I have heard and read posts and magazines etc. about the death of Amy Winehouse  and disagree with most of them .It seems there is a general consenses that this tragedy could have been avoided and she  should not have said no no no to rehab.

Here is the deal .Addicts… Read full post »

I recently saw a Dr.Oz show that really hit home for me . He was saying that they had done studies on patients needing transplants ,patients with cancer,and patients on hospice. They asked them to put a monetary value on a healthy body if they could have one .To some it… Read full post »

A friend of mine is going through a major tragedy.Her boyfriend just had a heart attack.He was only 58 years old. Now there are additional serious complications  and the outcome is uncertain.

Some of my friends have dedicated our abstinance to her .For me that means no flour and sugar. There… Read full post »

I have woken up with a fairly happy heart the last few days .I'm trying to remember what is important .I haven't had much  (any) willingness to plan my food ,for the past few days ,but I have made baby steps in that direction.

It is peace of mind that hides… Read full post »

Whenever I have not done well with eating ,there are always other things that I have given too much attention to that didn't furthur my recovery.Too much time spent on things that weren't that important,letting other peoples issues take too much emotional toll on me.Today I give it all up and… Read full post »

I vow to make this week all about the greens.I can't think of how many times I have gone a day ..or month ..without eating anything green.Not that I don't love greens .Sometimes I just forget about them.

My goal this week is to have green with every meal. I will… Read full post »

Seems this has been a summer of starting over most days.I have not been putting the effort into my program that I should be.I can't really figure out why either.I could say that the reason most people don't do something is it just isn't that important to them.If it was they… Read full post »

I always try and remember that there is hope even in my moments of thinking I never will never  be free from the tryanny of addictive eating .I know so clearly that i'm addicted to flour and sugar so why do I still have the delusion that I can eat them… Read full post »

I am in Food Hell and needing to get out .I don't know how I got from a good place to here.Sometimes it just happens.When I look at my last post,I wonder about all the days in between that have been a blur.

I have had lots of stressors going on… Read full post »

Since my last post I have had a hard time getting my food under control.But for the past six days it has been nothing but hard core healthy eating.My only downfall has been not enough (sometimes none ) veggies.Thats why I always try to stay stocked with v8.

My body has… Read full post »

I am on my way to the store to buy healthy food .I have had a friend in the hospital and have essentially eaten what and when I wanted for the past week.Funny thing is much of it wasn't cravings ,just plain old defiance. My friend lost nine pounds during her … Read full post »

Here I am again.Day two . Yesterday I didn't have any sugar and consider that a great accomplishment.I had a flour tortilla and  thats all the flour I had .

It was a day free of cravings and zero food thoughts.That is a miracle .There is no other explanation  for it.Usually… Read full post »

I just read my last blog.It was shouting out with joy that I had five weeks of glorious recovery.Now it is nearly the same amount of time since I started relapsing.It was little things at first .I stopped eating as many vegetables.That is ususlly my first sign.Sonetimes my body drives through… Read full post »

SOMETIMES I AMAZE MYSELF.I REALLY DO.A DAY PASSES AND I WAKE UP THE NEXT MORNING AND I AM NOT THINKING ABOUT FOOD WHEN I WAKE UP.I'M NOT FEELING BLOATED OR FULL OF SELF LOATHING AFTER ANOTHER NIGHT OF BINGING .

I WAKE UP AND LOOK FORWARD TO A DAY WITH HEALTHY… Read full post »

IT IS DAY NINETEEN AND I HAVE LOST TEN POUNDS.THAT TEN POUNDS WAS THE RESULT OF A HORRIBLE OUT OF CONTROL BINGE THAT LASTED ABOUT TWO OR THREE WEEKS.PRETTY MUCH I ATE NON STOP,HUGE QUANTITIES OF SUGAR AND FLOUR.I AM SO GRATEFUL TO LOSE THOSE POUNDS AND THE MEMORIES ASSOCIATED WITH… Read full post »

 I am going to a dinner in two weeks. One of  those seminars where you listen to a presentation about money managment and get a free dinner .Only this is a free dinner at one of the best city restaurants.Along with the free dinner comes a free dessert.

I have been… Read full post »

I FEEL LIKE A  WARRIOR PRINCESS.EVERYDAY I THINK ABOUT WHAT WOULD BE THE BEST THING TO PUT IN MY BODY,HOW MUCH PROTEIN AND CARBS, FRUIT AND VEGGIES I SHOULD EAT .

THE VEGGIES ARE THE HARDEST.I STILL NEED TO AMP THEM UP.WHEN I DO, I FEEL MORE ENERGYAND MORE IN TUNE… Read full post »

 My body has become accostomed to natural fruit sugars.Tha amazing thing to me is that the more fruit I eat, even the faintest thought of sugar is pushed back so far in my mind,that if it is calling to me I can't hear it.

Last night I did a little bit… Read full post »

It seems the week has gotten away from me and now day seven in recovery! Yay for me! One week with no sugar or white flour or processed foods. I lost  four and a half pounds this week with very little effort and virtually no hunger.

I think it is all… Read full post »

These past four days have felt so much different then I have ever experienced in recovery in the past.I have remembered that if my eating is healthy and clean then I can actually enjoy the day and the moments.Food can occupy my mind so completely at times .How to get it… Read full post »

I can't believe how good real food is.Whole grains(just a few)soymilk, berries ,Pink Lady apples,turkey burgers ,acorn squash,tlapia ,spinach,sundried tomatoes.

I haven't had real food in a long time and my body is so happy,My spirit is lighter and I look forward to hydrating and feeding my body well… Read full post »

It is the afternoon of my second day in Recovery and I feel clear headed and  thinner.I know rationally that I probably haven't lost any weight in a day,but it is amazing how my brain wants me to feel success and feel like I have.

I have looked up my  Weight… Read full post »

It has been a week of getting back in recovery mode and remembering I am a food addict and there are certain things I have to attend to.

I have been to five 12 Step meetings this past week and rejoined Weight Watchers to use as my food plan. I have… Read full post »

MY COMPUTER HAS BEEN DEAD THIS WEEK JUST GOT IT FIXED.

QUICK CATCH UP THEN BED .IT IS MIDNIGHT HERE.IT ISSO HELPFUL TO BLOG TO SEE MY PATTERNS ,AND LEARN MORE ABOUT MYSELF ,AND HOW  I CAN IMPROVE MY EATING .

IT HAS BEEN UP AND DOWN BUT MOSTLY PRETTY GOOD… Read full post »

HERE I AM ON MY THIRTY FIFTH DAY AND MOST OF THE PAST FIVE DAYS HAS BEEN SPENT IN  FOOD HELL.IT STARTED WITH A SWEET SALTY CRAVING ,AS IN THOSE HORRIBLE FLIPS FROM THE DEVIL.THE WHITE CHOCOLATE COATED PRETZELS.

I WAS WATCHING THE TELEVISION SHOW ,THE BIGGEST LOSER,THIS WEEK AND THE… Read full post »