the suffering of others. 

The fact is that I am unable to stop caring about people… Read full post »

Hurricanes hit Haiti.  The poor die from floods.  The death squads kill the poor on a regular basis.  It is known that the government of Haiti is thoroughly corrupt.  While the poor try to survive, the rich live on their hills with armed guards and the finest food.  I don't t… Read full post »

It’s been 11 years since she passed.  This is the first calendar year where all the events that unfolded those few weeks fall on the exact days they did then.  Time has eased the pain.  The passing of the years has dulled the excruciating process as it unfolded in an endless… Read full post »

The act of forgiveness is akin to the divine.  Forgiveness of others is useless unless we can forgive ourselves.  Words can do nothing to repair damage done.  It can only offer salve to the person who offers it.  If it is truly felt, we feel compelled to relieve the person of… Read full post »

I love you so much honey.

 The smell of your skin drives my senses crazy.

I was so nervous the first time we

Attempted to make love.

I never knew anyone who

I felt so comfortable with.

When we… Read full post »

I wonder if I have shut off my emotions so much that I can't feel anything anymore.  I have been trying to dredge some feeling for the process that I am going through right now.  I am endeavoring to chronicle the last days of my mother's life eleven years ago.  My… Read full post »

I headed down I-75 South praying that the traffic would not be brutal.  Eight lanes of traffic squeeze into four causing lakes of shining roofs floating slowing even at the best of times.  I was in no hurry to get to the hospital from some reason.  But I made it there… Read full post »

The arctic wind has blown in to steal our warmth

In it's place is a solid field of glowing white snow.

The tinkling of laughter from my son serves

As a tonic to warm my heart.

Joy can be found even at 18 degrees

When my cherry-cheeked child draws

Me into… Read full post »

The inspiration comes and goes. 

The chemistry designed to keep me 

From going over the edge

Steal my muse. 

It's good to free of daymares,

Lovely to be able to sleep

I thought that it would be safe

To start listening to my music

Again. 

The music comes in a Worn… Read full post »

Ping pong, ping pong

Around my brain it goes,

Torture scrapes and tears

And strikes its fear

And wreaks insanity ho ho!

How long can it go,

How deep will it flow

Before the bubble blows?

I run to… Read full post »

Thanksgiving, 1998

My mother hugs me tightly.  She begs me in her own way, not to leave.  She is lovely.  The bulk of her body is quietly surprising.  She had gained wait since the last time I saw her.

I pulled away from her.  For the first time in… Read full post »

Time augments my resolve.

I bless every moment tick, tick, ticking by.

What began as a fissure along the length of the diseased mass

The malaise drifts persistently back towards its home

While my will keeps it bay.

It finds no solace there in the void

For it breeds on the… Read full post »