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Artist, former newspaper columnist and restaurant critic. Award-winning author of "In Pursuit of Excellence". In my spare minute I can be found blogging here, on Huffington Post and other places that don't pay and (more often) writing for some places that do. Occasionally I tweet random thoughts and observations as @nonconfromist. I keep the really good ones to myself.

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DECEMBER 15, 2010 7:37PM

Living Your Life on Purpose

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Have you ever wondered what your real purpose is as a human being?  Have you ever questioned the direction of your life or whether or not you have found your true calling?  Have you abruptly surrendered one pursuit to pursue another with complete abandon?  Have you come face to face with that elusive moment where suddenly, beyond a shadow of a doubt, nothing else you have ever done mattered and found yourself instead understanding the meaning of your existence?

I thought I had, until now.

I’ve watched this video at least 20 times since Monday and each time, I cry.  I marvel at this man’s fortitude, commitment, perseverance, love, generosity, kindness and spirit.  I sit here with tears steaming down my face and a swelling in my heart, not because of how inspiring an individual Narayana Krishnan is, but because I recognize how far I must travel to become this kind of an extraordinary human being who knows that he can and must do what few will.

I want to evolve into this person who digs deeper and goes from seeing a video and feeling the impact to recognizing that there is nothing more important, more worthy or noble than to be of service to mankind.  I aspire to be able to leave a little bit of humanity better off than when I arrived.

And then, I want to find the courage, strength and determination not only to figure out how I can go about accomplishing this, but to embrace the fact that not doing it is not an option.  

Not anymore.  Not for me.

Haunted by my own ineptitude, I am left to question more than my purpose in life and how I've conducted it thus far.  I now open my heart and mind to the concept of living my life with purpose instead of just on purpose. 

It is one thing to be moved.  It is another to be moved to action.  The distance between my desire and this man’s determination to make a difference is vast. It leaves me speechless.

I am left searching my soul.

I have a very long way to go to becoming a better person.

 
I want to honor and thank Mr. Narayana Krishnan for giving me this gift by teaching me this lesson.  Feel free to share it and pass it on.

We’re all in this thing together.

 

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I'm glad you have shared this, and that I came here.
I was struck, especially, by the utter disparity between this man and the hyper-rich Brahmin of our own country. Can you imagine for a moment what would happen if our millionaires and billionaires gave their "tax break" and their time to our poor?
I try with my students to reach out to those who need love or help or just a shoulder. But I have been absorbed with my own life lately, time to let that go and move on forward back to why I was put here as a lunchlady. Incredibly moving video.
a friend sent me this too. he is wonderful. and he isn't doing anything the rest of us couldn't figure out how to do in our own unique ways. if we all reached out to people around us, we could take care of each other. the continued downturn in the economy may demand just that.
It's so simple, and easy--it really is--he shows us that. Thank you.
it's so much easier to say than to do, caught up in the often superfluous details of our lives. and i know i, too, have a long way to go and appreciate being reminded that i need to try harder. thank you for this, patricia.
Start with one person and share love and pass it on.
It is not about what we have or who we know. I learned that years ago. Had it all , gave it away and regained what I was forgetting. That we are one and the same.
"It is one thing to be moved. It is another to be moved to action."
Yes.
You are a good person already, cartouche.~r
Inspiring. He has such kind eyes.
I love the part where he says "food is one thing, love is another". That just says it all.
Ok, you got me, I'm crying.
I'll be curious to see what you do to emulate Mr. Krishnan. Keep us posted.
I could use a shave and a bath if you need practice.



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This also moved me. I think we each can do something, using our time and talent to make something or someone better. Linda has it, while in the place of our lives we can do many things that will change the world with one person, one day at a time. What is your capacity, only you know. I have seen many miracles. Many.
Mr. Narayana is amazing. His journey--life affirming.
If I attempted to walk in his golden shoes, I'd make it about a block, twist my ankle and limp into the closest watering hole.
I'll sleep content that my special purpose was grilled deep within years back by some Jerk.
I watched the Heroes show with my boys. Of all the Heroes, they could understand clearly what he was doing to help other people.
Thankfully, altrusim is not dead.
He sounds like a thoroughly decent guy Cartouche. Fortunately he isn't unique. When I was working for a politician I had my eyes opened to the enormous number of not-for-profit social agencies whose basic goals are to help the less fortunate. Mpst of these organizations rely on volunteers and underpaid staff and it's quite inspiring to get to know some.

With your talents as a writer and in the kitchen, there are undoubtedly several organizations who could use your help, if that's what you're aiming for.
My sister sent this to me a couple days ago and it had a similar effect on me. What we could learn from someone like that. I want to bow my head in shame at my unworthiness. I give what I can to the Salvation Army and Feed the Hungry, but this man goes right to the root of the problem and takes action.

Krishnan sets the bar too high for most of us, but I don't believe for a minute that any and all of us could not do more than we do to help the less fortunate. I would love to look into the eyes of the robber barons while they viewed this video. I wonder if they would even twitch?
Thank you, Cartouche. What a beautiful man he is. I, too, have a very long way to go.
This sounds like it will make me all verklempt. I will come back to watch the video when the room has cleared.
This touches a nerve m’lady. One I will clearly have to explain further, but not here. I have posted this video where other close friends and family can also see it. I married someone capable of giving of herself in this manner. I have always been well intentioned, but I have lacked the resolve to take action. I think I would be fooling myself to believe that I could ever achieve such a state of selflessness, but I deeply respect those that can. Excellent post my friend.
Incredible how one person can do the simplest of things that inspire everyone -- amen...
Having a practical turn of mind, I was wondering how he finances himself. He quit his job to do this, he says. Maybe as a Brahmin he is independently wealthy (tho the only Brahmin I ever knew worked as an accountant in a small company).

I used to do a lot of volunteering in prisons and give money to causes FTTT. I still do some 'ministry' work - but most of my time and energy I put into my own life, such as it is - I'm *retired* now.
This is beautiful, cartouche, thank you for this...
Beautiful, and thank you, I hadn't seen this. I often feel I have a long way to go to being a better human being too. I keep thinking I'm not doing enough, then I remind myself better a drop in the bucket, than a drop out of it, and I try to do a little more. He's right, see the joy of giving, nothing else feels as good.
This is lovely and the way it has touched you is only possible because you were ready to be touched. Thank you for sharing this and for sharing how it has touched you. The world is already changed for the better. r
Thank you. I followed the link to the American site.I'll mail the check tomorrow. You are an inspiration.
Wow.

We can't solve many of mankind's problems if people aren't fed and clothed and if we can't keep them healthy. What Mr. Krishnan is doing so nobly is ensuring their basic needs so they can begin addressing their long-term needs. What he accomplishes should humble us.
So eloquently put cartouche. You put into words the way I felt after watching this video and the others at CNN Heroes. I'm grateful and humbled to have seen their stories and was particularly moved by Mr. Narayanan Krishnan's as well. What's extraordinary to me is that these people see a need in the world and instead of dismissing their feelings of compassion to get on with their lives, they embrace them and take action, often beginning with a small, simple act of kindness that evolves into a world-changing mission. Twenty-four-year-old Evans Wadongo, for instance, (though no Krishnan) crafted solar powered lights so that children in rural Kenya could complete their education after dark, significantly altering drop-out rates and the locals' quality of life. I was struck by how something so simple could make such an impact with a bit compassion and a lot of determination, especially when those traits sparked from one so young. Inspiring.
Like Myriad, I wondered how he supports himself. So I went to the CNN page. It says:

[quote]
The group's operations cost about $327 a day, but sponsored donations only cover 22 days a month. Krishnan subsidizes the shortfall with $88 he receives in monthly rent from a home his grandfather gave him.

Krishnan sleeps in Akshaya's modest kitchen with his few co-workers. Since investing his entire savings of $2,500 in 2002, he has taken no salary and subsists with the help of his once-unsupportive parents.

"They had a lot of pain because they had spent a lot on my education," he said. "I asked my mother, 'Please come with me, see what I am doing.' After coming back home, my mother said, 'You feed all those people, the rest of the lifetime I am there, I will feed you.'
[unquote]

That's when I cried... he sets the bar high, indeed.
We are all in the same Open Boat. That tale, by Stephen Crane ("The Red Badge of Courage") made be feel this early on.
Thanks for this.
r.
Lovely this. I hear your heart in every word you write. Nutrition of the soul is what I understand best. We may struggle to feed all, but feeding one who might otherwise have starved is, in its way, feeding all. Let us not forget the power of such nutrition often offered here in words.
You have used your considerable talent and skill as an opinion leader here to pass on his example. You are on the right path. Keep walking.
I am glad that I saw this video and read your words this morning. He is an inspiration and makes me want to do more. Recently I have started volunteering for the Food Gatherer's and ride in the trucks to pick up food around town. It's a start but I think there may be more I can do.
Cartouche you always put the bar high as a person and inspire many of us with your writing. You are already on the path. I thank you for sharing this.
Lovely to start the morning with this. Warmth for the heart on a chilly morning. Is a gift to start the day with this hope. Thank you, Cartouche.
Yes, India has a way of snapping us to attention and bringing out the best in us through it's many concerned citizens. We all have to learn to shed our personal gains for the benefit of all. Therefore we become better people while helping others. Thanks for sharing your thoughts and this video. Solstice Greetings of high excellence.
The video is a life-changer, unless one exerts great will to forget about it. (Or one is pathologically unable to feel anything). I hope to be with you on the journey to "better." There's lots of work to do......
Cartouche (Patricia),

This man's gift is not just what he does everyday, but how he inspires the rest of us to be. I know a man like this. His name is Dr. Ariyaratne and he founded the "development organization" Sarvodaya in Sri Lanka. I worked for them on and off for years. What they give me, by giving to them, is hope. I would have a hard time getting out of bed in the morning if he and they didn't exist.
PS, Patricia, you give of yourself in an equal way everyday to the care of your mother.

Denise, the rich in our country are too busy giving to the Republican Party and working against anything that has anything to do with giving to the poor.
I like, a lot, your distinction between living with purpose and living on purpose. I understand your dilemma, too: Thoreau tells us that the purpose in life is "action from principle--the perception and performance of right." We often know what we believe is "right," but can't always translate that into action. We are works in progress, are we not? Maybe Mr. Krishnan's example, and many more like it, will call us to reflect--and act.
Beautiful man and purpose.
This now viral video is both heartening and saddening, and certainly inspiring, and worth remembering. Maybe it can make a difference beyond this man's great work.
I see what you mean, cartouche. Why is it there are so many people on the brink of destitution themselves willing to give what little they have to others less fortunate, and so many people with the means to make a difference who simply look the other way?

Lezlie
What can I say - thank you! R, of course. Love and light, E
This is really amazing. I am especially impressed by how physically close he is with the people he helps. It's one thing to make food for the poor - that's already a wonderful deed. But to be unafraid, unrepulsed, and so full of love and mercy towards them - that is truly something we don't see every day. Thanks for sharing this. R.
This is so beautiful and thank you for introducing us to Mr. Krishnan. I share this commitment . To love and be of service is truly the only reason we are here. I get the sense you already are the person you want to be, that you already spread loving kindness and give of yourself. But it is so easy to get wrapped up in less important matters, this post is a reminder I am grateful for. Hugs to you Cartouche and hugs to Mr. Krishnan
What a beautiful person...if we all had but a smidge of him in each of us...beautiful Cartouche. ~r
I've been on this journey for awhile now. I'm only just coming to terms with the fact that there is no destiny... just the journey. Thanks for the gift, too. I hope people take taminute to watch it (the video) and share it. It's beautiful.
So worth sharing. Thank you.
I question life's purpose every day.

Rated.
Very few people can handle the physical and emotional intimacy of how he gives of himself, and this is for me the most admirable. It is easy to write a check. It is not as easy for most people to engage others in this way.

Thanks for sharing it. When writers illuminate good in the world, they -- I do believe -- are also doing some good by using their/our talents to support such people.
I shared this video and mulled it over in my mind many times. I spent seven months in India and the images from that time are intense. Here in America we have more and more hungry people. I learned on NPR today that this year there are more letters to Santa Claus at the US Post Office asking for food and basic things that ever before. Give.
If we could all just love the people around us like he does! This was a beautiful message for the season.
What an awesome message and an awesome ambassador for love and kindness. Like Verbal's comment, while watching, I kept thinking about the power-hungry people in our society who have no respect for true hunger.
Amazing, amazing, amazing. I shared. I shall try to give more as well.