So here we are. They want me to have my black person. I don't seem to be anything on my own. I can't wait to have my stupid sidekick. A Laurel and Hardy couple. Beavis and Butthead. Me and my black man.
Jerry Hunter just wanted to watch TV. I just wanted to paint, draw and play guitar. I think what I did in the place was a bit more marketable as a talent to get a scholarship or find work, no?
Well my perspective is they should have thought of that much earlier in my life like when I was trying to form a rock group in junior high. Carlton Shepard-Brown now hangs out at Salvation Army(is that right?) had his chance in junior high as we sat in Ms. Black's civics/ common learnings class. I asked him if he wanted to form a band. He laughed at me. Now Stan's organ stands fine and unscathed in St. Luke's AME church at 9th and New Jersey and when I was homeless all Carlton's grandfather could do was laugh at me. Am I that worthless to them then?
So at 24 I went home to my parents house.
Why should I take them along either then. I don't need to be coupled off I needed a job and real friends and since I can't find friends because of them and I can't make friends out of any of them then why concern myself with them?
Meanwhile John Tubbs was the retarded black from Cottonwood that acted like a monkey while I was playing third base.
that is the act they chose.
Then Tyrone Duckworth was the black that had to show me all the girls he could pimp out.
I think I will study music and do my own thing and don't any of you ask to be involved in my life. I study music. Sorry if you don't. It is what I spend my time doing; if you don't like it. Leave me alone.
so that's that.
Carlton Shepard-Brown missed out on 25 years of us making music together and that is where they lost then. They chose.
I mean here let me reinterate this....
They chose and it was all their choices that got us here.