My history as a fourth-grade teacher usually colors the way I see most holidays. In the classroom, my favorite thing to do was to say "Let me tell you something that the other teachers won't tell you..." It made the students pay attention, and made them feel that they were in on a secret: the secret truth that is history.
After reading Deborah's post this week, I was undone. She brought to light a lot of things that I taught in my classroom, and gave a firm foundation of what Cinco de Mayo is. So, my post can be no better than hers, if you are seeking history. What I can tell you (if you want to know) is how awkward it was to grow up Hispanic in a farming town with an Irish father that gave me a last name that didn't identify me right away to strangers. It starts with my my childhood in Tracy, California.
I grew up with a Mexican mother, Juana, who had her name "American-ized" to Jennie as a small girl. I never sensed any conflict in this, and there was never a discussion of when it happened. My father was of Irish descent, and came from Boston - his name is Jack. So, Jack and Jennie had five stunning little kids, all delightfully beautiful... and not "too white".
I was not Irish only, but I had the Irish pride. I was not Mexican only, but I had the Mexican coloring. No one told me that if I ever left American soil and moved to Africa, I would be known as "the American" and no one would ask about my heritage.
In high school, a few days before the Cinco de Mayo parade in town (if you've never been to one, you are missing a true slice of Americana) I found out in the Tracy Press that my sister Shari's friend had been voted Cinco de Mayo queen - the parade beauty that got to ride on a convertable surrounded by color and flowers. I was livid...what a faker! She was like me, only half-Hispanic. What right did she have to call herself a Cinco de Mayo queen? Now she would be paraded in front of the whole town and worshipped, along with our Lady of Guadalupe, like she was a real Mexican girl.
I threw the paper down and got ready for school. What did I care? I didn't want to be in a stupid Mexican parade anyway...but part of me felt orphaned. Inside of me, I was the faker. I had an Irish surname, that identified me as a proud Irish girl, and I had a perpetual tan that made me the envy of my friends. But how much did I have pride in my Mexican heritage?
In the carpool on the way home, Melissa's reign was the subject of conversation.
"Did you see that Melissa is going to be Cinco de Mayo Queen?" one of my friends said. "She definitely was the prettiest one of all the girls who were running."
Everyone agreed, and said even her picture in the paper was gorgeous. Cinco de Mayo queens are not known for making speeches, just looking good.
"Hey, Janet," one of my other friends said, "Why didn't you run for Cinco de Mayo queen?" He meant it as a compliment, really. He didn't know how much the whole thing bothered me.
"I don't have enough Cinco in my Mayo." I replied flatly. Everyone thought that was funny, even my mom laughed.
In my head, I didn't know how to do it: be a Mexican-American. After all, Cinco de Mayo, while celebrated in Puebla like a bomb, is not such a popular holiday in Mexico. In the States, it was a Hispanic Pride Day where all of the real cowboys of California got out their black suits and big sombreros and rode atop horses carrying Mexican flags. It was when the pretty Mexican girls dressed up in big skirts and made hypnotic circles with them while they danced.
In school, the Mexican kids got free lunches because their parents were working the fields. They spoke Spanish before they spoke English and the drove low riders or shiny big cars while the rest of the kids drove Trans-Ams. Not me, but the rest of the kids who mattered. I could count my real Mexican friends on one hand, and my personal hypocrisy was killing me.
In the kitchen of my house is where I became a real Mexican. It became the way I worked out who that half of me was. As a teen, I learned the secrets of a good enchilada sauce from my grandma. I made masa with her and tried to roll tortillas, but they came out "like maps" my grandma said.
Eventually, after the challenge of the teen years, I became less shallow, and less consumed with myself. I began to read quite a bit and what I found out that the history of Cinco deMay helped me. After all, the holiday had to be about more than the perfect margarita wine cooler, right?
In 1862, Mexico was huge, but the army was not as advanced in Military strategy as the Europeans who had interests there - France, Spain and Great Britain. The three countries, decided to unite and force an uppity Mexico to pay back the money it owed to them, its foreign investors. By the end of the year, Spanish ships from Cuba sat at Veracruz, Mexico's largest port, joined soon after by ships from France and Britain, in a not-so-subtle threat to Mexican sovereignty.
After several skirmishes with the French, on May 5 in Puebla, a large city between Mexico City and Veracruz, that the French officially underestimated the spirit and the power of the Mexican army and were defeated, badly. The Battle of Puebla, while a great show of strength, didn't end the war. It took a lot of other battles, and slowly the world took notice that Mexico was more than what they thought it was. President Johnson, in order to protect American interests, sent the US Army to the border to show our official support, and in 1866 the French withdrawl (not exactly an official surrender) spoke volumes to the world. Mexcio was un-officially sovereign.
News of the Mexican victory spread to the western US when Mexican gold miners in northern California were so overjoyed at their compatriots’ success that they celebrated by firing guns and singing patriotic songs. Thus, Cinco de Mayo, the party, was born.
As a Californian, I can honestly say that I never struggled to learn how to celebrate and drink margaritas... that came naturally.
I have struggled to be a good representation to the people that have gone before me and given me their love and hearts and their faith. I still want to know truth and strength and the beauty of my people, who are generally underestimated, still.
In my kitchen, I am Mexican. In South Africa, where I am known as a white American lady, I will cook tamales with a killer sauce that will make me cry and miss my family.
And I will wear my colorful Mexican bata, and be the Cinco de Mayo Queen of Johannesburg. Or at least my house....