Age 28 August Tallahassee, Florida OR If I had paid attention I learned everything I needed to know about sex and men in one day.  I did not pay attention.

I am in existential hell and being punished.

Outside the air is muggy and miserable… Read full post »

For several years I wrote for OS every day as a writing exercise.  Life got in the way in a happy way so I stopped.  I need to write again but can't ever go every day again.

I am just going to start with today and try for a few times… Read full post »

Savannah

August 2007

I am on my way home down I-95 to Orlando from the rural north of Charleston where I visited a friend  who tries so hard but is so terribly conservative and ex-military and we just are not meshing. His elderly dog stays on the… Read full post »

I have taught online for several years  for a university where many students have been military learners. I am not from a military family or background. Recently I took a faculty training class where I learned 55% of  the students are military learners.

 My only… Read full post »

Here is a mop.

Here is a broom.

Get off your ass

and clean that room.

My mama says

you do not try

so you can… Read full post »

The most evil dictators/those hungry for power in the world do not directly attack their enemies.

Instead they go after the family and friends of those enemies so

 #1 the enemy has to watch them suffer for an involuntary (family) connection or a voluntary (friend,lover) connection and then… Read full post »

Mr. Grayson,

Part #1: Introduction

I will begin this by telling you why my opinion is not one that should matter to you.

Shortly after Congress voted in some manner on going to war in Iraq or to do some warlike activity in 2001 I was… Read full post »

Reposting from several months ago.  It was bad poetry then and remains that.  I wish that it was not based on truth.

After 30 years of intimacy

not always

but often enough

late at night

in the dark

during the after talk

they tell me.

"My uncle"

"My cousin"

"My coach"… Read full post »

There is Hollywood and then there is the book before Hollywood gave it a treatment.

My maternal grandmother in Omaha, Nebraska lived in a big house with a basement, an attic, and a dining room on which she hung commemorative plates from travels to tourist meccas. … Read full post »

Art is not fast food.  Art is slow food that takes a long time in the kitchen to prepare.  Art is a meal savored at the table along with bread, butter, and fine wine. 

I am accustomed to fast food. 

Only now after having slow food do… Read full post »

A facebook/OS friend was joining the Hilary Rosen discussion about whether Ann Romney ever worked and if motherhood is a career choice.  I was not aware of the controversy and just thought that my friend had lost her mind when she asked if mothers work.

 This question is akin to those… Read full post »

The Savannah August 2007 was originally posted on Open Salon when I first began blogging in 2008. 

Savannah August 2007

I am on my way home down I-95 to Orlando from the rural north of Charleston where I visited a friend  who tries so hard but is so/… Read full post »

I have supportive and loving workplace mentors.  This is not about them.

This is to my bully.

 Back off.  Leave me alone. . . . This is who you are.

From http://www.kickbully.com/hidden.html

A bully misleads people by omitting significant information that… Read full post »

It has taken me a long time to learn how to avoid putting up with abusive people in my life.  I am happy.  I have work I like and am paid to do.  I have wonderful children.  I have many loving friends.  I am learning at 50 what I should have… Read full post »

First posted in 2008.

I was a Toddler Delinquent

My younger sister was born when I was two. She had a heart condition requiring frequent at home doctor visits and her care became paramount to my mother. We lived in Batesville, Arkansas where my father was the assistant prosecuting attorney.… Read full post »

I posted the following blog on December 7, 2010 at 6:26 a.m. detailing what I wanted for Christmas from the universe.

Thank you universe.  It took  364 days but you gave me all five.  I am thankful.

.......................................................................................… Read full post »

My boyfriend does not really like to take me to movies.   He does live on hope and takes me anyway hoping that someday I will learn the concept of suspending disbelief and just have a good time being entertained.

So far this is not happening.

 I cry during the sad… Read full post »

I was determined to get my youngest to school on time this morning.  So determined we made it to school an hour early.  I had not intended to get out of the car and was wearing bath slippers made of soft, fuzzy, blue shag carpet.  My youngest wanted breakfast.  We went/… Read full post »

I had been drifting towards atheism since 2007 after a year in the hospital for cancer treatment.  Barbara Ehrenreich explains her similar exasperation with the “have faith and think positive” proponents who would invade my chemotherapy treatment room every Friday for a year d… Read full post »

After 30 years of intimacy

not always

but often enough

late at night

in the dark

during the after talk

they tell me.

"My uncle"

"My cousin"

"My coach"

"My frat big brother"

"My sister’s boyfriend"

Always someone they knew.

Forget stranger danger.

Then their voices chan… Read full post »

I will be 50 in May.

I just figured something out and yeah time stood still . . .

I had been working on classes on the computer so handsome companion was out shopping until mid-Sunday.  I made sure to finish before I heard him come home announced by an/… Read full post »

When I told you I did not like your condescending manner towards me

You said "condescending" was never used as an adjective.

Like a priest in worship of the madonna you have engraved upon your heart and mind a litany of my sins.

Like a priest every sin I committed you… Read full post »

This past weekend I spent a day with a friend in Washington D.C. among the memorials as he described "doing all the dead presidents and wars." At every memorial the words of Wilfred Owen were in my head, "The old Lie; Dulce et Decorum est /Pro patria mori." The… Read full post »

Read this poem by Frank Messina and more of his poems if you want to follow the link.

We are not just the good guys.  We ain't wearing white hats.  Messina makes that clear.

http://www.spokeface.com/disorderlyconduct.htm

Disorderly Conduct

To the people of the world

You’re al… Read full post »