Maybe Kansas City will be more appreciative of the fact that I don't go 'Bricking niggers' than Lawrence will.  I thought this way as I left Lawrence for Pitt State in 1988 and left for Albuquerque in 1994.  I thought another community might appreciate a hard working intelligent young man wanting to explore life (but have control of his exploration).  

I guess the concept that I have never 'Bricked a nigger' doesn't seem to come across full force the way it ought to the unappreciative people of Lawrence Kansas as they have to continually harass me about things with their rudeness and displays of power over my situation.  I was not appreciated at the Douglas County Senior Service Center in 1993 when I volunteered.  I maybe should have reached out to Carolyn the lady with the oxygen tank more.  She was a sweet old woman that might have could have used some help around the house, me being a fit 22 year old man.   All I was looking for was someone with age and wisdom in life and maybe some resources as well as experience painting which is what I started by going to the painting club at the Senior center.

Being yelled at enough for being considered a faggot all throughout junior high; I pretty much learned to respect 'faggots' for being targets of hatred.  I personally am not gay.  I was accused of being gay for a good 15 years of my life on and off by various people.  I just thought it showed their intolerance of people that are different from them and practice different ways, but I guess there is an extreme they will go to.  

So in essence to the people 'in the know' in Lawrence I am an arayan faggot.  I guess that is just how gossip works.  Doesn't make much sense to me.  I am of the understanding that most arayans have guns of which I don't have any and have never purchased a gun.

 My girlfriend told me that Kansas city at one point had a black musician killed by a 'bricking'.  so maybe instead of complaining about me who neither 'bricks niggers' or 'rolls fags' they can appreciate that.  The blacks in Lawrence have it so bad they need to complain about little ol' me who didn't want to play with some ruffians who stole my bike and taught my sister nasty words and concepts pulled my pants down made fun of my underwear and told me I would never have sex.  Too bad for all of you.   And fuck you while I am at it.

So hopefully Kansas city will be more receptive to someone that minds their own business as Lawrence can't seem to pull it's head out of it's ass and realize what it has.  There is no room to complain until they are given something to really complain about but some people will complain at every opportunity not appreciating what they have instead.