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Erica K

Erica K
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Grew up in Jackson Heights, New York, but now live in Jersey. Married and the proud owner (servant?) of 4 cats, including a little blind guy named Quincy. Jobs have included: English teacher in U.S. and abroad, cabaret performer and member of a NYC sketch comedy troupe; now a full-time legal secretary and freelance writer. Other jobs: canvasser for NYPIRG/cannery worker in Naknek, Alaska (a fisherman told me it was "the ugliest part of Alaska")/dog kennel cleaner/member of the swine and poultry crew on a California farm. Currently performing my solo show, "The Year of Dead Cats," at Stage Left Studio in NYC. http://stageleftstudio.net/ "Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try again. Fail again. Fail better." Samuel Beckett

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Salon.com
Editor’s Pick
APRIL 12, 2011 8:52PM

The Fair Hearing

Rate: 11 Flag

Welcome to the Office of Temporary and Disability Assistance (OTDA), 16th Floor, 14 Boerum Place, Brooklyn, New York.

Signs that greet you:

“No Fumar
Beber,
Silencio
Por Favor
Audencias en Progreso

Quiet Please!
No Cell Phones Permitted
Surveillance by Closed Circuit TV in Use”

Welcome to pale blue linoleum and gray-blue walls and fluorescent lights that turn everyone’s skin gray.  It reminded me of Joe Versus the Volcano with Tom Hanks and Dan Hedaya.  Hanks played an office slug, and Hedaya, his boss, working in a dingy basement office. 

One of Hanks’ premier lines was, “You look terrible, Mr. Waturi. You look like a bag of shit stuffed in a cheap suit. Not that anyone could look good under these zombie lights. I, I, I, I can feel them sucking the juice out of my eyeball.”

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Hedaya and Hanks in Joe Versus the Volcano

That’s what it felt like at the OTDA this morning.  I was there as my mother’s representative, to contest the possible termination of her Medicaid benefits since she had not recertified in November.  An outdated bluish print of the New York skyline including the World Trade Center adorned the otherwise naked wall in front of the kindly older man at the podium who greeted all that entered.

I presented the Notice of Fair Hearing to one of the receptionists and presented my ID.  I asked her where I should sit and she pointed sullenly to the far end of the room where the sign “CHILD AREA” was posted.  The populace-in-waiting was mostly quiet and subdued, but a few were disgruntled. 

A young woman walked out of one of three doors that led to the hearing rooms, and said, “They dismissed me.  I heard this isn’t the first time they done this today.  They owe me $202.”  She was not pleased, and I started to feel nervous about my fate behind my particular door.

An announcement was made that those who came to the hearing alone (without friends or relatives) could line up to receive carfare at the carfare window:  a MetroCard worth $4.50.  Those who were accompanied were to receive their carfare after their respective hearing.  Not sure why they did this, but my husband didn't want carfare, so I lined up for mine. 

The woman in front of me was ecstatic, bouncing around, saying, “I won, I won.  But they give me no paper, I wanted a paper.”  She smiled wide and went on, “I’m gonna be like Forrest Gump when I get outta here, it’s a good day.  God is with me.  Now all I need is a job and an apartment.”  When she went up for her MetroCard, she said to the woman at the glass window, “I won, but they didn’t give me a paper, can you give me one?”  The carfare woman said she would be receiving a letter by mail.  “Oh, but I want it today,” she said.

When my mother’s name was called from the opposite end of the room I shouted, “I’m coming” and my husband and I moved quickly across the floor.  Judge Quan escorted us into an office.  We sat us across from a clerk or other official person and a witness at a long table perpendicular to Judge Quan’s desk; she gestured that I should sit closest to her.  I handed the judge a letter signed by my mother stating that I was authorized to act as her representative and examine her case file.  The judge and the clerk presented their case, after which the judge said I could present mine.  I explained that mom did not recertify because she has Alzheimer’s disease and used to ignore and/or throw out her mail until I rectified the situation.  They asked how I did that and I explained that now I receive most of her mail and that she never goes downstairs to check her mail anymore so I do it for her.  I also told the judge that mom doesn’t read anymore so even if she hadn’t thrown out the paperwork she would not have understood what it was. 

I told Judge Quan and the clerk that I had evidence to support her illness and presented them with a Certification of Health Care Provider for Family Member’s Serious Health Condition (FMLA) that was completed by her neurologist.  I am the recipient of unpaid family leave time but all the information on the form related to mother’s illness.  The judge announced that the certification would be filed as “Appendix 1” and the letter signed by mom as “Appendix 2” and the clerk noted that on each document.  The judge instructed me to bring the two documents to the receptionist to copy for her, and said the judgment would be sent by mail.

Were we behind door number one, door number two or door number three?  Whatever door it was, I think it was a lucky one.  Nobody told me I won like the lady on line, but it felt like a Forrest Gump day for me too.

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Tom Hanks in  Joe Versus the Volcano

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I can feel those lights too. The system is set up to demoralize people, discourage questions and keep us under the giant thumb. I hope with all my heart Medicaid is approved for mom.
Thanks, Nancy. xox
"I shouted, “I’m coming” and my husband and I moved quickly across the floor" You were not alone, so then what does this mean:
"An announcement was made that those who were alone could line up to receive carfare at the carfare window: a MetroCard worth $4.50. I lined up for mine. " But other than that, this made for a good read, almost like a page out of an American novel written in the first person. Liked the details. Also, I could see the place thanks to your writing, even that lady marking your docs Appendix 1 and Appendix2.My best read on OS so far this morning. R~
You're right, it doesn't make sense, I actually edited that part just now. Thanks for noticing. Sometimes I think I assume people are inside my head as I'm writing. Thanks for reading.
Best, Erica
sixteen tons, and WHADDAYA GET?
It helped that you were prepared, articulate, and polite. that goes a big long way. Good luck in the judgment.
Hopefully she can be moved off Medicaid and onto full Medicare disability status.
Dianaani, I take it you saw the film? Isn't it the best? Thanks.
Noah, I'm not familiar with full Medicare disability. She has both Medicaid and Medicare. Receiving assistance through Medicaid (esp. home health care) has been a long, hard slog and continues to be so.
Best, Erica
Well, congrats, I guess and good luck. These procedures are usually done according to a code only the government workers understand. I enjoyed this read. Well done. R
This is a fine piece, and riled me no end, as far as the hacks and layers of "administrators" who (try) to administrate our lives. But as an old Op-Ed columnist, I suggest you add a clear and concise dose of righteous indignation, and pose some likewise righteously indignant questions. YOU and your mother played by the rules, paid your taxes, and your Mother is treated like a cipher. Meanwhile, in a hospital within walking distance an illegal resident is at this moment giving birth to a child who YOU and your mother will likely help raise through your tax dollars. That's (part) of the injustice here. You and your mother deserve respect from the hacks YOUR tax dollars fund. Show more (justifiable) outrage, and you've got a piece that should run in any newspaper in the land. You've been steamrolled by people whose paychecks are cut with your tax dollars; steamroll back.
Bureaucracy will remain a foreign language in any tongue. I wish you well with in your journey taking care of your mom.
♥R
You slog through the red tape so gracefully. Your mother is lucky to have you.
A Harvard law graduate could not have done it any better, I don't think. Sorry to hear about the lighting though. Bad lighting is indeed a bummer.
Oh, damnit, I get so caught up in the content that I neglect to mention the form. You are writing up this saga in installments very skillfully. This installment was also a great stand-alone piece. I very much agree with the decision to make it an Editor's Pick and was happy to see that.
Thanks, Brassawe. It helps to have worked in law firms for the past-egad--17 years. Best, Erica