It has been a week of getting back in recovery mode and remembering I am a food addict and there are certain things I have to attend to.
I have been to five 12 Step meetings this past week and rejoined Weight Watchers to use as my food plan. I have had no real willingness to stay on track and put forth effort towards recovering from my food addiction.
I have gained almost 30 pounds and feel so uncomfortable in my body.But I have to start somewhere and somehow here I am again back at Day One .It feels good .I have eaten roasted chicken beans and rice ,a grapefruit ,and a protein shake.Now I am having a small glass of wine and i'm feeling like I did what I set out to ...I didn't have white four or sugar.Tomorrow i'll count those damn points because it puts boundaries on my eating which i desperately need. I have been eating constantly for months it seems ,and my body and spirit are ready for a well deserved break.
One freakin day at a time is how i'm going to do it .I am so grateful for this day ,and happy I made it through .