- northern city, United States
- July 24
- Temperamental Story Teller
- posts will tell
MY RECENT POSTS
- It's Funny How If You Ask, You
October 12, 2014 12:29PM
- I'm still here
August 02, 2014 03:30PM
- How Do Dog-less People Stand
December 10, 2013 12:55PM
- I Can Kick Ass
November 20, 2013 09:12PM
- and so it goes
September 26, 2013 08:45PM
MY RECENT COMMENTS
- “I'm so sorry, LL.
Personally, I don't believe in
a god who
October 12, 2014 04:59PM
- “Love the photos. So good
to see you Pilgrim and some of
October 12, 2014 12:56PM
- “over-indulgence in
childhood promotes addictions,
discord AND families
October 12, 2014 12:52PM
- “Anyone else have a story
of getting just what you asked
yet more than you
October 12, 2014 12:49PM
- “So good to see your
writing here. This memoir is
open some minds,
October 12, 2014 12:47PM
Caroline marie's Links
- Seasonal Dreams and Middle-Aged Streams of Thought
- Adopting an Older Child
- Fairy tales, poems and more
I told the Universe that I wanted to become a more loving person. Me! More loving! It is a funny request because I am often a crabass. You have to know me in real life to know how true that description is. Oh my friends would dispute that a little, I think.… Read full post »
My first post of 2014.
This year has been uneventful. I've been uninspired to do much, so I'm mostly just plodding along - going to work, having dinners with friends, managing my home, parenting my teen.
Inside I am restless, but outside I am plodding along, turning the monthly pages… Read full post »
My life seems a lot different since my dog died three months ago.
For one thing, I am checked-out quite a bit more than usual. Hours pass while I sit in front of a screen. Last night the windchill was -25. Yes, 25 below zero, and I smiled to… Read full post »
It gets dark so early now and with the chill in the air I just want to wrap myself in a blanket, drink cocoa with cinnamon and cayenne and call it a day by 5:30.
This Fall has been kicking my butt and the good news is that I've learned that… Read full post »
I'm tired and busy. It's a busy time of year at work, and my daughter is keeping me busy with her back and forth routine of "I love you and must hug you every minute" and "I hate you so much I can't acknowledge your presence."
I find that when other… Read full post »
Here's another M story: http://open.salon.com/blog/caroline_marie/2011/01/16/gns_funny_story_about_my_wicked_dog
I'm writing this from my deck and damn, those cicadas are loud! I thought for weeks that it was the power lines buzzing or something. I grew up on the Southwest Side of Chicago, what do I know about nature? Then I had over some friends who commented on the LOUD… Read full post »
Let's say you had an unusual childhood, and not in a good way. It was bad and unusual. (although not unusually bad.)
The main elements of your story leave the people you tell it to with an expression that expresses they have no idea how to respond.
On the positive side… Read full post »
The sun is shining now as I sit on my deck and think about submitting to the Universe.
We've had a lot of storms here lately, and many streets in my town are littered with fallen trees. The ground turned to soppy mud and the roots had nothing to hold on… Read full post »
I can't quite catch my breath because tears keep sticking in my throat. From my front window, I watch the swollen creek waters racing past me.
I am sad. I am so sad that I don't know what to do with all the sadness, it leaks out my eyes, it catches in… Read full post »
Some days I wake up with a cold dark meanness hissing and snarling the life blood right out of my heart.
What? my daughter asks alarmed when she sees my face although I said nothing.
I am not a morning person.
Last night I stroked her hair until midnight while she… Read full post »
I just stepped out into the night with my dog, and the garage light was reflecting off of the green leaves on the trees along my driveway. Green leaves! (gasp) Spring has really come.
No matter how long and difficult the winter, we can trust that Spring Will Return.
We can… Read full post »
Spring is coming late here...no leaves on the trees yet, but at least the snow is gone, well mostly, except for the slowly shrinking pile in the shade next to the parking ramp.
The trauma under my skin is slowly shrinking too, as peacefulness slowly wraps itself around my home,… Read full post »
I have written 125 posts since I started this blog in January 2010. The more recent ones are focused on parenting a traumatized kid (and being traumatized by the traumatized kid) but before that
I used to write dark fairy tales, remember? And poems and essays. I like going back and reading… Read full post »
The last few weeks my
thoughts have been in a very dark place. I have calculated the
reasons to be:
50% constant snow storms long after leaves and grass and flowers should have emerged
25% genetic serotonin deficiency
25% recovering from stress and trauma of Penny's stress and trauma… Read full post »
I want to write about this day because it was a good one.
Easter is fun when you have a kid who still wants you to hide candy around the house. I also get to fill a basket with pretty springtime girly things. I like to make her holidays special. We… Read full post »
Giant piles of dirty snow every where you look in late March deepens my restlessness and despair.
This weekend I have to write a paper about a great christian mystic, a woman from the 1500s. Any guesses on who it is? And now I will summarize for you, my 7 blog… Read full post »
Penny has come back to me.
Last week, she flew cross country to visit her bio family. Right now, she is laying down with her head on my lap, falling in and out of sleep. We are on the couch watching Lord of the Rings.
I dislike fantasy - books, movies,… Read full post »
My early-40s have been more transformative than I could have imagined.
I feel my self shifting all the time. The real me is becoming stronger. Self-consciousness is dissolving into self acceptance.
None of the scary, secret parts of myself seem so scary anymore.
Choosing love over comfort has become… Read full post »
The cycle of life --a woman's life--is in my thoughts right now.
Girls at Penny's school are cutting themselves, leaving deep wounds. These girls have not been through the severe trauma that Penny has experienced, but they are lashing out against their own bodies, their own sanity, their own… Read full post »
From December 19:
Since I'm having a hard time getting back into the habit of
blogging, I'm just going to make a list of thoughts.
1)There is NO doubt in my mind that if there was a gun in my house I would have been killed by now. Please don't judge the… Read full post »
Post I started December 9th:
Here's what it looks like out my window:
I'm feeling pretty good right now -the snow is so beautiful and the harsh weather reminds me how fortunate I am to have a cozy home, a full fridge, etc.
Penny has been holed up in… Read full post »