It is the afternoon of my second day in Recovery and I feel clear headed and thinner.I know rationally that I probably haven't lost any weight in a day,but it is amazing how my brain wants me to feel success and feel like I have.
I have looked up my Weight Watchers points and calculated what I need to eat today to stay on track.My food is healthy,turkey burgers,no flour bun,salads organic apples.fiber one cereal soy milk,carrots ,v8.yogurt with flax seed,fish oil ,vitamins and minerals and filtered water.I feel healthier today then I have in months. All in the course of 24 hours.Amazing.
My challange is I'm going to a bookclub tonight ,where there will no doubt be sugar and unhealthy snacks.My goal is to eat at home so I avoid any decision making.Then I'll eat veggies there if I get hungry.Im going to bring a v8 and a Fresca as well.
I am going to go read my 12 step literature now for a half an hour and remember that I am a food addict and I need to pay attention to my literature ,writing and tools of recovery.
I just need to get through this day and start over again tomorrow.I am drinking water now but feel resistant to it .My cravings have been lifted from me completely.It is a miracle when that happens.My body and soul can breathe and engage in life more,because I'm not thinking about food most of the day .
I am packing up my small clothes that don't fit me any more tomorrow so I don't have to be depressed by the fact I can't fit in them.When I get to my goal weight..and I will...I will have a whole wardrobe again.For now I have a few things I wear and bought in a larger size and I like them.It will be important to have clothes I like on my weight loss and spiritual journey,that I feel comfortable in .
Life is good today.I have a long way until bedtime ,so I will stay vigilant and present .
One Day At A Time .