I got the application for the job just down the street. I just have to fill out the "professional references" section and take it back.

Apparently my dad told my step mom that he's not taking me down there with him unless I can prove that I can get a job and keep it or some weird crap like that. And now he probably won't be back by next month. :| I'm going insane with all this shit. If I don't get the job, then I'm pretty much screwed because I don't have a car now - and if I did, it wouldn't have insurance - and there's nowhere else to apply, except the gas station. But I'm sure I'll get the job.

My mom's still super uptight and bitchy, but that'll never change. I'm looking for every excuse under the sun to get out of the house whenever possible and tonight I hung out with my friend who biked here (not that he lives more than maybe 2-3 miles away) just to keep at least a little bit of my rapidly declining insanity.

My step mom thinks things through. I step back and look at the big picture. Everyone else asks for mission impossible then bitches when I can't successfully accomplish it. Growing up does suck!

However, if I were to move to Switzerland, I could be lazy since Eric is my rich friend and works all the time so he has no time to spend his money. He said he could afford to support me and get me German lessons. Of course I'd try to find a job once I knew enough German but until then, I could be the "house wife". Cleaning and cooking whatever I could, taking care of his cats... spending his money... y'know, the typical things!

But I'm definitely not ready to leave the states yet. I'd love to and I dream of it, but ... big picture.

I'm just going insane. I may be a legal adult but that doesn't stop my mother from treating me like a two year old. My mind is just tangled up and spending the last couple hours with my friend kinda helped. I vented and we told stories and just acted like the crazy people we are. Everyone needs to do that once in a while - no matter how old. (: